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Hey dudes/dudettes, i was just flicking thru my songs and thought wouldn't it be cool to have a christian song reach top 10? just think how many people around the world would hear it and start singing it, i dont know about you but im constantly looking up lyrics so i can sing songs properly, and if those ppl looked them up then they could have a proper look at them and maybe start to think about it. i love shell's song babrie girl, dont know if you have heard it, but try listenin to it girlies, its amazing. really gets me ready for the day ahead!!!! well any way let me know what you guys think and maybe we can get some lyrics on the go????
There is a tragic event that has happened a couple days ago and it is all over the news. The earthquake in Hati that not only effected the many people in Hati, but people around the world! YOUR prayers are needed! The power of prayer will effect not only the people in Hati but it will effect you also! God, needs us as the pillars of his church to come together and pray for the people in Hati! He is mourning with them also! Lets us all join together as a social network to try and make a difference. If you could just leave a prayer as a comment, that would be great! God Bless you all! Thank you for coming together so we can attack this Giant with the power of prayer! God Bless You All!
Being Gay. ((COMMENT YOUR OPINION))...i wanna know =] but remember ((JUDGING)) is a sin. Only God Should Judge. BUT tell me what you think. My opinion::
The Bible is taken out of context with the whole SODOM AND GOMORRAH. and it says \"MAN SHALL NOT LAY WITH ANOTHER MAN.\" therefore making lesbians okay? or if you r taking it as man as in MAN AND WOMAN then we are all sinning. which we r all sinners to begin with. which if gay and lesbian marriage is illegal bc its a \"sin\" then shouldnt being a lawyer be illegal because they lie all the time. and in the Bible it also says \"NO sin is greater than the other\" so there ya go theres my opinion. i dnt think its a sin i think its taken out of context and i wanna know ur feelings so COMMENT!!! pweez?
THIS IS A GENERATION IN CRISIS
* 1 out of 11 attempt SUICIDE each year.
* 1 out of 10 fifteen year olds and younger have gone through family divorce in their life-time.
* 58% have been involved in objectionable content on the web.
* 40% have experimented with SELF-INJURY (are "cutters").
* Use of prescription DRUGS (Ritalin, anti-depressants etc.) by children/teens has increased substantially in the past few years.
THIS IS A GENERATION WITHOUT MORALITY
- By the time the average child graduates from high school, he/she will have watched 19,000 hours of TV including about 200,000 sexual acts and 1 million ACTS OF VIOLENCE.
- 1 in 10 high school females have reported being RAPED at some point in their life.
- Fear of violence in schools is now the leading "worry" of public school teens.
- 48% of high school seniors are SEXUALLY ACTIVE (had sexual intercourse in past 3 months).
THIS IS A GENERATION WITHOUT TRUTH
- 91% say there is NO ABSOLUTE TRUTH.
- 75% of teens in America believe the central message of the Bible is, "God helps those who help themselves".
- 53% believe Jesus committed sin (40% of born again teens believe Jesus committed sin).
Find out more about the BattleCry for a Generation by clicking through to the statistics and videos on the left.
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As we can now see that Christianteenagers is getting much better theres no need for a diff website but i brought this up so i can inform everyone DONT ABANDON OR QUIT THE WEBSITE because we need to meet friends and enjoy what we do so i hope chrisitanteenagers can stay for anyone else in the future =),GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!!!!=)
Some of us-including me-have gone through a time where we read the Bible, but we think ; is this really true? did God really say that? did this really happen? well see what u think after reading this.
The Bible itself says many times that it is the official, authentic word of God (2 Timothy 3:16 for eg.) but check this out; The Bible is sooo diverse -- it has topics on History, has Geneologies, has Poetry, sermons, stories, profecies, and i could go on. Also, the Bible wasnt' written in one period-front to back-. the Bible was written piece by piece in the space of 1500 years, in 3 different continents in 3 different languages and by 40 different authors, yet when we open our Bible, we see that it has one main theme: it goes from creation to the waiting for the messiah to the comming of Jesus to the starting of the church. How can it be sooo unified, and yet so diverse? (by the way, those 40 different authors probably didn 't know eachother or even lived in the same eras!) the answer is that they had to have ONE person or being guiding them-inspiring them to write in such a unified way. that one person was God.
Another thing. There are over 300 different prophecies in the old testament. and know what? EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM WAS FULFILLED!!! how could that be if God didn 't put those prophecies into the mouths of the different prophets? believe me peoples, the Bible is the word of God. Totally and with no doubts.
But maybe u want to know if the Bible is true not just because it says it is, or cuz some prophesies that had nothing to do with u were fulfilled. U want it to be proven some other way. See what u think about this: In science, when they come across a historical document while excavating or something, they have 3 tests that they put historical documents through in order to see if they are correct: the internal test checks the document's internal content to see if the doc. contradicts itself anywhere. Then comes the external test. this test takes the doc. and compaires it to other historical documents that have already been proven true. If the document is consistent with the other proven docs, then it moves on to the final test ( i forget what this 3rd test is called since i only read this in my science class a couple months ago. lol) anyway, this third test checks to see if what the document says happened really happened, for eg. if the document says that this volcano erupted in this year, the scientists would check to see if that is correct.
well now ur thinking "where is she going with all this scientific stuff? what does it have to do with the Bible?" well, scientists - believers and non-believers alike- have tested the Bible this way (since the Bible is considered a historical document in a way) Know what these scientists have found after generations and generations of carefull study? that the Bible passes all 3 of these tests as well as and even better all other historically correct documents and passes with flying colors. So now, even un believers have to admit that the Bible is true. If the historical parts of the bible are true (even scientiffically proven to be fact) and all of the 300 Prophecies were fulfilled, then why can't the stuff about God and Jesus be true as well? if u ask me, i have no doubt what so ever that the Bible is true. there is just too much evidence for me to believe other wise!! lol
so now what do u think? I think no, i KNOW that The Bible is definately Fact. Jesus is definately My savior, and God is definately my god, and there is no other beside Him. i hope u feel the same way. Rock on for Christ!!!!
okay no body pleeze dont get mad at me or stop being friends im just asking for help...recently im having more and more trouble not just with christainity but any realigion.its not that i dont believ there is a higher power cuz i do..its just im not sure if i believe in the RIGHT one...its just that all my life iv been christain..and iv even been through the process and thought i was saved...but now im not so sure..after everything iv been throug(which other been have been in worse and better situations..but im not loking for a pity party..and ill be a little honest with u all...)i m not emo...not that theres anyhting wrong with emo ppl im just not emo..but i honestly have attempted suicide multiple times...it hasnt gotten me anywhere but a paaded cell in the past and therapy seesions i dont want...iv tried over dose..cutting...i dont have the guts to go belimic(eating disorder to throw up food....i hate the icky taste in my mouth and bad breath...yuck...)and i probably dont even have that bad of a situation...i dont have bipolar and usually getting mad or sad isnt that bad..its just that a figure of my past(long lost and never to retun ex-bf whom i loved...not to be melodramtic)he has pretty much out of no where decided hes mad at me..its tupid i know but i cant help but wonder why he would go for the snobbeist. brattiest , most undeserving of his pure(in my eyes)heart...she has done nothing but complain...stalking..and lie to his face about all three of us...and she thinks im a loser becuz the only aroepostle shirt i have i sleep in(its too big)she has had more incidents of this in the past...i know its his choice that i cant take away..but STILL!!!!!why cant he like the NICE,CUTER(if i say so myself)sweet done nothing wrong(mostly atleast to him)becca smith???me!!!u would think ppl would like the ppl that are NICE to them and not MEAN OLD"RICH-@!%$# 'ES!"(exuse my french pleeze...)its not fair and i dont understand why god would let him fall into the greedy little trap of her evil hands instead of sumone who cares about him????i know i have a bf(u know who u r....and ur the sweetest guy i ever met)but he wont even be firends..i know i made the mistake of breaking up with him 19 months ago...and its the worst thing i have ever done(not to mention the stupidest!!!) so my question is if god loves us so much and has kept me alive this long no matter what....(a tree fell on my house one night and i was under it...)then why cant he put us where well be most wanted (for my ex) and leave the good guys hanging on a rope by two fingers??(figurativly speaking)PLEEZE HELP ME CUZ I SERIOUSLY NEED REASSURENCE!!!!
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I feel so discouraged I studied so hard for zoology that I did not put much attention in studying for RS.......I failed in both subjects!!I should've just disregard zoology and focused more on RS...I feel so stupid..like even if i'll study hard in zoology i'll still fail ,worst my confirmation for the course im getting(college) depends on it...I prayed so much and ask for His help I know i was guided i felt his presence during the exam, i felt so much confidence that i got high and passed the test...but then i didn't..it's very heart breaking and i don't even have anyone to sincerely talked to in my class coz im not close to them..it bugs me so much that i did not went to any family gatherings justto study ZOOLOGY!!!....i studied everywhere in the book,the net..but still I fail.//..fail.fail,/./.im suppose to study this afternoon but im really not motivated..i feel so useless at this point of time..........i want to pray and go to God coz I know he's really the only one who can help..but bcoz im just so dar dscouraged..i don'thave the urge just to even open up to God everything..Im not saying that I totally lost my faith towards HIm..but with everything that's been happenin...it's like im goin far away from Him..I'm veryafraid that that's gonna get worse....Please anyone..help...
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hello am a christian and i believe in God but am goin through a situation thats pulling me from Him and i cant stop i try and try basically the thing is am starting to like girls and its weird and i want to stop but its too hard i need help i dnt want to be a lesbian coz its wrong i want to be a good christian
can you help me please
email me if u want hhotmims@htomail.co.uk i woz born in 1993 nt 1994
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Just before you read this i want to say that the Non-Christian music i am talking about is music that glorifies the things of the flesh. I am not talking about instramental music... NOTHING ELSE. What i am targeting are songs that deliberately gloryfy Satan (like songs that talk about sex, drugs, violence, etc.). I realized that i didnt make that clear and i needed to edit this blog. So anyway here's the blog.
When I was young, I didn't listen to Non-Christian music. I tried to stay clear of all that. More and more I realized that there were so many Non- Christian artist who had the same style as me. You see I am a songwriter, and I love to sing but gospel music didn't attract me. It was good but the beats seemed amateur. Now don't get me wrong I don't think I'm all professional but there was a particular sound in gospel music that I never heard until 2008. CDs like Deitrick Haddon's Revealed (highly recommended) and Mary Mary's The Sound. That's the sound I like but with more R&B/ Hip Hop to it.
Even though I was attracted to Deitrick and Mary Mary I still loved the Non-Christian music. I really loved Beyoncé, Chris Brown, Ne-Yo, and some of Rihanna (but I was picky with her; she's going downhill anyway but that's besides the point). New artist to me were Eric Benét and Avant and they really caught my eye. You see I was so "in love" with the artist's music that I didn't even see the damage it was doing to me. Songs with subliminal messages about sex made me have impure thoughts. Listening to this music made my heart impure and disconnected to God. You see I treated music like my idol and it was my everything. I couldn't go to sleep without hearing Beyoncé or Ne-Yo and would wake up to the sweet and calming sounds of Eric Benét.
Non-Christian had me twisted. I placed it before God. It was like a drug. It was so bad that I lied to my mom about going to the local library to do a project and in actuality, I was going to download music. Every other day I would use a school desktop in Computer Lit. (a computer class that teaches you to type without looking at the keys) and download 30-50 songs a day instead of typing the lessons.
I let the devil play with my mind. What I learned through a preacher named G. Craig Lewis and his meassage, The Truth About Hip-Hop is that before Satan was kicked out of heaven he was an angel named Lucifer. Lucifer was the musician of Heaven. He was the first thing you heard in the morning and the last one heard at night. Lucifer saw how music could make your emotions go wild. One song could make you happy, sad, make you remember the past, cry, and make you filled with encouragement. He manipulated the very thing God gave him and thought he was better God. God threw Lucifer out of Heaven and his followers (1/3 of the angels). Even though Satan was kicked out, his gift didn't change. Just as a worship leader ushers the presence of God in with music on Sunday mornings, Lucifer did in Heaven. Now like you read, the gift didn't change but his assignment did. Lucifer now ushers in hatred through some rappers, lust through artists like Beyoncé, sex/ perversion through artist like Ne-Yo and Chris Brown, and witchcraft through some rock bands.
I am not trying to bash a music culture but what I am saying is that there are many things that are being ushered into our spirits and minds that we have no business letting in. I am sure you've noticed that if you're sad all you have to do is put on your favorite song (whether Christian or not) with that awesome beat and just bang your head, dance, jump, sing, and smile. You play it when you exercise, at parties, when you are cleaning your room or doing your home and so on. Music is an essential part of life and Satan wants you to listen to his music so he can be an essential part of your life.
Non-Christian music is not good for you. However, you may wonder if there are any exceptions. Well that is a tough question. Ultimately it's the writer of the song that matters the most. When someone writes a song, his or her spirit is on that song. Whether if it is innocent or not you don't know whose heart you're listening to. For the Bible says in Luke 6: 45- "...out of the heart, the mouth speaks." Therefore, what is in your heart you will say. Therefore, if the songwriter is writing about sex and all other immoral deeds, it is from their heart. If you are listening to it and singing along, it may not be in your heart just yet but words have power and the word says in Proverbs 17:21- "Death and life is in the power of the tongue..." Lastly in James 1:15-" ...and sin when it is full grown, gives birth to death." To put all of this in a nutshell: if you are singing about sin (singing about doing sin, having sin, etc.) you speak it into existence in your life so you declare it to be true. Then act out the sin and sin brings forth death. So in actuality you are basically speaking death in your life. Didn't know how deep it was huh?
So if this blog has inspired you to quit listening to Non-Christian music that gloyfies the flesh then great. However, don't quit "cold turkey" like a smoker would unless God tells you to. You need God to convict you. Literally say, "God please convict my spirit of listening to Non-Christian music that gloryfies the flesh." I did and from then on, in time, I deleted all of my Non-Christian music (and I'm pretty sure I downloaded more than 500 songs). So all I have to say is be blessed and look towards the future. Feel free to leave comments on this and tell me how you feel. Also if you turn your life around, thank God first, not me because he gave me the words, I was just the tool.
Gospel with the R&B/ Hip Hop Sound
Revealed by Deitrick Haddon (Personal Rating: 5 Stars )
Thankful (Personal Rating: 4 1/3 Stars) and The Sound by Mary Mary (Personal Rating: 3 3/4 Stars)
Hero (Personal Rating: 5 Stars) and The Fight of My Life by Kirk Franklin
Kingdom Business by Canton Jones
Christian Rap
Identity Crisis by Tadashii (Personal Rating: 4 ½ Stars)
After the Music Stops (Personal Rating: 4 Stars) and Rebel (Personal Rating: 4 ½ Stars) by Lecrae
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Not really sure what I am supposed to put in these blogs so I guess I'll just tell you about my life.
Well, I grew up in a christian background. My dad was a minister, my mom taught sunday school, and there was rarely a Sunday or Wednesday that we didnt go to church. At the church my dad was looked to with respect and everyone thought we were the perfect family, but at home it was a different story. My dad was always angry, my parents always fought, dad was always yelling and hitting. This is what I grew up with so I thought it was normal.
When I was 6 yearsold my family and I went to go see a play called The Rapture. Scared me to death. So during the intermission I told my dad I wanted to ask Jesus into my heart. So we went up there and I prayed the "prayer." When I got home my dad wasnt feeling good, and for the next couple of days he couldnt even stand. I remember it was the fourth day and he began to feel much better when he asked me to come to him. I went in there and he told me, "Your salvation almost killed me." Talk about breaking down your kid's spirit. Take my advice, when you have kids dont tell them their salvation almost killed you. That was the first time I turned my back on God. I figured if God had to kill people to save others I didnt want a part of it.
When I was 10, I became really good friends with this guy that my family took to church. He was about 15. I concidered him a brother. someone i could trust and felt safe with. there was a time where i didnt see him for about 4 months. when he did start coming again he made me very uncomfortable. I remember I had just turned 11 like 2 weeks before, when things turned a different direction. he wanted to be more than friends and i told him no. that is when the inapropriate touching began. i remember him telling me the first time it happened, "If you tell anyone, you will be sorry," and being the gulable person that i am, i believed him. I let it go on for 3 years, each time alittle bit worse than the last. it kept going on until one day he wanted to do more than touch and hold. then i threatened him... i remember the look in his eye. it was like he was afraid. that is when it dond on me, this whole time i could have ended it... that was the last time I ever saw Javon again.
Throughout my life, as i said above, my dad was verbally and physically abusive. I remember around when i was like 12, i began feeling extremely empty and alone. I had finally come to the conclusion that I needed God. i was talking to a teacher about God one day when she told me God is like a father, like a best friend. I gave up on God then because i new i didnt need another dad like mine or another good friend like one that i had before. then when i was 15 my dad began to act like javon. my own father. i put a stop to that pretty fast but the hurt and anger of being betrayed my own father still haunts me. By the time this began to happen my dad was seperated with my mom. another past time of his became drinking. not alot, but there have been ocasions when he would drink alittle to much. these are the ocasions he became javon in my eyes. my mom still dosnt know the full extent of what happened. but she does know the outcome. i couldnt take the anger, pain, hurt, etc. any longer. i turned to cutting. i tried commiting suicide once but obviously, that didnt happen. i will never forget the relief that came with putting the blade to my skin but i will also never forget the outcome.
as i said before my dad seperated with my mom 3 years ago. his excuse, " God told me that I should." turns out the real reason was because he was having an affair with a married woman who he thought was going to leave her husband and be with him. turns out, he has had many woman while he was married with my mom. that proved my point that i didnt need a god.
God really took hold of my heart when i was 16 though. he has showed me that i am not alone, and that during the night when all the memories come back in dreams he is right there with me. i can trust him, not to great at it but i know i can. i am still tormented by my past. things that i have done and things others have done to me but he always shows me that he has forgiven me. that he loves me and will never abandon me. I dont know how i lived for so long without him. I am not going to lie, i sitll struggles. the down fall of being fallen. i will always struggle, i will always be tempted, i will always fail at things, but i have learned not to ponder on those but learn from them. for so long i thought the molesting i went through was my fault.sometimes i still have that thought, but it wasnt and that is what i am still learning. lol. i am still learning so much. that is one thing i really love about God. he is so patient. there is so much that he has taught me, that i am still learning, and that i have yet to learn.
that is all i am going to type, there is much more to tell but it is long enough.
What god showed me
I've been going to a young adult christian group for about 3 months now, I kinda just went for fun and didn't really listen to the messages that much, until last night. The group pastor was telling us about how we need to finally take a step of faith and cross the Jordan river to God and to leave behind our life of being captives.
Lately in life I've been so tired about what's been going on in this world, sexually immorality, murder, and many other things. I've just had enough, so I finally gave my life to God and I said that I dont care anymore as long as I could make a difference in this world. Then almost right on the spot God put something on my heart and I started crying almost as soon as he did. I've always felt so burdened seeing adults turn so many children away from their innocence. I can't stand it anymore, I wanna keep that innocence alive and love on kids the way Jesus would have intended us to.
I don't know what God has for me the upcoming months and years, but I know for once in my life I'm right, and it feels so good!
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Since last time I've been very upset for a reason that i don't even know why, for a question that I can't seem to explain...but then God gave me an answer to it..."THE BIBLE IS A RELIGIOUS BOOK"...with that, why should we question things here in life in terms of scientific basis or any other type of synthesis..it just goes as it is..because with God nothing is impossible...no questions should be asked and no doubts should be present u just have to have FAITH!!!...I LOVE GOD SO MUCH>>HE AMAZES ME IN MANY MANY MORE WAYs...he blesses me with things that I didn't really notice..I've been craving for him,but his just there with every correct decisions,or blessing or happiness that i have in life..I am filth with happiness despite of our family problem..It's nice to here from other people that he has been blessing has been hugging a lot of his children with his presence in their lives because that gives me more urge not to give up and be inspired to face every challenge in life that I'd still have to face...How I want that more and more people will feel his true presence in every way...If we just take time not to get hooked up with all the luxuries here in this world and notice even just the simple ways he does for us..we'll realize how enormously great his LOVE is for each of us!!!
Since i watch tv in spanish(because im a hispanic) i watched when a christian pastor planned a hijacked that god planned for him and he had hijacked with a fake bomb to get all polices to get him and he had told the whole world nationwide that god is coming soon and that everyone should get prepared for jesus return and he was sent to jail but in the bible it had said that John or someone had been sent to jail and he knew he wasnt scared because he knew god who take him out and free him and so this pastor had been sent to jail and is sentences to 15 years in jail but he knows god well free him from jail and god did the same thing in the bible but i think its a good thing what he did because god put that plan in his heart and he did it, he obeyed the lord and he wanted to report this news to the whole world to let them know about god and jesus returning and i think i love what he did.I support what he did and i know he will get out of jail because god always does miracles and i dont think what he did is stupid it was for god.
My parents had told me it was a stupid thing and was wrong but god put that in the pastors heart and i love this story because its something he did to show the world who god is and i need some opinions and this was a Foiled Hijack but he did it for god and i love what he did so ya god is good all the time.Send messages to me about your opinions or just comment but i believe jesus is coming sooner then ever.
If anyone needs help at all with anything message and i will answer your question but yes im with god all the way and i know he solves problems.Well i guess thats about it but i just want to say god bless to everyone and stay strong with the lord.Amen!
GOD SO LOVE THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONE AND ONLY SON SO EVER BELEIFS IN Him WILL NOT PERISH BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE
JOHN 3:16
Last night I was really struggling with something, well the past few weeks i have been. I am 17 and never had a boyfriend, date, first kiss, anything like that. I dont know why it is coming on so strong now. actually i guess i do. there is a guy that i really like. he is my best friend and i want him to choose me. the thing is, i keep wondering do i like him because i want him to fill the gap left behind by my other friend and my father or do i like him because God has given me that... realization. i was reading in my devotional last night and it talked about trusting God (that is a big word right there... trust. been struggling with that one for a long time and not just in my relationship with God.), and it dawned on me. God knows what is going on. He knows how i feel and what my questions are. He knows that i am struggling but He wants me to trust Him, not in what i think i can do but in what HE can do. im not saying that he is going to turn the guys mind to dating me or whatever. im saying that trusting in God and having an intimate relationship with Him is so much more. i have not stopped hoping that something will work out with me and my friend but i have stopped struggling with the thought that i absolutly need a guy. the only man i will ever need i already have, but maybe one day (hopefully awhile down the road) God will show me the man He has chosen for me. Until then i am content to trust in the One who holds me now.
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today in church, i've witnessed three different people been saved today.
there's a woman who was a homeless for 5 years, and no one has told her about God. there was an hispanic who lived in the community for 40 years and no one told him about God. there was a teenage girl who used to do drugs, dropped school, and no one told her about God. all three was saved in our church.
God is good all the time.
and last, there is a young man who have performed three different miracles in prayer to God. the first one, there was a man who had a brain tumor, and he doesn't believe in God. the young man touch his head and prayed for him on the day of his surgery, and when they opened him up, they didn't find a single trace of the tumor. the man was lead to the Lord. another was a college baseball player who had a major season ending broking knee, that same young man touched his knee and prayed, and the baseball player rose and was able to play and walk again. the third was a blind woman, the young man touched her eyes and prayed, and she saw again.
God bless that young man, and God is always good all the time.
Hey guys, just thinking about life and whats expected from us as teenagers, and suddenly thought what does life actually mean to me?
Does it mean meeting up with mates enjoying everyday as if its your last?
Telling every single person you meet about God?
Trying too earn as much money as possible?
Just plodding through life and see where it leads?
Well whatever it means to you, i always think that as long as you have God in your life, you can still enjoy yourself but at the same time show people your different and special because your part of God's awsum family. We have more members then Facebook/Myspace/Youtube....were the family of God.
Since knowing God i've noticed a change in me, i look in the mirror and accept who i am and what God has made me. I don't need to be size 0 to know that im accepted and loved. God loves us the way he made us cause we were made in his image.
So what if you haven't got a boyfriend/girlfriend, you have a awsum intimate relationship with God that is on a completely different level to earthly relationships.
You will always feel love and attention with God, he always has time for you.
=] doesn't that make you feel amazing? =]
leave comments on what life means to you, and how awsum God is
love ya all
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June 25, 2009 Michael Jackson died......a truly sad day for the world. He was an amazing preformer and friend to my family. My dad has most of the memories of working with him on his "Bad" tour, I remeber going to Neverland to visit him during the summer. He was a great person and the world will miss him. No matter what alligations that were made about him or what the media says he was a pure hearted man and yes he acted like a child at times but only cause he did not get a normal childhood, Jesus said " Unless you become like a child, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Anyone who welcomes a child in my name, welcomes me"........."God's kingdom is for children and people who are like them"
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I am an atheist, and I apparently need your guidance. To me, religion just seems like a tangled web of contradictions, and ludicracy. All of it is irrational, illogical, and arrogant.
Has anyone ever seen the movie "Knowing"? I love that movie, and although I haven't seen it yet, I can tell I'm not that big of a fan of the upcoming film "2012". At the church I go to on Saturday nights, we just finished a year-long series on Revelation. It really opened my eyes to all the prophesies that will come true before we know it. At the end of "Knowing", when Earth is destroyed by fire, that is my favorite scene of any movie or show I have ever seen. because according to Revelation, that is how Earth will be destroyed in the end. And we will start over again, a whole new Heaven and Earth. Two children really could be the start of the new Earth. "2012" is Biblically incorrect though, and although there are a lot of good things to it, "Knowing" is also incorrect, because no person can possibly know when the end of the world is going to be. God knows, and only God. I honestly don't think he will tell anyone. The Bible says somewhere something like: "Even the angels in Heaven do not know the hour, nor the day, when Christ will return for those who love him." All "2012" is going to do is reak havoc and chaos, and it'll be Y2K all over again. I do believe that this is probably the generation of Christ's return, and this issue gets me excited. I will be ready whenever God and God alone says it's time. I do hope it is far in the future though, because I want to be able to live my life to the fullest. And I just hope when the time comes, if we haven't already been raptured or if we're not already dead, that I can be with my brothers and sisters in Christ, and watch God's plan unfold. At the end of "Knowing", Nicolas Cage's character hugged his father and his dad said: "This isn't the end son". That was the last line in the movie. And I thought to myself, "It's only the beginning".
What if you're right?
And what if he was just another nice guy
what if you're right?
What if it's true?
They say the cross will only make a fool of you.
And what if it's true
what if he takes his place in history
with all the prophets and the kings
who taught us love and came in peace.
But then the story ends, what then?
But what if you're wrong?
What if there's more?
What if there's hope you never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you,
catch you by surprise?
What if he's more than enough?
And what if it's love?
What if you dig?
Way down deeper than your close-minded friends?
What if you dig?
What if you find
a thousand more unanswered questions down inside?
That's all you find?
What if you pick apart the logic
and begin to poke the holes?
What if the crown of thorns is no more
than folklore that must be told and retold?
You've been running as fast as you can
you've been looking for a place so you can land for so long.
But what if you're wrong?
My Dad is way to proective! and I'm not exaggerating he won't ever let me walk to my babysitting jobs which are only 4 blocks away from my house! we don't live in a dangeress neighborhood He just thinks I can't walk 4 blocks without getting in someones car or getting hit by a bus. Another thing is that he won't let me go on a missions trip becase he (and I quote) "doesn't know the people on the missions trip" Well of course he doesn't know the people on the missions trip. I mean people are coming from all over the country! I know the organization is a good one but I guess Daddy can't let go of his youngest little girl who is not a little girl any more.
I'M 17 I never hade a girlfirend beause the way I look.I BEEN LOOKING FOR THE RIGHT GIRL THATS NICE AND SWEET WITH A SPORTS SIDE.I'M NOT A BAD GUY AM SWEET AND NICE TO GIRL BUT I GUESS GIRL DONT CARE.I JUST WISH GOD WHOULD SEND THE RIGHT GIRL FOR ME TO LOVE. I'M NOT THE KIND THE WHATS A CEERLEADER GIRLFIREND WITH THE BEST BODY.I WHAT A AVERGE LOOKING GIRL THAT LOVES GOD.I JUST WISH SOMEONE CAN HELP ME BUT I GUESS THERE NO TURE LOVE ME. SORRY ABOUT THIS I NEEDED TO LET IT OUT I HOP ITS NOT STUPIEDTO THINK THIS OR TO WRITE IT .
Hey Peeps!
I'm Jordan, yeah the history beind my name isn't the most sober (i am a chic)...if you catch my meaning. Anyway, gosh!! im soooo so excited to be on here! Hopefully you guys dont mind my piercings...its not a fashion statement, just...me. :D I can't wait ta meet all of you gorgeous people!!! And to learn a whole lot more about God!!
Yours Pierced (literally),
Jordi! xx <3
Its been a while since the last time I even did my devotions seriously and willingly with so much inspiration. Ever since my love life of having relationships to the opposite sex popped out, I haven't been really paying attention to my spiritual life. True,I'm having difficulties right now with it..but i'm starting to realize that the only way to fix this problem is to fix first my RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD instead of this sum1 of mine. But in a way I don't want to just do my devotions just for the sake of doing it. I want to do it willingly and inpiringly. I miss my old ways of how I feed my spiritual life. I'm spiritually very hungry!! I don't have more time for him..huhuhu..Oh please has anyone experienced the same thing??Its really hard living a life without God being the center of it!!I want to be more indeeply inlove with Him as i was before and even more....I miss the Holy spirit in me...I miss you God!!!huhuhuhu ....
Hi there,
I haven't posted blogs much in my life, but I thought i'd start now.
I come from a very noisy house, im one of 7 children.. only 6 of which still live at home (im second eldest).
I think that the reason I wanted to blog is because, sometimes I feel stuck in life for advice.. my parents divorced when I was 3..
Out of my parents, I live with my mum, but she isn't christian (and my Dad is)... my mum says she's christian, but she doesn't appear at all christian.. I don't think she prays or anything :(
I look at other families, that have christian parents and I get a little jealous, mainly because it's really difficult (as a teenager) to try and live a life with God, when no-one around you, supports you.
It might not sound that tough, but my family isn't very loving at all, we live in a 4 bedroom house, 2 ppl per room.. no one spends time with the little ones, no one wants to take me to youth or church.. constantly my younger brother is verbally abused ( we think he has asperges)..
When my best friend came over, she heard my mum yelling and swearing.. no one prays at the dinner table(we don't even eat dinner as a family)..actually we dont do ANYTHING as a family.
Basically, imagine a household without God, and thats where I live... I think to myself; perhaps I have been born into this family to prove my faith through the troubles I face, but I find it so difficult...
There's constant negativity in my house, and it rubs off on me.. I get mad, and no longer have tolerance for the seemingly annoying things my little siblings do..
I want to stop being mad all the time, and get closer to God.. the only time i'm happy is when I have my ipod in and i'm playing Hillsong United's latest CD.. other than that im filled with anger and fustration..
Sorry it's so long, any advice? Can anyone relate?
I've only recently turned 15, but the last 2 years haven't been great, It started with me not going to school aged around 9, it didn't get much worse, this went on for 3 or 4 years, the struggle for my Mum to get me to school, me fighting and shouting and making my families life intolorable, then it got worse, I moved schools and houses up to Haltwhistle.
I made somewhat of a name for myself, binge drinking, doing drugs, getting arrested, fighting on the streets, having sex with older men. It got to the point where my Mum couldn't take anymore.
I went into care in April last year. At first I just didn't care about anything or anyone, my Mum came and I had threatened to stab her for bringing her partner, Derek, who had restrained me from fighting with my Mother while I was drunk after coming home late from a party.
I'd lost touch with my Nana, who was only a 5 minute walk away from my first foster carers. Me and my Nana were best friends, we loved spending time together, loved all the same things. It'd been that way since I was a baby. Only grand daughter out of 5 grandsons. Bet she was chuffed when I was born. Youngest of all the kids.
So after a string of foster carers and useless childrens homes, I went to a big campus of 3 childrens home, 2 open units and one secure unit. I went to both open units. The second one was the one that saved me. I started seeing my family again, My Mum would visit once or twice a week, take me out. Although I was still doing drugs at this point, things were getting better, My Dad, who is remarried and only intrested in his new wife visited once or twice. I was sleeping with a boy, a few years older than me, he wasn't the nicest of boyfriends. He'd go back ad forth between me and one of my best friends, who also lived there.
I started going for weekends to my Mums, seeing my old friends, who were very supportive and never stopped believing in me, and on the 17th of December I moved home. I've never looked back since, I do still talk to my friends there, I try and support them so they can do what I did, get on with their lives before it is too late.
The past few months have been the best of my lives, I'm back at school 3 days a week (I forgot to mention I got kicked out) and I never fight with anyone, I barely drink, I haven't done drugs and I feel much better in myself. And I feel I owe it all to God. I've only recently beame religious, after watching a documentary on Channel 4 about a girl who believes in God so strongly, I just wished I could rely and believing in someone like that. So I owe it all to him. I'm planning to get baptised in the future, but it is near impossible to go to church living where I do, and none of my family go. But I feel that he'll guide me the way I need to go.
I am planning to do GCSE and A levels in triple science and engeneiring and then I'm joining the Navy.
I'd like to thank my Mum, Nana, brother and God for their support last year, I love you all.
Jemima Daisy x
i lived god so much, but then after my mom started yelling at me and stuff. i felt like god wasn't there in my life. i was tired of trying feeling so i didn't let my feelings show. then i started doing the stupidest thing that i could ever do. i started cutting myself. it felt awesome, i felt pain, it made me feel human for just a little bit. now that i look back on that time of my life i think what a stupid thing to do. the good news is now i'm back with god, and i'm learning to ask god to help me when i hit lows. i fell so greatful to god for being there for me, even when i thought i was a nothing.
I found myself relying on nobody else but God!!
The last time I wrote here something I was pretty devastated of the things I'm facing through..But this morning as I was talking to this old lady who's confined in a hospital for more than 2 weeks already she made me realize something...
I pity her a lot, she's been there for quite sometime. She's not sick anymore she can already go home but the problem is she can't pay the bill. And the longer she stays the bigger her bill gets. When i entered the ward nobody was there with her except for the other patients with their family. Accordingly her grand son went home already to go to his wife, and her daughter had work to do and she can't get out. She's already 69 years old, but all her life she has always been very sad. Her husband already died 9 years ago. She has 8 children but non of them has a succesful job, non of them finished school they all got married early.Nobody could help her or supports her with her life except that she lives with 1 of her daughter.
She told me that she couldn't sleep because of her problem. "I feel so ashamed, many of my companions here have already went home and these other people are new already, but still I can't go home. We're very poor. I'm worrid of my kids, what life will they have with the jobs they have. I want to rest already but I can't, I can't just leave my kids, and my grand kids on the other hand, most of them have also mrried already at a young age I don't want the rest of them to do the same..I just want them to have a good life before I leave"she said
I pity her a lot..I tried her tell her to stop thinking about it and bring her to good memories but i guess things like that just can't be avoided. I couldn't do anything but look and comfort her as she cries..How can I help her.. I can donate some money that I've saved but that's really not enough..
I went home today not expecting to post this..but here I am doing it so..If any of the good hearted people out there could help me please email me trishayata@yahoo.com..I promise you to the top my heart that I would not betray any of your trust. I will do as how God wants me to do it.. there is a purpose.. I'll give you guys news whats happening to her..Please pray for her, if you won't be able to donate something, PRAYING would be the biggest help you guys can do with complete faith.thank you and God bless...
I was so meserable with my own problems but talking to this lady made me realized thatmore people have more and bigger problems than me with solutions that is indeed difficult to find...how I wish we could be able to help her and atleast put a smile on her face..
By the way I'm a student nurse
I wake up in the morning everyday with fear. Afraid to get out of bed and face a lot of things that makes me feel completely down. It bugs me alot that I have to go to school six days a week and just make a fool out of myself everyday. I don't have enough friends as I usually did before. During activity hours I always try to look for somebody to hang out with. I have no permanent friends in my section! I hate my section, I don't feel like I'm at home or like I even belong. Its the 1st section among all. Full of the most intelligent, analytic, comprehensive and excellent students ever. In our country people honor you when you belong their. Being one of them, usually you should feel lucky having the pride and dignity that out of the thousand you're one of the 32 students clarified to be there. But as for me, I have the opposite feeling. From the very first day to this very present time, I despise being there! Its a nightmare being with people full of unpredictable minds.
Minds that step me down into pieces, making me feel how stupid I truly am. No matter how much I study really hard and even take the longest time to finish answering tests analyzing the exact answer for such questions, still I fail, still I have the lowest score. Call me paranoid but I tend to think everytime that everybody there defines me as "stupid", "the objective type" , "the nobody with a low IQ", "the lowest studest!", "the slowest". I try to fit in, I even mingle with them. But how can you get closer to them when you know or have the instincs that they just don't like you. I saw and felt that in many ways. It hurts me so bad! I just hang out in the chapel whenever I don't have anyone. I could stay there for hours til its time. When I'm there I know I'm safe! It's the perfect place. Nobody will judge me, make gossips about me or make me feel stupid. But then I always feel left out.
Before I usually liked going to school better than going home. I even go home very late just to stay in school much longer. I was always happy in school rather than going home. At home things suck! I hate my sister! She always looks for reasons to get mad at me and scold me to the top of her temper. I hate the way she talks to me. I always answer her back even though its wrong. She makes me crazy! She asks me or tells me to do something as if I'm not a person! I hate her! I hate the fact that I have to go home everyday just to see her and hear her stinking voice! On the other hand, I hate my dad! For me he's useless in this family he doesn't do anything for us. I mean he has a business and all but there's not a cent that we receive from him to pay atleast some of the bills here in the house or our school necessities. He just adds up to our expenses with all his debts. I don't know where he puts ,all the money he gets from his business that's causing him to have a very big debt. Get this, he tells us to pray the rosary every night but he himself rarely or NEVER does that and if you argue with him he'll get mad at you so bad. I hate it when he smokes! He makes my sinusitis worst..He doesn't realize he's killing me. He rarely appreciates the gift I give him he never even say thank you, I worked and spend so much effort for his gifts but his reply is a NOTTA!!My mom is our bread winner. She does everything for us. She pays everything we need for school , at home, anywhere, I love her. But its sad cause no matter how much I want to share her how much pesimistic I feel about my life, its hard. Very hard..
One time I did, behind my back she said i was such a childish girl. That word made me feel so bad that its already burried in my mind, heart and soul not to ever open up to her ever! I thought we had the most sincere conversation for the first time. But I guess I was very wrong..She'll never understand me, with any of the things I'm facing or with the things I believe or even listen to me for once...When she told me that i was the son of demon that also pulled me away from her too. It just never occur to my mind she'd say that though she was angry..she never apologozed...I always go home here reckless!!full of hatred!..but nobody seemed to care to ask me why.. maybe its because they think that's just trisha..its her attitude to act that way..but its really not....not even close.....I have a very low self esteem, I can never forget how people usually insult by the way I look and compare me with my sisters and with my sister the one persuading them to do so.. I'm always the ugliest..they even say it to my face.."hey trisha how come you're ugly and your sister's pretty." I just smile and pretend not to care but really I get hurt!..and the more things like this pull me down the more I think How stupid,ugly,bad attitude and idiot I am!!...I don't understand why I have to perceive my life to be like this..I hate my life I hate everyday of it! And I hate myself for saying this because i know how much I'm hurting God...But I can't help not to express it because that's what I honestly feel...I'm miserable....how I wish.how I want to have a friend to hang out with everyday all the way to have someone to understand me and teach me to get up an face life with confidence and satisfaction and bring me closer to God at the same time.
OH my dear God pleas hurry nwith that person,..I can't take it anymore..its hurting me so much with words I cannot describe....I'm sorry for having to say all of these...
It is 6:57 and I just finished praying! I have been praying for the last 2 hours straight! I have also been listening to hillsong with brooke fraser! I mean God is so good is a wonderful and marvelous God! I will love him with all my heart through the my problems in all the hills I have to climb I know he will be there by my side! Hillsong's songs are playing through my head as I write this. Today has been a life changing experince for me! I mean wow! I just wanted to listen to one song that only took 3 minutes, ended up praying for 2 hours! This is it for me no more turning back! I want this to be your testimony also! I writing this not jut to read it myself but for you to read it also. The song that is now my anthem is called DESERT SONG! You can look it up on youtube and watch the video it's powerful! I love it! So one other thing I want to say before I go is if you havent ever read the bible and you want to but you dont know where to start you can read the first four gospels which are matthew, mark, luke, and john. These four books are about the journey of god in each of these deciples perspective's! Answer back if you want to talk about jesus and if you have a story tell me! Everyone has a story just need someone to tell it to! God Bless!
Dearly Beloved, we are gathered here today
to watch two people we know make a big mistake.
They'll stand before the alter and solmenly swear "I do"
they'll be together forever, until they find somebody new.
Her daddy's in the front row, muttering "Oh no here we go again
they had a couple dates, and now she's 3 months late.
And it's twenty bucks a plate I spent, oh no."
Good morning Dearly Beloved, I'd like to welcome ya'll
to see the side-effects of sex and alcohol.
Please bow your heads and join me in a prayer for these two,
who'll be together forever until they find somebody new.
The bride is a flirt and the groom is worse
as he puts the ring on her;
he's checking out the bridesmaids thinking
that he might take the maid of honor, oh no.
Welcome Dearly Beloved, we are here this afternoon
to throw rice as these two drive the road to ruin
with cans tied to the bumper, and dragging a muffler too,
they'll be together forever until they find sombody new.
So raise your glass and join me,
here's to the bride and groom
who'll be together forever, until they find somebody new.
Sooo kinda self explanitory =PP... WHAT ARE YOUR CHRISTMAS TRADITIONS!? do you even celebrate it? do you work at a soup kitchen? open any presents early? get any presents?? well let me knoww =]
AS FOR ME:: I put up my Christmas tree every Thanksgiving with my family... and we have a big dinner on Christmas night and we bake a birthdy cake and sing happybirthday to Jesus. and this year me and my family will be working for the Salvation Army.. =] and also on Christmas Eve we open one present early. =]] i love decorating with my baby neices. =]] holidays are fun.
Has a guy/girl ever broken ur heart? Did someone help you mend it? or did u do it by yourself? or did God help you mend it? or a combination? Tell me your stories!!! as for me ive been heart broken 4 times. by 4 different guys. and the number one who helped me through it was God. but the last guy that really really broke my heart. God sent me a special friend in my life and the friend helped me through the heartache of number four along with God. So Thank God for people that helpyou through things like that and thank him for being there always. =]
The broken clock is a comfort
it helps me sleep tonight
maybe it can stop tomorrow
from stealing all my time.
I am here still waiting
though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
like you've already figured out.
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart, that's still beating
in the pain is there healing?
In your name I find meaning
so I'm holding on, I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you.
The broken locks were a warning
you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection
indide of my eyes
that are looking for purpose
they're still looking for life.
I'm hanging out another day,
just to see what you will throw my way
and I'm hanging on to the words you say,
you said that I will be okay.
The broken lights on the freeway
left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
haven't forgotten my way home.
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart, that's still beating
in the pain, is there healing
in your name, I find meaning.
So I'm holding on, I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you.
I remember when we used to laugh
about nothing at all,
it was better than going mad
from trying to solve all the problems
we're going through, forget them all.
Cause on those nights we could stand and never fall
together we faced it all.
Remember when we'd
stay up late and we'd talk all night
in a dark room lit by the TV light.
Through all the hard times in my life,
those nights kept me alive.
We'd listen to the radio play all night
didn't want to go home to another fight.
Through all the hard times in my life,
those nights kept me alive.
I remember when we used to drive
anywhere but here,
as long as we'd forget our lives.
We were so young and confused
that we didn't know to laugh or cry.
Those nights were ours
they will live and and never die
together we'd stand forever.
Those nights belong to us.
There's nothing wrong with us.
I remember when we used to laugh
now I wish those nights would last.
From underneath the trees we watch the sky
confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
but here we are, we're here tonight.
Singing "Amen, I'm alive!"
Singing "Amen, I'm alive!"
If everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died.
And in the air the fireflies,
our only light in paradise
we'll show the world that they were wrong
and teach them all to sing along:
Sing "Amen, I'm alive!"
Sing "Amen, I'm alive!"
As we lie beneath the stars
we realize how small we are.
If everyone loved like you and me
imagine what the world could be.
Down here in the valley every shadow you see
has it's own story
down here in the valley every puddle of mud
comes from tears and blood,
and it's so hard just to get warm
that the chill turns into despair.
Will you lift me up with tender care?
Will you wash me clean in the palm of your hand?
Will you hold me close so I can thrive?
When you touch me that's when I know I'm alive.
Down here in the valley nothing's able to grow
cause the light's too low.
Folks spend their days digging around for diamonds and gold
until they just get old
and they don't know anything else
they don't know they're breathing bad air.
But I'm tired of living like this--
and my soul cries out "If you're there..."
Call me up to your side
draw me up to your light
let it blind me, Lord remind me
refine me right out of my mind.
Will you lift me up with tender care?
Will you wash me clean in the palm of your hand?
Will you hold me close so I can thrive?
When you touch me that's when I know,
I know I'm alive.
once there was a guy who never knew Jesus. everytime someone
tried to get him to come to Jesus, he rejected the offer.he doing the wrong things
followed the wrong group.he was rebellous.he backtalked his parents,going to
partys. always sneaking out of the house.he always smoked and drinked.then one
day,someone offered him to go to church with the person. he agreed to go.the
preacher started to preach about the end,talking about Jesus and that you need
to get saved. the guy did not aggree to accept him. but right before he left. God
spoke to him saying "I think it is a good idea to get saved". well God suprised him
when he spoke to him. he said in a scared voice "WHO JUST SPOKE TO ME"! "It was
me who spoke to you". he said Alright if i get saved will you get off my back. God said
yes but I want you to really mean it . alright I will mean it.so that day he got
saved. 2 months later he got baptisted and joined the church.he droped the drugs
and alcolhal. his friends were not happy with his new religon.they made fun of
him. said horrible stuff about him and Jesus. he said "I don't care what you say
about me or Jesus, I will never give up on you guys.they were speakless,they could
not say anything mean. they next sunday the guy was sitting in church.his pastor
was preaching over the secound coming. how Jesus will be coming soon very soon
he listened every word he sayed. he was ready.7 days later he went to church and
as he listened in a flash of lighting he and the rest who were saved left.and the
rest was left behind. you see Jesus is coming back very very soon. don't be left
behind be saved. god bless.
post what u did 4 thanks giving people plz post lol
The Fear
I have a fear of giving in, of too much I give out,
But giving up. . . That comes easy,
Like second nature to me,
But what about love?
Could I give that up?
Or give into those sweet yet dangerous emotions?
Could I give all the love in my heart, only to be fooled by a man who has never learned the meaning of that word--love?
The fear of being left alone,
Has left my body stone cold,
Has shaken me like a poor little tree caught in a windy battle of wills--who is stronger, me or the wind?
Am I destined to never feel the sweetness of mutual love?
Or is my fate written to be only I to fall in love repeatedly?
Maybe I'll never know,
But I do know that if I give my worries and my fears to God, I know He'll make me strong,
He'll give me everlasting happiness,
He's given me life,
I want my life to be full and whole, but with these fears and unfulfilled promises,
Reality just attacks at all angles,
The fear of being alone,
Of never being shown,
The proper ways of handling my feelings,
Has gotten me reeling,
Like a fish on a hook,
Am I just a silly crook,
Who steals balance and ejects chaos?
With God by my side, I'll learn to ride, the wave of despair,
Maybe I'll even learn to care,
Of others besides myself,
Maybe I won't be alone,
Even I can be shown,
How to fall in love. . .
~I can't stand all of this fear and torture.~
~This is the dark, lifeless hole I DO NOT want to live in for the rest of my life~
~I can see the birght light ahead,
but miles away.
Too far to touch,
Too far to be relieved over.~
~If I don't do anything soon-
It will all end right in front of me.
I have to get up off my ass
And keep searching for this so called ligh
at the end of this damn tunnel.~
~I'm too stressed out.
I can't thinkstraight.
I think this "LIGHT" is there, but I'm not sure,
I don't know who to believe anymore.~
~I'm finally halfway there,
The light, the love, the people I was all stressed out over.~
~I'M THERE!!!
But I'm the only one.
Is there supposed to be a meaning for this?
Is it a punishment for not believing?~
~I feel the persence of something.
The Holy Spirit?
It was a message.
I get it now.~
~I get to start over.
A new life
A new meaning.
A testimony!~
what more is there to say than staying at home all summer and doing nothing is the MOST BORING THING EVER!
yea its my b-day 2day im 14!!!!!
Hey you guys, im just really really confused with eveyrthing. Well not god of course, i praise him day and night. Its just life. I ask god what his will is so i dont make a big horrible mistake like i have so much in my life. Im wondering who he has picked out for me as my soul mate, what he has to bring in my life as in a job, what he wants me to do as in each and every passaing day on how i should react to things. Maybe they all fall in a puzzle. But i dont see it yet. I see it as a big mess. So hopefully it all comes down to as a great life. Not something i can never figure out. Who would thought life was so hard, with god i can make it. But in the process its very confusing lol
well today was ok but im upset thAt i cant to to church and to add on that i havent been to church in like 2 weeks.. idk y but it seems like somethings missing idk what but im just iching to find out.... well peace for now one love
i cant wait till twomorrow! @ my church we have a saturday night service as well as a sunday service. i really like the saturday one cuz ther is less people and i like the sermon more, so hopefullu well go twomorrow. i have a question...ther is a youth group at my church and my parents would like me to be in it...xcept some of the guys in the youth group r jrks(thr r a few nice ppl)..should i go or not? it would be good 4 me to get out of my comfortzone but i dont want to have to deal with drama at church and id also miss my saturday night service because youth group is at the same time....any ideas?
pray 4 me
-lexi
THIS IS ONE OF MY RECENT RAPS THAT I WROTE
you left me there, nothing to say, nothing to do.
i didn't know what i was gonna do without you. i
felt so alone, so hurt and betrayed.
just cried and cried all night and day.
i wanted to be alone so i could cope with my pain.
kept going back to memories that filled me with shame.
you pushed me away form the world i once loved so much.
you pushed me far away from my krutch.
i was limping, alone, shattered and torn.
depression attacked me and my heart was forlorn
but now i'm ok. i see who you truly are
and want nothing to do with you
i want you to stay far
away from me and my life
cuz when you was in it you filled me with strife.
so i don't regret saying goodbye to you.
i do regret saying i love you
and all the things we did
i wish i could take it all back
but i can't
so i'll just act like it never happened.
but now that you're gone i dnt have a clue.
whats there left to do??
erase you from my memory and act like i'm ok.
but at least i got to say all the things i wanted to say
to you. bye.
I'm going out tonight with my friends, who may or may not be smoking dope, I'm going to keep strong and stay off drugs. Pray for me please :)
Jemima Daisy xx
This year is going to be very hard for me. I have been a missionary kid since i was one year old. My mother and father have been working to translate the Bible into the Akawaio language for 14 years, and this year, they are finnishing up. I have lived among the Akawaio indians since i was a child, and think of them as my family. I also think of Jawalla (the village we live in) as my home. I know that i have to move on in life, but it is going to be so hard for me to leave my friends and "family" behind after 14 years. I love them all soo mcuh, and Jawalla is the most beautiful place in the world i have been soo lucky to have grown up in such a gorgeous place. I have had so many experiences (good and bad ) at Jawalla, and i am so fortunate to be part of God's outreach to the Akawaio.
Just this month, my father got together with his boss and some of the Akawaio translators, and had their last checking session, so the New Testament is completed in the Akawaio language ( we are all so proud of my dad ) Praise God!! Now all that is left to be done is the type setting and then the final printing which is to take place later this year. Untill June, my family and i will be in Jawalla saying our goodbyes and packing up. Please pray for all of us as this is going to be very hard for all.
In June, we will leave for the states along with an Akawaio translator to oversee the type setting. In December, our family will come back to Jawalla (for about 2 weeks ) for the last time to the dedicate the Scriptures. Then, Lord willing, we will go back to the states again, say fare wells there, and head to PNG (Papua New Guinea) to be missionaries there. We will be in PNG for a term (4 years) and then my brother and i (having finnished high school) will go back to the states to start college.
As i think of all that is ahead, i am a jumble of emotions--excited to travel so far--sad to leave my home--frightened that i won't like PNG--anticipation about all the new ppl i will meet, all the new sites i will see--filled up getting to share Jesus with so many--greatfull to God for bringing us so far in this life-- pleased that i have an exciting life past me and ahead of me--but most of all filled with wonder--i wonder how God will use me --where will he guide me? how will he provide for me? all these things i wonder about, yet i feel totally assured that HE WILL PROVIDE, and i am willing to go wherever he sends, and i am so glad, that the Lord God is incharge of my life because where better than in the hands of Jesus to rest my life? i trust him fully, and pray that you do also. He knows everything. He will be there for you untill the ends of time!!
Feel free to email or message me if u have any questions. (you can request my email at my profile)
Show 'em the love
Hey.....this goes out 2 all u guyz who r sick of terror n wanna make
things better.....
Whatcha gonna do now??
Where ya gonna move now??
Do you have any chance
To run away from this trance??
I know how you are feelin
I feel the same way too!!
I wanna make a difference
But don't know what to do!!!
How do ya stop this??
How do ya turn terror to bliss??
You feel like killin them
But then what different are you??
Hang them upside down!!!
Parade them around the town!!!
Isn't this how your feeling??
But what's God revealing??
I tell ya man..
Turn your guns into roses
Turn your swords into ploughs
We gotta fight 'em with love
No matter how much it hurts!!
This is the one way remaining
This is the one way of shaming
This is the one way of taming
'em with your love
So c'mon let's show 'em the love!!
We've tried bombing ,secret raiding,
Oh it's so frustrating.
But it all ain't workin!!
But there's another way
That hasn't yet seen the day.
It's gotta be the only way
Cause Love will find a way!!
So why don't we kick our guns,
Why don't we send 'em funds!!
So that they could build their homes
And stop blowin up our bones!!
C'mon let's check it out
Do not fear do not doubt!!
If ya want some love
Then why don't ya show them the love??
I tell ya man..
Turn your guns into roses
Turn your swords into ploughs
We gotta fight 'em with love
No matter how much it hurts!!
This is the one way remaining
This is the one way of shaming
This is the one way of taming
'em with your love
So c'mon let's show 'em the love!!
So when will ya wake up??
When will ya take this up??
Are ya waitin for
'em to blow ya up!!
Take this chance..
Escape from this trance!!
Get out and stop this!!
Turn terror to bliss!!
GO and make a difference man
Show 'em what I told ya man!!
It's the only way remaining!!
So why are you waiting??
Always remember the one rule of love!!
If ya want some love
Then ya gotta show 'em your love!!
P.S: Please poest ur feedback!! This song is a rap song!!
this is one of the poems i wrote
i use to feel afraid
afraid of being me
now i feel fine becaue
the lords beside me helping me
in my ways and because
hes there looking out for me why should i
be afraid
afraid of being myself
afraid to except christ
afraid to pray
afraid to allow change in my life
afraid to be me.....
Matthew 14:25-33 “During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. "It's a ghost," they said, and cried out in fear. But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid." "Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water." "Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!" Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?" And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."
In the world today there has been a lot of technology development. Cars have come a long way since the first years they came out. There is also a lot more roads now too. I don’t think anyone knows where to start to count the streets in the US alone. If it wasn’t for the handy GPS systems in our cars we couldn’t find our way to business trips, birthday parties, or restaurants. With this technology we can type in a address or business name and will give us many ways to get there. There is no more getting lost if you have one of these, well at least if you can read a map there isn’t. The GPS will find tons of ways for you to get to your destination except for one place. GPS’s will not tell you how to get to heaven. The only way you can do that is by trusting in Jesus and having faith in Him. As we see in Matthew Peter is being asked by Jesus to walk on the water to him. As followers of Christ we should listen and believe what God tells us to do. What does Peter do? Without any hesitation Peter got on the water and started walking to Jesus. He put all his faith in Jesus and was doing what people today call the impossible. The thing is Peter began to get scared and to be honest I probably would have to. As Peter began to fall Jesus reached down and pulled him up. There is two things in here that we can learn from. Jesus picked Peter up after Peter had lost faith for a second. God will always be there for us whenever we slip up and fall. He will always pick us up and put us back on the right path as long as we look toward him. The second point is Peter’s faith. He had so much faith in God that he was walking on water!! What people don’t see is that nothing is impossible as long as you have faith in God and let him be control over your life. Let God put in the coordinates in your GPS and let him lead you where he wants you to go. Where is your faith? Are you sinking or walking on water?
I am planning on going on a mission trip and i need to raise $1200. I need ideas on raising money. I have to raise it all some way and just seeing if anyone has any ideas.
® Ephesians 6:10-20 “Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.”
I think when people go out into the world they try and do everything themselves. Just a bit of advice YOU CAN’T! Nothing is possible without the Lord. We should not be scared of the flesh but the almighty power of the Lord. In Matthew 10:28, “Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both the soul and the body in hell.” We do not need to fear no one or no thing but the Lord. He is almighty and can do anything. Why not put your trust into someone who can protect you from anything? We must put on our armor of God and we can get through anything. We must pray all the time and worship God. He wants to be with us at all times and wants us to think about him in everything we do. He wants to have a personal relationship with us on a regular basis. Pray all the time there is never a time where there isn’t one thing to pray about. You must always be aware of what you get yourself in to. You will always be tempted but as long as you stay in the word and pray for God to help you, you will not have a problem. Are you prepared for the battle of the world?
The fight for freedom has declined to a minimal effort and now the fight for governmental control is getting stronger. Hopefully, we can gain more freedom, on the streets and at our jobs. Hopefully, people will think about how much freedom we are truly losing. Maybe we will fight once again, for what we all think we have.
Where did all of the love and peace go? It seems like everyone's resorting to a coat of untruth in their life to deceive themselves and others into thinking that other people don't matter. I don't understand the ignorance and yet I know that others do know that what they want is love but it seems as though they have convinced themselves otherwise. I just wish that people would calm down and focus on what lasts forever and not the things that are like the grasses of the ground which wither and pass away.
Love We need
Worthy is the Lamb, who came and died for us
Worthy is the Lion of Judah, who stop the pain
Worthy is the Blood, you shed for us
(Bridge)
Remember your people, Remember your children, Remember your promise
(Chorus)
Your grace is the sign we see, your name is the words we love, your hands and feet were pierced for us.
And your Love is the Thing we need.
Worthy is the El Shaddi, who loves us
Worthy is the Teacher, who teaches us
And Wooo. R. ty is your name, that we love
(Bridge)
(Chorus)
Where will we be if God never sent his son, where would we be if God never made up.
(Chrous)
And Your Love is what we need
Your Love is what................. We neeeeeeeeeeeed
When the day is long and the night
the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life,
well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, cause everybody cries
and everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong,
now it's your time to sing along.
When your day is night alone,
hold on, hold on.
And if you feel like letting go,
well hold on, hold on.
When you think you've had too much of this life,
well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, cause everybody cries,
and everybody hurts sometimes.
All my life I hated guys. I never trusted them. I always think of them as a person who just loves making a fool out of girls. Ever since I was a kid I saw how guys are such pathetic liars. I see my dad having third parties. He even locked me in the car when I was 5 years old just to flirt with this girl at a store. When I reached home I told my mom about it and so they fought. I thought it was over but then he still did it many times again and again. Even my Grand father is the same, my sister's boyfriends and friends, everybody's! I just hate them! For me it's not love that they're after with but for you just to be a part of their collection.
Growing up, every time someone would come along I never give a damn entertaining them. I always perceived guys to be such fools! They hypnotize you with their sweet and juicy, over the top melting words of love making you think that they really LOVE you and be with you forever and ever with a happily ever after and stuff. These are all just a bunch of fairytales, in reality there is a rarity that this ever happens.
But I'm not saying it's hopeless for me to find true love, of course I'm just a human being I also have my own desires. When I was in high school I usually ask God for signs to assure who my first will be. I asked for someone who could sing well, has a British accent, studies well, sparkling smile, who has that feeling of SPARK and someone that is really a gentleman. And if ever I can find someone coming up to me owning that entire package then that's the time I could say his "the one".
There were times I also liked the guy but still my perception towards them hinders it. I was still very pessimistic towards them and the signs were definitely not there. Until one day this Guy came along. Let's just say his name is Tom. I never really notice Him, he never really talks in class, but when he performed a class play his voice was very peculiar. It was my first time to hear it. He had a British accent. I started liking the guy but as a crush that is.
On the last day before our Christmas break I was really upset about something but after seeing him just smile at me and say "Hi", I felt a big SPARK that bloom me up and forget about my problem. Shockingly, after our Christmas break last year he frankly told me that he likes me too. But it wasn't easy for him; he knew what struggles there'll be; First, of course my perception towards guys. 2nd, our religion differences (He's a Muslim, I'm a Christian. Both our family sides don't agree with Muslim-Christian relationship. There will always be a conflict.). 3rd, the signs I want. (He doesn't know this, nobody did.)It was tough.
Long story short--> all the signs kept on popping out. He had the full package I want. There I said this is it! This is what I was asking for from God. Tom was the one. He became my first boyfriend. For the first time ever I felt LOVE, a pretty big LOVE! I was madly, in deeply and definitely in LOVE with him. I forgot all about my negativities towards guys. My world was just rotating around him that I didn't realize I was drifting away from God. And although there were a lot of times I felt it was only me who really loves him and his is just nothing, I just kept on covering those things. I told myself I wouldn't let go of him just because of these little things. Little things I kept on burying. Little things I didn't mind. Little things that became big. Little things to big things ,until finally he broke up with me.
I felt an enormous pain in me like I couldn't breathe anymore. I felt a bomb exploding within, a knife stabbing and chopping me to peaces, sharp spikes kept on poking me. It couldn't stop. I wanted it to end so badly. I was falling apart! I kept on praying alone in my room "My dear God please have pity on me, I know I've been away from you. But I know your love is constant and I know you'll never do anything to hurt me. Please! My dear God Take me now, take me even just for a while and let me come back! I can't take this I'm really having such difficulties. Please! Please...Please...it hurts so much I can't explain...Please...Please...I'm sorry for my faults I'm sorry I should've known better and paid more attention to you instead...Please take me! Let me feel your presence now please...Please..."
After a week of overcoming the broke up I tried returning back to my daily life. It was still hard knowing we stay in one school which means I can still see him. But I just had get on with it. He told me that his parents really didn't agree with our relationship and that his mom wanted to go after me and yell at me and stuff. It was all because of his parents. It was sad because after he told me that I was just about to tell him good news that my parents were already okay with our relationship though he's a Muslim. I still kept on thinking that we still love each other that its just parents who hinders us. Well at least that's what I know. After a week, my friend told me something about him.
-->Long story-short. His parents, specifically his mom already knew about us even before and she has nothing against our relationship. The bottom-line is from that answer alone everything started making sense from those LITTLE THINGS I kept on burying. He lied to me. He didn't break up with me because of the reason he says but because he just doesn't like me anymore. He made a fool out of me which is more painful to accept! I loved someone so much that I didn't use my brain anymore. It was always just about following my heart. That's nonsense now!
Moreover, it was always just about me. Sure I had a boyfriend of my desired option. But it's always what I want, what I desire. It's not what God wants for me. To be a Christian you have to be willing enough to let God drive your life and trust him were he'll ever take you. I didn't do that. I was so hooked up with finding and having the right one for me that I forgot to just let it flow and just leave it to God.
There really is a purpose for everything. This experience was something for me to get to know God more. All along he was already there, warning me about him with the little things. He was always present. Realizing all these makes me love Him even more. And although my perceptions towards guys now became worst, and yes it will take light years for me to trust them again, it doesn't matter anymore as long as I just live life the way he wants me to and not how I want. We should surrender our life to God, we can't carry the big loads we have alone we're just human but to God nothing is impossible and nothing can ever beat that. That's God, he's Love!
P.S. Thank you for finish reading this and I'm sorry if I offended the guys out there, I hope you'll understand. God bless you all! And take care.
(The broke up happend on the 21st of November 2009.)
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Thank the lord above. My Pawpaw had cancer and he was expected to die the November of 08...well he did not die (thank goodness) and he ended up getting so much better that he got in Remission, which is where the cancer is gone but the thing with cancer is, I think you will always have it but it just wont be active and when all the cancer isnt active thats when your put into Remission, well they discovered the cancer was active either a month or two after he was stated to be in Remission. So they gave him a new Chemo and last night I got the call that my Pawpaw went to get a cat-scan and the Cancer was inactive again....he now has 5 more treatments of Chemo then he can call it quits!!! I was so happy when I heard that. My Pawpaw jokes that only green Kryptonite can bring him down, and I believe him.
Thank you so much Lord, for answering my prayers.
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Christianteenagers was good back in the day but now its just boring and not fun.I still get on for peoples help but theres not much on christianteenagers anymore.I miss all my friends i used to talk to.Christian teenagers got boring but theres still hope, oh and im back i just dont get on.For anyone that does not know me,Im Rene,and all i want to say is,GET ON PEOPLE OR TALK TO ME ON MYSPACE!!!!!!!!!!!!that is all i guess,Add me!!!!!!!!!!!!! or on Myspace!!!!!!!GOD BLESS ALL OF MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!AMEN!
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What day is it? And in what month
this clock never seemed so alive.
I can't keep up, and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time.
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you.
All of the things I wanted to say
just aren't coming out right.
I'm tripping inwards, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here.
Because it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do and nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you.
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive.
yOU KNOW A BOOK INSTEAD OF A COMPUTER. bUT PEOPLE TODAY PROBABLY WOULDN'T KNOW HOW TO DO THAT. aS FOR ME i DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO DO THIS TILL I LOOKED IT UP ON wIKIPEDIA. iN FACT i'M STILL NOT SURE IF WHAT i'M DOING NOW IS WHAT YOUR SUPPOSED TO DO.
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Ok, so im looking out my window seeing what's going on outside, when i realise how amazing everything is.
Have you ever just stopped and said thank you to God for the amazing things he has made..and how delicate, amazing, colourful and unique everyhing is?
The tree's, the sea, the sky, the clouds. Scientists can't understand how the clouds stay up in the sky but they do.....God created them and they are pretty impressive don't you think?
I remember reading in the Bible about how God cares so much for the little sparrows, how much more does he care for us? He made us in his own image, we should feel so privilaged to be a similar image to God.
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How colourful is the Earth God created...its not just black and white, its every colour of the rainbow, it makes me smile that he has used so many colours.
JUST LIKE GOD HAS USED LOADS OF DIFFERENT COLOURS IN THE WORLD HE HAS ALSO MADE US ALL DIFFERENT, THE COLOURS GO WELL TOGETHER BECAUSE THERE ALL COLOURS SO WE SHOULD ALL GO WELL TOGTEHER BECAUSE WE ALL LOVE GOD. <3
You are special because God has made you!!! =D
love ya guys
nessa =]
Is there anywere in the Bible where it tells u if ur suppose to wait till u get married to kiss, or the other way around? Please give me the bible verse if u have the answere, or just what u think
so in 2 weeks im starting up my 10th grade year. im kinda scared because everyone knows about my sister caylie and wht happened. so i know im gonna have a lot of people watching and asking how im doing. and im doing really well, but im scared tht if i go there and act happy and stuff people will think tht i dont care tht my sister just passed away. so idk wht to do. act all sad, or just forget about wht people think and just be happy because i know thts wht caylie would want.
last year is when i really got closer to god. september 10th 2008 is the date tht i told myself that i need faith more then ever. on tht day my twin caylie found out she had blood cancer ( really long name dont know how to spelll it). the doctors said tht they caught it early and tht they could get it to go away. so as soon as i heard tht i already thought tht god was protecting caylie. every second it felt like i was praying to god. asking him to help caylie get through the pain of the cemo and all of the test she had to go through. a month later we heard tht the cancer was gone. tht night i broke down crying knowing tht god heared my prayers. so for the rest of 2008 i kept praying and caylie got stronger everyday. when it got to january caylie had a bone marrow transplant to help keep the cancer away. and it worked.
but these things werent 100% and my family and i new tht. so in may we got horrible news tht the cancer was back. i remember the night i found out i just sat in my room praying to god and asking him why. i was mad at him for not protecting caylie. caylie couldnt fight the cancer off a second time. in july her liver started failing and she was taken to the hospital. and on july 19th she past away.
so right now im lost. i know tht caylie is out of pain and in a better place. but i cant help but be mad at god for taking her. she was my twin and my best friend. and she was taken from me. i just feel like im losing my faith. and i really dont want to and i try hard to hold on to it but i just dont understand why he had to take caylie from me.
Well now ive done some changes to my profile ive gone figure and i decide not to be known as Obama and ive gotten complainings about the name obama and sorry if it drove people mad about that name so i changed it and decided to be just Rene and not obama anymore so ya well NO MORE OBAMA!
I hate it when I face tough times and I draw close to God, he helps me.. then I go back to my normal life, distancing myself and focusing on what is "important".
I feel selfish in a way, because He helps me more than I deserve, He makes time for me.. it seems like every prayer is answered.. whether it be how I wanted it to be, or how He saw fit..
I hope I can stay close to Him this week, rather than just draw near when I need Him.
At least i've started going to church every week (I decided to just take public transport, instead of depending on my parents to take me)
but anyway, thats what im thinking..
Well before and just a little after i found God my life was not goin well at all. I was a cutter. Burned my self 2 times. I have about 13 scars. One time i cut my legs up and people kept askin me what happend and i told them i ran into a barb wire fence (not hard to believe if you've met me im very clutsy). I tried commiting suicide 2 times. I had become a cusser. Gone in and out of depression. I had gained some weight. I was a witch with a capital B! lol no one wanted to be around me. I for guys that didn't deserve me. They only wanted me for sex. I never gave them that btw! Still holdin onto my virginity. But i just felt no love, no support, no emotional feelings for anyone. It was a constant act to make people think i was happy. I would just bust out cryin for no reason at all. I used to be so attention desparate that i would just be so annoying and so loud and just horrid!! well im not like that anymore... I found god and at first i was so unsure i tried to commit suicide by holdin my breath in the shower... blacked out... it just was not good. Then i realized when i had god in my life that i did have someone who loves me i did have someone who supports me! It was god! i mean i havne't cut in over a year. Haven't even thought about suicide. Havent purposly burned my self in over 2 years. I don't cuss constantly. I don't live a lie anymore and honestly its the best feeling ever... So u need advice just ask and i'll be your personal Opra lol thats what my friends call me (:
Have you ever watched TBN(Trinity Broadcasting Network)?? have you ever noticed that about 70% of what you hear on TBN is not aligned with the WORD OF GOD? why dont you take your Bible and sit in front of the tv to see for yourself. check it out i think you'll be surprised:)
Jsmoke
p.s. tell me what u hav to say bout this by writin commetns to this blog post
To my family.
As we all know, the world, is horrible.
full of lies, hate, and hurt!
God taught us to love, and to forgive.
Most of us who believe in God, sit back, and watch the world, become, something it never intented to be.
We keep waiting, waiting, as if thats all we can do!
I want to enocouage you guys ,to tell your firends and family about God\'s perfect love.
To be honest, its not the non-believers faults, that the world is the way it is, its ours mainly.
we need to show them love, even when they show us hurt.
Tell, everyone. Even if it means death! Romans 12:14!
** YOU ARE NOT ALONE! ( THERE ARE NO ORPHANS OF GOD)
\" I will never leave you, or forsake you. \"
- Hebrews 13:5.
** people say, the world doesn\'t need a savior, but everyday i hear people crying for one.
** Christians- The world NEEDS a savior. You know him. Make the introductions.
Also- Live in the world, but don\'t be of the world.
Such as, Don\'t do what the world is doing.
Girls- You are beautiful, the way you are! God made you, for a reason! what the media says about weight, or beauty doesn\'t mater!
Boys- God has a plan for you, as he does with everyone.
Don\'t be worried about finding love, God is enough, more than enough!
Telling others about God, can be hard!!
Even if you take the time to put a little note on your locker, saying Jesus Loves You!
Who knows what could happen!
And even though your finshed talking to someone, doesn\'t mean God is finshed!
Pray, all the time.
There are about a billion religions, out there! It\'s horrible, it breaks my heart.
So let\'s get serious, about God!!
I have a friend, and we were extremly close.
Now, I\'m saved, and i have changed sense then, and will she doesn\'t want anything to do with me.
It\'s so hard, and you may face the same thing, but don\'t give up, God is always there.
What\'s important to you , is important to God!
:0) I love you guys, stay stong!!
TaraLee.
I remember sitting on the floor
Gripping the pain I've had before
Thinking of nothing that gave me hope
of the time that all I could do was mope
And then you walked through that door
Sitting next to me you told me to fear no more
I wish I had something to describe you
There is nothing I can do for me
But your love is something completely free
It's sad how some ignore all your goodness
Jesus is immanuel
The Holy God of Isreal
King of Kings and Lord of Lords
Surely he can fix what I couldn't
Sometimes I think of how his blood
was poured out full of love and still hardly anyone accepts it
His arms are streched out for wisemen and fools
Jesus lasts longer than gold bars and jewls
Sometimes I think of how his blood
is poured out just like a flood and still hardly anyone accepts it
There is nothing I can do for me
But Jesus' love is completely free
It's sad how some ignore his goodness
Jesus is Imanuel
The Holy God of Isreal
King of Kings and Lord of Lords
I know he can fix what I couldn't
I find myself tonight thinking about the way my life used to be... (HORRIBLE!) No look, I was thinking about how when I was younger
how I wanted a boyfriend. How I thought I needed a boyfriend to survive. I would watch all the love stories and TV shows and long for
that relationship. When I got it in the 8th grade guilt ate me up like a flesh eating disease! I broke up with him the 5th day I was
going out with him, over the phone. Although I was relived I still wanted to date. 9th grade was the test, Within 2 months of school, I
had a boyfriend and dated him for 6 months, God gave me that long, and in that time my relationship with him (God) faded and my
my what you call being in LIKE with my boyfriend became the most prominate thing in my life. The guilt was there at first but well when
you push away all the convictions you get from God all is left is numbness, its a dangerous thing, especially when you have realized it.
I find that the easiest thing to do is run away from God, the hard part is coming back, climbing out of the pit that you dug yourself into.
Turns out though with God on your side the Climb dosent have to be so treachorus. I digress, What I am trying to say is it was
comfortable not caring what my parents said using the excuse that I was doing this for me not my parents. Just living life in
disobedience, well he only allows it for so long expecially when you under his covering. It was horrible, going through the break up
I was just torn apart, bu in my weakness I found God's strength and love and kindness! Did I mention love. I just wanted to say that
just something on my mind. My life has changed completly I mean wow I am amazed on how things have changed! Really! God is
Number one no matter what I have to go through! God Bless you and your journey to finding his love! When you find it hold on to it
FOREVER! God Bless you!
It's easier to lie and it's easier to steal but then good things in life don't usually come easy. You have to go into battle to win a war. Without fighting there can be no victory. In a relationship it's easier to lie but when the lie is found out then it leads you into battle without armor. It's easy to cuss someone out and even easier to beat them up but consequences weigh so much weight that you will find yourself trying harder than ever. Whoever says that experience is wisdom obviously had to be a fool before he became wise. Wisdom is given from God, not created by man. Sin leads to death no matter the stature of sin you launch. Someone who acts before they think is a fool that is called wise nowdays. Yet we all know that you should think before you act and take time to understand. Realise that knowledge did not come from you or from the world, it came from God. Don't set it aside, use it and grow in it. The knowledge of things seen is useful in things that will eventually die but the knowledge of things unseen is useful in what will not die. It's easier to lie and it's easier to steal but then good things in life don't usually come easy.
For a while I had really been in pain over the fact that I feel like I am alone in the wolrd and I don't have anyone to rely on other than God. So I talked to him and I asked him to give me a verse from the bible. He told me that I am not part of the world and not to be destressed over not having friends on earth because when I get to heaven I will have plenty of friends. That really helped me but I was still worried, I kept trying to ask God "Will I be alone for all of my days on earth?" I asked him for an answer again, this is what I got:
"For the word of the king is supreme, and who may say to him, 'What are you doing?' Whoever keeps a command will know no evil thing, and the wise heart will know the proper time and the just way. For there is a time and a way for everything, although man’s trouble lies heavy on him. For he does not know what is to be, for who can tell him how it will be? No man has power to retain the spirit, or power over the day of death."
I realized then, even though In this passage it is not talking about Jesus as King, Jesus is King and his word is supreme and I understood the rest also. Yet I needed something more and I asked God "Is that all? Is there nothing I can do to make this pain less for the time being?" He told me what he said in Matthew.."And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, 'My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will." So when I read that, it gave me peace. I was reminded that God knows my pain and he wants to help me but I need to let him help me the way that he wants to help me, not the way that I want to help myself because I am not God. Thank you Jesus for being there for me and answering my prayers. God is all that is good and by Jesus alone I live and breathe.
The bible is our defense in war, first aid in time of hurt, and light in the darkness of the world.
What do you think?
Thank God, the old lady that I was telling you guys about has already been checked out of the hospital yesturday!! Thank you guys for all of your help! I am very sure God will bless you for your considerate concerns! It's a wonderful news that in simple ways we've help someone in need!!GOD BLESS YOU GUYS!!XD
I believe so, even though people come and go, and relationships come, fade, and leave, God will always be there for us, no matter how bad the situation may seem. The people i've met seem fake or well, as i call it 'the people who will totally love you if you give them what they want' is ther truely any good people out there?! we'll i've never seen that. But at least God will always be there.
I don't know how to explain it,
but I know that words will hardly do.
Miracles with signs and wonders,
aren't enough for me to prove to you.
Don't you know I've always loved you?
Even before there was time.
And though you turn away, I tell you still,
don't you know I've always loved you?
And I always will.
Greater love has not a man
than the one who gives his life to prove
that he would do anything,
and that's what I'm gonna do for you.
Don't you know I've always loved you?
Even before there was time.
And though you turn away, I tell you still,
don't you know I've always loved you?
And I always will.
okay so last Wednesday, my youth pastor showed us a video...this was a wake up call for me as I hope it will to yall, this video is called: "A Letter From Hell"
it explains in this video about the consequenses of being a Christian but not sharing, and explaining him to your non-Christian friends who haven't quite experienced him. I will say it is shocking but it's a good shock. Well, let me stop rambling and here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Echgat2uFU8
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® Matthew 15:21-28 “And Jesus went away from there, and withdrew into the district of Tyre and Sidon. And behold, a Canaanite women came out from the region, and began to cry out, saying, “Have mercy on me, O Lord, Son of David; my daughter is cruelly demon-possessed.” But He did not answer her word. And His disciples came to Him and kept asking Him, saying, "Send her away, for she is shouting out after us." But He answered and said, "I was sent only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel." But she came and began to bow down before Him, saying, "Lord, help me!" And He answered and said, "It is not good to take the children's bread and throw it to the dogs." But she said, "Yes, Lord; but even the dogs feed on the crumbs which fall from their masters' table." Then Jesus answered and said to her, "O woman, your faith is great; be it done for you as you wish." And her daughter was healed at once."
God tests this woman in a couple of ways. First the Lord ignores her as she cries out to him. She pleads for help and he does nothing. If that were me I don’t know if I would have kept trying if he just ignores me. That doesn’t feel real good when someone ignores you and it probably doesn’t especially when it deals with something that the one you’re talking to is the only one that can help. It would be very hard for me to stay loyal. The second test is when God says, “It is not good to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs…” WOW!! Jesus was comparing her to a dog! That is pretty low. I would not take that very good. But she says, “Yes, Lord; but even the dogs feed on the crumbs which fall from their master’ table…” I sure would have not answered it like that. I would be totally hurt. God was trying to test her humility. He called her as low as a dog and what does she do? Answers YES!!!! He tries to see what she would do when he puts her down and tries to crush her spirits. She does not flinch and shows her faithfulness and belief in him so much that she would not let words get to her. She humbles herself without a second thought and doesn’t turn back. I don’t know if I could have been as strong as her but it is incredible at how faithful, dedicated, believing, and humble she was. Would you pass the test?
® Ephesians 4:31-32 “Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”
® Ephesians 6:1-2 “Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. Honor your father and mother (which is the first commandment with a promise).”
Everyone thinks the worst thing is to have a step-parent. They never want to listen to them and don’t think they have to. God says to obey your mother and father not to obey your biological mother and biological father. We are to respect our elders and to do what they say. We also shouldn’t have anger toward them or bitterness because they have done nothing. Most kid’s say no one can replace there mother or father and no one says they have to but that is no reason to hate them, disrespect them, or just to not listen to them at all. It is as hard for them as it is for you because its not easy coming into a family and having to fill the shoes of the loved one. If you just never talk to them or accept them there will never be some kind of bond or relationship. You might be hurt by losing a loved one but so is the adult. Whether it’s a divorce or a death the adult has feelings to. The other big factor is that they are not the same as the lost one. Just a little advice NO ONE IS THE SAME!!! You may not like some things they do but just to be honest that’s not up to you. You should be happy if they are happy. If you love your parent you care about their feelings right? Then why hurt them by not getting along with the step?
hey so i have a prayer request---
its for my friends mom, she has ovarian cancer, again... and its not looking good.... she is a single mom with 8kids. the youngest is 6 ithink. so i jsut ask for prayers--- its not her time yet.
thanks
God made man out of dirt and air. man rebelled against him. so god sent them out. but he still loved them
(Chrous)
God's love is what we want. God's love is what we need. it is God's love we charish. so Let God's Love Rain
His children turned on him. so he chose noah to built a ark. he told him get animals 2 by 2. when the flood was over. he showed his love.
(Chrous)
God could not stand seeing his children sin. So he sent his only son to die on that cross. That was Looooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeee.
(Chrous)
That was love, that was love, that was loooooooovvvvveeeeeeee
(Chrous)2x
Let God's Love.......... Raaaaaaaiiinnnnnnn
Oh tragedy has taken so many,
love lost cause they all forgot who you were.
And it scares me to think
that I could choose my life over you,
my selfish heart, divides me from you
it tears us apart.
So tell me, what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful, so beautiful?
Oh why do I let myself go
of the hands that painted the stars and hold tears that fall?
And the pride of the heart
makes me me forget that it's not me but you,
who makes my heart beat
I'm lost without you, and dying from me.
At the end of it all, I wanna be in your arms
at the end of it all, I wanna be in your arms
at the end of it all, I wanna be in your arms
at the end of it all, I wanna be in your arms.
So tell me, what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful, so beautiful?
Will my life find me by your side?
Your love is beautiful, so beautiful.
I find myself on December 7th 2009 at 10:24 p.m.sitting on my floor in my room crying out to Jesus my savior. Asking and longing for a change in my life and people's lives around me. My friend that has cancer ( pray for her) My grandmother who has lost touch with god and is trying to find her way back. My family. I sit here crying, praying, faithful that there is a way even when there is no way at all. That god can make a way for everyone including me. With the heart aches of school, that i deal with everyday, it takes a toll on my spirit. It brings me down and causes my sight on god to seem a bit hazy. Even through all the confusion though I know he is with me no matter what. I am having to encourage myself today and you by saying to not give up even when the sky is falling down right on your face. To hold on and keep the faith. It says in the bible that faith big as a mustardseed can move MOUNTAINS! Can you belive that? I can. So Just hold on to what you have with god dont let it slip away. It is easy to run away from god, the hard part is coming back to where you were the way you used to be. Even when you turned you back on him you are still in his hands, for he will never leave you or forsake you. That is his promise. I hope I have encouraged you today, ( I sure have blessed myself). Here is a bible verse you can read:
John 6 (Belive in God!)
HI EVERYONE =]
I'm Nessa! This is my first official blog post! :) Theres not much to say but I hope I can meet some new friends!
im bored...lalalalala......uuuuugggggghhhhhh....does any1 want 2 chat?.......pppllleeeaaassseee.
today i realized that my brother was right. I needed to find someone to tlk to and let them hear me out. i thoguht that i knnew wht i was going to do but i think god wants me to do somethings else so i guess ill do it.
College, Confusion, and God's Faithfulness
August 11th, 2009 Jim Martin
"We do our best when we don't know what we are doing." -- Bono
Bono spoke these words to Bill Hybels, in an interview taped for Leadership Summit 2009, about working toward making a dent in global poverty and the global AIDS problem.
Can you relate to these words?
I know I can.
When I was in college, I had no idea what I was going to do with my life. I began as a social work/sociology major. Why? I liked one particular teacher as a freshman at Eastfield College. Now in those days, I did not ask anyone for any input or advice. Furthermore, I had no direction in terms of work or career. I declared a major but really had no idea what kind of work that might entail. Later, after I transferred to the University of North Texas, I majored in business and earned my degree there.
The Eastfield campus was an interesting place. There were lots of Vietnam veterans coming back from the war. (At the same time, with a low draft number, I kept waiting to be called.) There were numerous political discussions in various classes. "Underground" newspapers were sold on campus or passed out in the campus center. Intense conversations took place in the campus center. There was much cynicism toward institutions and much interest in most anything that seemed to be an alternative. Braless girls and guys in old jeans and interesting t-shirts walked throughout campus. In the parking lot were many vehicles with peace symbols and political stickers on the back windows. Meanwhile, in the middle of all of this, a total stranger came up to me one day in the campus center and asked point blank: "Do you love Jesus?"
These were turbulent times in the nation. These were turbulent times in my life. I felt very confused about many, many things. I didn't understand my feelings and didn't understand my thinking. I had no idea what to feel, think or believe. There was a sense in which I felt very alone.
I remember bouncing all over the place in my thinking. One day I might listen to a Japanese professor talk about the merits of Buddhism. The next day, I might be volunteering to work for a presidential candidate. One day, I might be reading a book about the mistreatment of American Indians. The next day, I might be reading about some sort of radical lifestyle on the West Coast. My thinking had no center and no direction. I do not recall in those days knowing a person with whom I could talk about things that really mattered.
I did try on one occasion to visit with a minister who had served our church for a number of years. I wanted to talk with this man about my life. Why him? I have no idea. It took some time to get up the nerve to go see him. One day, I drove to the church building, went around the block, and returned home. Finally, a few days later, I walked into his office. I told him that I had not been living right and felt very guilty. He told me that I was a "good boy" and he knew that I had not done anything that could be that wrong. That was frustrating. I remember thinking, "I get up the nerve to finally talk with someone and he won't take me seriously."
Now if you had asked me what I believed, I would have given you some sort of answer. I might have told you that I believed in God, Jesus, the Bible. Or, I might have told you that I believed in my church. In those days, I might have even communicated in some way that I thought my group was the only right group. Yet, I think in my heart I knew something was missing in all of this. I knew there were gaps. I knew there was a gap between God and my life during the week. I could not figure out how God connected with what I was experiencing at school. I heard the preachers say that the gospel was "good news." I could not figure out why. There wasn't anything that seemed like good news to me.
Yet, through all of this, God was at work. I am convinced that God was at work shaping and molding me. I had no idea what I was doing or where I was going. Yet, my confusion did not stop God. If I were to get a "do-over" with this part of my life, I hope I would make some better decisions. I hope I would choose to develop better habits. Yet, through it all, God continued to work. He is faithful.
Question
Can you look back at a chapter of your life that may have been dark or confusing at the time and see now that God was at work? What is one thing you have learned about God because of these experiences?
This is probably one of the best articles I've ever read!!...It's like what my life is now...can anyone relate to this??...Sometimes I just really don't know what to do anymore like I can't even open this to anyone. I feel like no one will really care to listen or even understand me sincerely. But I know God will..but what does it really hindering me from going to him and just simply u know talk to him..I mean I do.. but something just really seems to always be missing and no matter how much I try to get away from that nonstop questions and confusions in mind it keeps on coming back. Its like a total ??????? in my mind. Sometimes I just feel like poofing away and just simply u know vanish..but isn't just to deep to say?...I'm full of confusion..and it seems like nobody can ever understand me...I feel pretty useless in many cases living this life right now....How I wish to get away from this unexplainable ____..or should I say MISERY???
If ever you could help me...you can send me ur messeges through my email: trishayata@yahoo.com it it'll really be i big help for me...
ok soo this weekend i went into cays room for the first time and it just felt so cold. i dont know how to explain it. but its just tht i was looking at all her stuff and idk wht to do with it, because it feels like its still her stuff. and the worst part is her pillow still has her hair on it from when it was falling out, idk i just havent been able to touch it. is tht like sick? idk. i just feel like im complaining about it. like its been 2 months so i feel like i should move on. but at the same time i dont want to because if i move on then it will be like she is really gone.
Angel tears
By: becca
A beautiful bride
Long, dark hair
No one knows her
Yet still they stare
Golden skin
The desire to touch
Ocean blue eyes
That have cried too much
A long white dress
Made from French silk
An angel’s face
A rose a ready to wilt
So many secrets
Behind her smile
So much pain
To walk down the aisle
She ran away from it all
At the words of “I do”
Opened the doors
To night so true
Running down the
Dark, black roads
She enters the trees
And sees a red rose
The perfect flower
A deep, crimson red
The color of blood
She saw herself dead
She lay in the dirt
Mist rose from the ground
Her beat one,
last silent sound…
why do people hide secrets? i think its because we are afraid of what will happen if we tell the truth. like some people are afraid to tell friends or family how they really feel. my advice is just say whats on your mind. if people are really your friends, the should and will understand.
Ok, so must of us know about the latest trends. There is the sag, the colorful shoes (which I personally love), the bright t-shirts, skinny jeans, and much more. But what a lot of us haven't noticed is how we are portraying the Lord with what we wear. Lot's of the shirts I have seen lately do not share the nicest of messages, and showing off your underwear is so unappealing! But how can we share our faith with what we wear? And why do it?
The Lord made us in his image (Genesis 1:27), and that means in mind. How are we representing the Lord? What do you think others will say about a Christian who goes around with his pants half way down his rear end and a t-shirt that says "FBI - Female Body Inspector"? That is why we should be careful of what we put on.
And there is a way to share your faith through your clothing. A few years ago, a new store was opened in California called C28 (Corinthians 2:8) and they offer a wide variety of styles in shoes and clothing. And the best thing is, all of their products share the gospel in one way or the other.
Sadly, since C28 is such a new store, it is not found in many states (only California and a couple of others). Checking out their site is the wisest thing to do. I have a link which will give you 10% off fo your first purchase. Feel free to looka round, and maybe just read how the clothing line has changed lives.
Hope this was of help.
Azlin.
post watever i want including song names
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I think that sometimes its hard to live for god and not yuor self for the really hard part is remebering to read the bible everyday I need to work on that but I think sometimes we have to remember all he did for us and that if we live for him and have in our hearts that we will soon live with him in heaven.
In October of 2007, my step dad was diognosed with colon cancer. But I'm not exactly sure what stage it was. He had to go up to Pittsburgh Pa for chemotherapy and radation. It was hard for my whole family, but especially me. I can't really say my step dad is my favorite but when it cames down to the worst of things with him, I can get REALLY emotional. He would always be sick and not able to go anywhere. When I was told in 2007 what all was going on, my mom, step dad, little brother, little sister, grandma, my Pastor and his wife were all there including me. I balled my eyes out. I didn't know what to or how to handle it. When I'm at my house I feel like i can't cry alone, so i would just hold it all inside. IT HURT.
Then today, my Pastor came back over an it was him, my step dad, little brother, little sister, grandma and me. My pastor, step dad, and grandma told us three(me, my brother and sister) that the cancer had came back and now it was in my step dad's lymph nodes. It's the came type of cancer but just in a different place now. They said that the doctors said if it was in any of his organs that it could be fatal.
I don't know what to do know. I cryed my eyes out again today when they told us. It hurts so bad. I prayed and prayed that this would go away. (but of course it can't be killed fully. It can be maintained but not killed) Even thought this has been goin on for 2 years now, I still don't know how to handle it. I don't know if I should be angry, upset or just cry. I want to do all of that though.
Now he has to go back to Pittsburgh every 2 weeks for chemo and then after 48 hours a visting home nurse will come in and unhook the chemo. Tomorrow he goes to get a port put in and I guess it it electronic. I don't have anything else for right now, but I know I will definatelly be writing more!!!!!.
Was walking down memory lane,
Was walking on the beach,
Throttling the feelings of pain,
Keeping doubts out of reach.
Had a look at the sands of time
The hours when time itself stood still,
Could hear distant bells chime,
And I was walking while I still stood still.
Felt the heat of the sun beating,
Could sense an awe that the past left,
Saw the sheath of life fleeting,
Glimpses of what was there were best.
This is the story of my walk with God so far. If one is interested in how I came to know God and why I decided that following Him was a wise decision, then read this. Every believer has a testimony and I always hear from my pastors that it is something to be shared with others. They may not all be amazing, but each and every one is unique. Some were raised to believe, others came to believe under incredible circumstances. I do not think mine is prominently either of those, but here is what I have to say about it in detail.
Before sharing how I came to know God, I think that it is first necessary that I share what I was like before this change occurred. In elementary school, I enjoyed activities such as violent video games like GTA, cursing was a big part of my vocabulary, staring at women was a hobby of mine, and if I ever did anything nice, it was only because I wanted either other people to like me or so I could get something out of it. I absolutely loved watching TV shows like South Park and Family Guy. I had some major problems with lust, too, and I think one can identify what that means (it does not mean I had sex. Seriously, this is 6th grade). I never did drugs, drank alcohol, or smoked a whole cigarette (I only took a few puffs because my sister offered me some). I was still quite smart, but my motivation for doing well at school was not for the honor of God, but so I could be rich when I became older. I even saved up $1000 in elementary school because I wanted the most money possible to spend on myself. My gods were money, lust, personal pleasure, and future success. The idea of religion came across my mind so little that I cannot even provide a ratio or fraction. Some still thought I was nice, but like I said earlier, I was only nice at times so I could benefit from it one way or another.
In Intermediate school, things started to change. In the second semester of 7th grade in January, I started thinking about God more. Why was this? Topics like the Protestant Reformation and Renaissance were being studied in my history class and obviously that would make me think about God a little more. I was thinking about how stupid those Protestants were, but how at least they were smarter than those Catholics who worship a woman. After all, I believed one of the biggest purposes, if not the biggest purpose, of women was for sex (I would not admit it, though). I read about their beliefs in my text book and started mocking them in my head commenting to myself how Christians are retarded and brainwashed idiots that have so little of a life that they would sacrifice it to follow an imaginary guy named Jesus Christ. I was reading about Hell and how it is a place of eternal punishment according to the Protestants (I already knew this, but I wanted to see if the Protestants believed the same way as the Catholics. I was naïve to the Christian religion at the time). Of course, there was that line that said people like myself would go to Hell. Those evil Christians: using fear to try and get me to believe, that is terrorism! I kept rereading this for several days and eventually I started thinking differently.
I started giving Christianity a chance because I decided that it would be hypocritical of me to condemn it as a bad religion without giving it a chance or knowing nothing about it. I gave it a chance by trying to understand a Christian's point of view. I pretended to believe all that junk for a while and I confirmed that truly it was the biggest waste of time in life that one could do to oneself. I gave up reading and went on with my life. This did not seem to work though. The thoughts of what I just read seemed to stick in my head, almost as if there was something preventing it from disappearing from my mind. I kept thinking about what I read (which was not very much context). I kept telling myself that I did not need God's help. I had a great life already. How could a man-made creation that costs money and time with no earthly reward or pleasure make my life better? Seriously, all religion is just a bunch of stupid philosophies (or so that was how I believed then).
Meanwhile, my problems with lust were rising to new levels that caught my attention. I decided that I needed to take action about this or this habit of mine would end up costing me hundreds of those dollars that I thought I deserved to keep, it would arouse my family's concern, and it would haunt me if I knew somebody else knew about it. I decided to stop, but that did not work. The desire kept coming back, and I could not overcome it. I remembered God, and thought to myself that this would be a perfect opportunity to prove that he does not exist because He would not provide the help I needed even if I asked for it (this test made no sense, though, because God does not help a person who is selfishly testing Him). I came to the conclusion that I just described because I remembered that I had vowed to "give the Christians a chance." Thoughts about God were still in my head and especially about Hell. I tried to imagine what eternal punishment in Hell would be like (after all, that was my destiny anyway). The thoughts were pretty disturbing, but they did not intimidate me because I believed Hell did not exist.
This is where circumstances started becoming more weird. For reasons that until this day I cannot describe, I began to actually fear God. I thought about how if God did exist, I would undeniably go to Hell, and be tortured forever. I did not like that sight and this time, that thought did scare me because I was starting to think that Hell might be real. My logic was, "Better safe than sorry." I figured that it was better to play it safe than risk it all and lose. I also convinced myself that I did not have to be a devout Christian, so then I could still manage to have some fun (after all, then I believed that Christians knew about fun as much as they did reality, which is nothing). I had always heard about prayer and how it should be used when you have fear, worries, or problems so I made a short prayer which was my version of the Sinner's Prayer (I actually made a few of those) saying that I would need God's help to make this decision. I said that I did not want this to be temporary because I did not want to go to Hell. This is more evidence of what I meant when I said "everything I did had a selfish motive behind it." I even converted for selfish reasons! I converted not to serve God the best I could, but to do the bare minimum that was required to go to Heaven, and thus, avoiding Hell. I am not sure what day this was, but I know it was sometime in early February of 2007. I usually say that is was February 3rd, 2007. By the way, I would like to mention that all this happened without anybody influencing me. These were all decisions that I made on my own. Nobody gave me an invitation to accept Jesus as my Savior; it seems as if God Himself came after me since nobody else would preach to me.
A few days later, I was having some problems containing myself from giving in to those lustful desired that I knew would become a tragic flaw of mine if I did not deal with them. This time, instead of just saying, "I can do this on my own," I prayed for God's help and I swear to you that it worked. I did not know much about praying so it was probably not much more than this: "God help me. I am having problems. I want them to go away. I want this thing I have with you to be permanent. I do not want to suffer in Hell. I could not do it on my own so maybe you can do something. Amen." Those desires remained for a long time, but I was able to defeat them every time when I asked God. The desires even came so strong once that I tried to find a loopholl in the Bible by doing research on the Internet that would allow me to continue with my habit, but obviously that did not work. How did I control the desires? I do not know other than just to say that God is all-powerful. Some may argue that it was because I had a motivation, which was the desire to avoid torment, but I had a motivation before trusting God. That motivation was maintaining my reputation and knowing that I could never fulfill my lifelong dream of being rich if this habit of mine was going to cost me money. In addition, it may have gotten me locked up in prison if I let it go on long enough because it would have transformed into something worse. There was a motivation before avoiding Hell as this evidence shows.
At this point, I believe God exists, but where do I go from here? My first actions were kind of stupid now that I think about it now because they were not to read the Bible, go to church, or tell my parents the change that had occurred. My first actions were to establish prayer and living guidelines for myself to follow of which I thought God would approve based on what I had heard about him. I started this thing I call my, "Nightly Prayer" in which every night before bed, I prayed about whatever was on my mind, confessed sins, etc. I still do this to this day and it keeps seeming to get gradual longer because it first averaged 15-20 minutes but now it averages like 35 minutes. I made this prayer in addition to daily prayers. For living guidelines, I took a good look at "the seven deadly sins" and made guidelines to avoid those. To avoid lust: I set a no masturbating/looking at pornography rule; for anger: no cursing; for sloth: a system to measure my exercise with limits I was required to meet; for gluttony: calories limits; for greed: I did not do much, but I said that I would try to be less of a tightwad; for pride: A vow to brag less about my good grades; and for envy: An attempt to do my best to stop wanting to be rich and to stop being jealous of those who already are. It took me about 10 months to reach a point where I thought I had "mastered" avoiding these sins to the best of my ability so the time is now December 2007 (my 8th grade year).
The next obstacle I took on was telling my parents everything that had happened in the last year. I decided that I could never summon up the courage and bravery to say it to my mom because I would feel like a huge hypocrite (for my whole life, I had trashed the lifestyle I was now living). I figured that not even God could help me with this (I did not know that this was a false statement at the time because I was still not attending church or reading the Bible). I decided to spend each Sunday in January and February of 2008 writing about what had happened to me and I planned to confess on March 2nd, 2008 which ended up getting delayed to March 9th due to horrific fear on the day of March 2nd. Basically, how I handled the situation of March 9th was I got my mom's attention, I told her that there had been changes in my life, I quietly and briefly hinted that they were religious, told my mom to read the papers, and I hid in my room. Thinking about this now, I handled this like a toddler. My step-dad also read the papers and they were not that surprised because they had seen how I had changed and thought that there was some reason behind it. They noticed the research I was doing on the Internet too in the history files. Basically, what they had to say about my change was this: do whatever you feel is right and do not ever be ashamed of what you believe because that is what makes you yourself. What a relief!
I did not really tell my dad the same way. I was planning to do it over my 2008 spring break in 8th grade, but that did not happen due to fear again. I had a phone conversation with him sometime in late March after spring break (my dad lived in South Lake Tahoe then and still does) and I do not remember what the conversation was about, but I said something about me being unable to do something because I was religious. My dad, who is agnostic, did not really care about my religious beliefs and basically said the same thing I heard from my mom and step-dad. This obstacle was out of the way now too.
Next on my list, I began to read the Bible daily (finally I am doing the thing I should have done before anything else). I had received a New Testament from my dad in December of 2007 that he claimed a friend gave to him awhile ago and since he did not want it, he gave it to me after we had one of those deep talks about the creation of the universe, purpose of life, and other stuff like that. (I purposely avoided mentioning my religious beliefs in that conversation.) I finished reading the New Testament in about 1 month (I read it a lot and kind of speed read it so I did not read it very thoroughly). I had some basic knowledge about Christianity now and decided that with this knowledge, I could pick a church to attend which had the most correct beliefs in my opinion.
I knew that church was a big part of a Christian life so I began researching on the Internet all the churches of Paradise. I had a hard time picking either the CMA or the Assembly of God, but I chose the Assembly of God for two reasons: (1) It matched my beliefs a little better, and mainly (2) I thought I might bump into somebody at the CMA that knew me who would hold my past against me which would make me feel embarrassed talking about God with him/her. Thus, the Assembly of God was my first church I attended regularly and it still is. I am sure the CMA is a great church, but I do not regret my decision. I have only missed one day of church since my first day on May 11th, 2008 and that was because I was in Tahoe and had not decided which church to go to there.
My next mission became two things: finding a church in Tahoe to attend over the summer and learning to live a Godly life in front of my parents (mainly my dad). After more research of churches on the Internet, I decided to attend Sierra Community Church. My dad was surprised by the changes I had made; he remembered that I told him to expect some changes, but the amount of changes I made exceeded his expectations. Also over the summer, I began writing in a journal about God every day. I already was writing in a journal because it was a homework assignment in 8th grade English and the habit kind of stuck, but it was not about God every day. It was much less than that. I was in a Sunday Service at Sierra Community Church when one of the pastors there was talking about how his professors in Bible College required him to keep a journal about God which prompted spiritual growth in him so he recommended we keep one too. I had stopped writing in my journal for a few weeks, but then instantly started up again due to this inspiration and encouragement and began writing about nothing but God. The pastor does not know I took his advice, which shows that one needs to encourage even if one does not see the results because they still might be there.
Let me do a little review here. I was a perverted and greedy kid, and then I became Christian out of fear for God. I then worked on avoiding sins, confessed my religion to my parents, started reading the Bible, going to church, learning to live a Godly life around my parents, and even began writing in a journal about God every day. My main motivation for all this was still fear of Hell. I began to start feeling the love of God in my life, though, but that was one of my lesser motivations. Increasing Bible knowledge in addition to church sermons over summer taught me a lot more about God. I began to feel the love of God in my life just by looking back at what had happened. I had come so far and I believed 100% that I could not have done this on my own. I did not even want to do it, but somehow, it happened! I just wanted to avoid Hell like I said. It is now early August, just before the beginning of my freshman year in 2008. I am beginning to feel no longer obligated to obey God's laws, but the actions are coming naturally. I actually wanted to obey Him wholeheartedly. This is when I realized that God's laws are not designed to be looked at as "restrictions," but that truly they are laws which keep one safe from evil. I considered them more as ways in which to be free. This was a wakeup call that prompted me to take another step up.
Evangelism (spreading the Word of God): a scary thing to me because it involved talking about God to my friends. By God and only by God, I have been able to talk about God or things having to do with God with at least one of my friends at school almost every day even if it may only be a few sentences or just one phrase since about September of 2008. This is when I wrote my first blog also. To this day, I am still working on evangelism in any way I can: I participated in a church drama that was an outreach, I am writing blogs about God, I am talking about God at school, I feel that I have been representing Christ well, and my friends see the things I am able to do through him.
I made some other advancements in my relationship with God in late 2008 and early 2009 also. I finished reading the entire Bible in October of 2008 (both the Old Testament and the New Testament twice--every word). I started 10 minute Bible studies with my parents after dinner every day in the middle of November, 2008 of which I lead in inspiration of the events of Youth Convention 2008. I talk about what I read from my daily Bible reading and the underlying themes of the stories in the Bible. I was baptized on November 30th, 2008, which was one day before my 15th birthday (what appropriate timing!) I finished my 1st journal dedicated entirely to God on December 10th, 2008 and started working on my 2nd the next day, which I finished on May 11th. I am working on my 3rd one now which I started on June 11th (I took a one month break). I had an encounter with my paternal grandpa, who is a humanist (heavy atheist) and although I was not questioned, at least I did not deny my belief in God. I have written 5 other blogs besides this one and I plan to write more whenever I can. I am almost done reading the Old Testament for a 2nd time and this time, I am doing it thoroughly. I am continuing to read my Bible every day and write in my journal about God every day. My "Nightly Prayer" is still running strong. My evangelism is gradually getting better, but it could still use much improvement. While in Tahoe, I now go to the Lake Tahoe Christian Fellowship Church instead of Sierrra Community Church, and I even go to the youth group there when I visit. Another challenge I am taking on is trying not to compromise my actions anywhere I go. I do not care where I go, who I am facing, what the circumstances are, what I will have to sacrifice, or whatever, I want to stand up for God!
In conclusion (yes, the conclusion is finally here). I have been blown away by what God has done in my life. I just cannot possibly see how I was able to do all this except with the help of God. As a former Atheist, I fell this has a few advantages such as being able to think a little more like one so I can answer the questions that they really want to be answered. Instead of "giving the Christians a chance", I am now "considering the beliefs of Atheists and other non-believers." If I do not listen to what they have to say, then why should I expect them to listen to any of what I have to say? Love is now my main motivation and just about the only motivation for serving God. Love of who He is, what He has done, and what He can do. I do not know when I made this decision, but I have even decided that I want to serve in ministry my entire life now. I look forward to it. I feel that I can make a difference and help people with their spiritual growth, problems, and/or wisdom. Pastor, missionary, traveling evangelist, or my current personal favorite: professor at a Bible College, whatever the ministry job is, I am up for it. As far as my near future goes like high school days, I do not know what to expect next, but the Holy Spirit will guide me there every step of the way if I just continue to trust the Lord. More miracles will happen in my life, I know they will come. I have never felt better in my life than I have in the last 2 years. I want to follow him until the day I die. I look back and I am amazed by the changes that have been made in my life. I want to do the same a few years from now also. God changes lives for the better. I want that to be known to all. I am making it my life mission. AMEN!
Tags: testimony
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I Know'
I said 'God I cry alot'
And God said 'That's why I gave you tears'
I said 'God I get so depressed'
And God said 'That why I gave you sunshine'
I said god I feel Alone'
And god said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'
I said 'god my loved one is dead'
And God said'I watched mine nailed to the cross'
I said God 'Where are they? '
And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light.
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I know'
its not that easy i love god. but sometimes it seems that he isnt listing and that im all alone thats y i joine this group to see if any one would listen and just hear miii dont have alot of people i can trust and i just feel like im drowning and holding my hand out so god can help mii but all he does is looks at mii????
<<<<help mii please>>>>
by confused
Whenever I read this poem, I want to cry. This tells me how todays society behaves and no one really cares. We all need to step up and take part in what is going on. Look at the people around you, what do they feel like? Do they know that someone cares? The someone that cares is God. And the other someone that SHOULD care is ME and YOU!!!!
you never saw my hurt, never saw me cry.
i tried my best to keep you by my side and
even though you hurt me down to the core, you now want me back
but do i even want you anymore??
you really don't know how much you broke my heart,
you took it from me and you tore it apart
but i thank you for that cuz i am so much stronger
and i'm with someone else whos loved me much longer.
and though i still cry sometimes at night
i'm ok now and i'm done with this fight
so keep your fake love and just leave me alone
cuz when you're in my life i'm broken and torn
ao i just got one more thing to say to you
i want you to know what i say is true
after all the tears that you've made me cry
its ok now cuz i'm ready to say bye
and thanks....
Ok so right now I'm going to a Christian church. keep in mind that i come from a catholic family. not surprising that my mother was very angry and shocked when i told her that i didn't want to be catholic anymore. it was hard and at the beginning i was at it alone with no real support from my family. that was 5 months ago. my mom is still not 100% ok with it and she still gets angry from time to time when i tell her that i have to go to choir practice or youth. but all in all its been worth. i've grown so much closer to God and i've learned so much. I've gotten on the right path again. and im happy to say it was all because of Him. You know maybe she'll never be fully accepting of it. and maybe she won't ever agree with my beliefs but i do know one thing. despite of all the problems im happy. im really truly happy. because i've learned how to trust God with my problems and most important of all is how to have faith.
Hey every1 please pray 4 me my mom left 2 tx 4 6wks and its killing me!!!!!
Hey people. I'm Hannah. This is my new blog where you can talk bout' anything @ all. Enjoy! God ROCKS! Mostly I just created a blog cause I didn't have 1 and didn't know what 2 make it about. so yeah. check out my profile if u want. God bless.
Ok, my names madison Im 15. I came on this website cause I need to find myself, lately I have no idea who I am.
I've been going to church ever since I was little, Im christian and always will be... Lately I've just lost touch with God and I just don't know how to get back. I feel like Im always a different person around different people.
I've done things that a couple of months ago, I would have never seen myself doing. I did drugs, I was so disrespectful to my parents, I didnt care about schooool, I just didnt care about anything to be honest.
And after doing all of that, I dont know who I am anymore.. I dont know what to do, or who I can talk to. I wish I could talk to my mom, but we're not close like that..I love her so much, and I know that if she knew about the things I've done, and how I've acted.. She would be SO disappointed in me.. She wants whats best for me, and I am so blessed to have the family that I have.
I just feel like I need someone to talk to, because theres ALOT of things I need to talk to somebody about.. I just havent found out who.
Sooo if you don't mind somebody talking for DAYS about herself :l
get at meee please.(:
This blog was written to encourage everybody to step
up one's faith and to take one's relationship with God to the next
level, or the first level. Colossians 1:10 says, "And we pray this in order
that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every
way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God."
(NIV). That is not exactly happening today, so that is why this blog was
written. It seems rare to see any devoted, Christian teenagers anymore. Of
course there are Christian teenagers, but how seriously do they treat God?
Insulting one by writing this is not the goal of this blog; rather, the goal is
trying to warn those who are weak in their relationship with God to get back on
the right track because 1 Timothy 5:20 says, "Those who sin are to be rebuked publicly, so that the others may take warning." (NIV). Every
person needs to try to put God first in his/her life above all other
things. There are too many times in life when one worries about oneself
first, and then gives God the leftovers. God wants the best, rather than
whatever one has left. Today's world is falling away from God and adopting
other false "gods." This means that some people are putting
other things ahead of God's needs, and thus, that has become a god.
For example, if money is one's first priority, then that is one's god because
it is what they serve for a living. One's first priority above everything else
is the most accurate definition of the word "god." The fact
that He is always there for everyone, even if one thinks that He is not,
needs to be known. The good do not always prosper, and the bad do not always
suffer. Revelation 2:10 proves this when it says, "Do not be afraid of what
you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in
prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Be
faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life."
(NIV). Everyone will go through hard times, even if one is a good person, but
when those hard times come, learning from them is a necessity. Anyone can learn
something from any event in one's life. A bad thing is not a bad thing if
it teaches one something important, but a good thing is a bad thing if it
teaches one nothing. In the world today, it is hard to discern the difference
between right and wrong. It seems as if the wrong thing is becoming the
majority. Everyone will find out, or has already seen, that many times in life
the minority is right, but the majority is right sometimes. If one wants to
know the difference between right and wrong, then one should read the
Bible. Hebrews 4:12 describes the Bible this way: "For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even
to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts
and attitudes of the heart." (NIV). If one really studies it hard, then
that one will find the answers to a lot of one's questions about life.
Some stories may seem extremely boring or irrelevant to society today, but
there are universal principles (themes) in every story that can be
applied. One can always talk to a fellow Christian of one's own, too,
if one is having spiritual troubles; I might be able to help.
I would
just like to explain an example of how God's powers are there for anybody. I
was once an Atheist, and I do not just mean a light one, I mean an in-your-face
kind of one. If one tried to preach to me, then I would insult and tell that
one to get a life. I always said that there is no proof that God is real, but I
see that there truly is now that I have witnessed God work in my
life. No person can completely turn his/her life around in the opposite
direction like I have by his/herself. Some of the readers of this blog know how
I used to act, and it is nothing like I am now. There was no one person
around me preaching at the time I was saved. It was a decision I just made on
my own. I converted out of fear of God, but now I do it for love. Of course I
still do fear God, in a respectful way (reverence), though. The Bible
tells its readers to fear the Lord that way; as 1 Peter 2:17 says, "Show proper
respect to everyone: Love the brotherhood of believers, fear God,
honor the king." (NIV). I dedicated my life to God just because I figured
it was too big of a risk not to follow God. I find it strange how many times
before I had considered the consequences of not following God, but they meant
nothing to me because I was so convinced that there was no God. I know that fear
is not the best reason to convert, but I do not think that way
anymore. Besides, whatever it takes to convince one to honestly
believe in God, I support it. There are people out there who have much more amazing
stories about coming to God than mine too. I do not even
consider mine to be that amazing compared to some people's testimonies that I
have heard. Read the blog entitled, "My Testimony" for a bigger story
regarding how I came to God.
One may feel
scared at first when one decides to follow God, but eventually that fear
will turn into love. One probably will face persecution, but that it just bound
to happen whenever one does not fit into the normal stereotype.
The apostle, Paul, from the Bible, reveals that persecution can be a
sign of strong faith, which is good. He said in 2 Timothy 3:12, "In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted."
(NIV). The fact that Christianity has been around before any other
religion, and that there have been artifacts found that were described in Old
Testament books written 3000 years ago, not to mention, all the prophecies that
have been fulfilled needs to pointed out. Yes, archaeological evidence is
in support of the Bible (do some research and find out for oneself). Yes,
prophecies have been fulfilled. The coming of Jesus Christ was predicted by
God's prophets hundreds of years before it even happened. One can do some
research on that, too. Read the blog entitled, "Why Follow God?"
for more evidence supporting the existence of God. If people were not supposed
to believe every word of the Bible, then why would a person listen to
any of it? How would one determine which parts are right and which parts are
wrong? Would one just cherry pick the scriptures that one wants to follow? That
is flat out wrong. There are not some true parts, it is either completely true
or completely false, and it is completely true. 2 Timothy 3:16 says, "All
Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting
and training in righteousness." (NIV). The Bible does not answer all
questions about everything because some things will never be known. The Bible
reveals that people do not have infinite minds and that some things will remain
unknown forever. Knowing this should not stop one from trying to find the
answers, though. Science cannot explain everything either. If one asks enough
questions, then eventually a scientist will run out of answers. The Bible
can run out of answers too, but it gives a reason why there is no answer such
as how humans' minds are unable to comprehend the answer, or how infinite
something is. Romans 11:33-34 supports this statement because it says, "Oh,
the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable
his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out! Who has known the mind of
the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?" (NIV). Some people say
that the Bible contradicts with itself. If a person sees something
like this in the Bible, then giving up on God is not the answer; rather,
try to find out the real meaning behind the two parts of the Bible
that appear to contradict because they do not contradict. Just
dig into that amazing brain and come up with an explanation to this. There
is a reason the Word of God is called the Holy Bible. Holy means
perfect, infallible, or without errors. As far as for what "Bible" stands, some
people say it is an acronym for Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth. That
is an intelligent acronym, but is not the actual reason why the Word of God is
known as the Bible.
Personally,
I believe that teenagers in today's world are not taking God seriously because
they do not know enough about Him, or just do not want any
"restrictions" on their lives. They let peer pressure grab a
hold of them, and have heard false rumors about Him. To a non-believer, it is
understood why Christianity may look like a set of rules that are
impossible to follow (I once was one and believed that way), but when one
really feels God working in one's life, these rules will not
be viewed as "restrictions" to that one, but as ways to
avoid sin; freedom to not sin and protection. They set one free. How
is this? By following these rules, one is no longer restricted/addicted to the
negative parts of sin. How many of the readers of this blog have read every word of the entire Bible? How about a half? Perhaps a fourth? Only one
book? Maybe even just a few verses? Notice the word, "read" is
underlined. God can do anything, and no one can hide from Him, but some
people act like the preceding statements are false, and some of those
people claim to be Christians! If one would like to know what one needs to
do to take one's relationship with God to the next level, then just go to
church, start reading the Bible, pray, ask somebody else, ask me, do something.
God will not force His way into one's heart because He has given everyone the
gift of freewill. One has to accept Him, and then He will work in one's life
performing miracles that one would have never thought possible. Jesus once said,
"Behold I stand at the door and knock, and if any man answers my
call, I will come into him" -Revelation 3:20. (NIV). Do not wait
for an opportunity, make one. Some individuals say that it would be
much easier for them to believe in God if they could just see a physical
miracle, and the reasons why they would say that are fully
understood. God understands this too, but He tells His people to be
faithful for, "Blessed are those who have believed yet not
seen." -John 20:29. (NIV). If a miracle is desired by one, then look
at the lives that have been changed by God. Some of those testimonies
are absolutely incredible!
Do not ever say that it is too late for one to change because
most of the ones reading this blog are teenagers and they probably have a
good amount of life left, but that is no excuse to put off committing one's
life to God. Teenagers usually do have a long life ahead of them, but they
could die at any time. They are not invincible; rather, they can die. If you
died now, would you be happy with your life? What will be your
legacy? Would you be happy where you spent eternity? If not, then realize
that God will forgive anyone of any sins including murder, or other,
"horrible" sins. God does not categorize sin so He will forgive
anyone of anything except for one thing and that is blasphemy of the Holy
Spirit, but trust the following statement: most of the readers of this blog are
too young to have committed that sin. This sin is like continuous rejection of
God one's whole life. People who have committed this sin have no plans of
ever considering following God. God needs to be treated for what
He is, a god! God is not just a friend. He is a friend in a way, but He is also
much more than that. It is time for a lot of teenagers to realize that and get
their priorities in order. All I can do is write; it is up to the reader to
make the changes. If the reader has already made those changes,
then he/she should prompt other people like his/her friends to make
those changes, too. There is a world out there in need of Jesus; do not forget
that. I am not saying that I am perfect, because I am nowhere near
perfect. I need to step up and make a lot of changes myself. I have already
made some big changes, but I have a lot more that I need to make. I am
just as useless as any other human without God. All of the readers of
this blog are encouraged to start changing as well. No matter how close one is
to God, one can always grow closer.
If one has
questions, it is guaranteed that that one is not alone. Many people have
questions about God, so one should feel free to ask and not let the enemy
(Satan) make one feel like one is the only one who feels that
way because one is not. That is one of Satan's biggest ways of
messing with individuals-making them feel like they are alone. Much more could
be written than this, but this will suffice. If any information on other topics
having to do with God or local things one can do
to enhance one's relationship with God is desired, then contact
me. Here is some information to get one started, and if more information about
another church is desired by one, then I will do it that. Only information on
the Assembly of God (the church by the high school) is listed below, because
that is the church at which I worship.
Youth Groups: These are good to go to so one can talk and learn about
God with people his/her age. One can meet the Youth Pastor
there, too. The Assembly of God one is on Friday nights from 7:00PM-8:15PM
usually in the Youth
Center.
Pre-service activities start at 6:15PM
Youth Center: This place is located right next to the church by the high
school and it is open Tuesdays and Thursdays from 3:00PM-4:30PM during the
school year. It is that place in the church parking lot that looks like a
house. It is a place to meet teens who go to the Assembly of God and to
meet the Youth Pastor there, also. It has video games, a foosball table, pool
table, air hockey table, and cafe! Tri-tip sandwiches are on sale there the
first Friday of every month during the school year from 11:00AM-2:00PM.
Small Groups: These are like Youth Groups, but more in-depth, and with
less people. One participates and is asked his/her opinion on something
more (usually Bible verses or stories). One is more involved and more serious
(or at least should be). It is at the pastor's house normally so if anyone
wants directions, just ask me. It is on Tuesday nights from about 7:15PM-8:30PM
at Pastor Jeff's house for the Assembly of God. Activities such as video games
(Xbox 360 as well as Nintendo Wii) and food are provided before the
start.
Sunday Services: These are the standard, regular, Sunday, worship
services. A great place to sing praises, listen to sermons, hear
about current church events, pray, and all the other good, old
stuff. They would be extremely boring to someone who does not believe
in God, though (to be completely honest). The Assembly of God service is from
10:45AM-12:15PM (on Sunday, of course).
Sunday Schools: A place where one talks about the Bible's stance
on certain aspects of life. It is similar to a Bible study and offered to
all ages. It is about practically applying Biblical principles to
one's life. Analogies are used to help one understand. The Assembly
of God's meeting is from 9:30AM-10:30AM usually in the Youth Center
(also on Sunday, as the title implies).
Church Classes: At most moderately sized to large churches, there is always some kind of classes taking place. They cover a wide variety of topics that are usually not the most suitable for a church sermon. They may be characterized by weekly video sessions, devotionals following up a meeting, or seminars from a teacher or pastor. These classes are usually different from anything else because (1) The leader teaches, rather than preaches, (2) One may have a study guide to go along with the teaching, (3) They only last a few weeks to a few months, and (4) The audience is much smaller. Much information can be learned from these classes and to the one who is trying to do everything to advance one's relationship with God, these are some musts.
Interactive Ministry: As with church classes, interactive ministries are more common in bigger churches. These usually involve reaching out to the community in some way. They may be established ministries, or a one-time-only ministry. One ministry may be an outreach to feed the homeless, while another may be an attempt at street evangelism. In these programs, one is very active and physically participates in many activities. Most of the time, one deals with people outside the church, so one must have some kind of social skills. Check every church to see what kind of extracurricular ministries/outreaches they offer. On-the-field training is a very effective method to help one spiritually grow and mature.
Prayer Service: This is a service in which all one does is pray. The title is quite self-explanatory. The goal is to address the many concerns of this town, state, nation, and world through prayerful connection with God. The Assembly of God's prayer service is Tuesdays at 10:00AM.
Bible Study: This is a time for individuals to put their full attention on the Bible. Rather than a theme being taught (like in a church sermon), this activity thoroughly teaches and explores specific passages of Scripture from many different perspectives. The title gives one a good idea about what this is. The Assembly of God one is Wednesdays at 6:30PM.
Missions Trips: These are trips to other cities (or sometimes even countries) in which either a gathering is held, or one participates in evangelizing to non-Christians. They occur at random times at all kinds of different places so if one desires to go on one of these, one needs to stay updated. They usually involve a fee due to traveling expenses, but money can usually be raised through fundraising. They involve a lot of time prior to the trip, and the trip itself usually lasts a lengthy amount of time. These are big commitments, but can greatly enhance one's relationship with God because of the powerful encounters and hands-on experience.
And More: The preceding ideas are one a few of many ways one can kick-start or enhance one's relationship with the Lord God. Some churches offer much more than only these activities. In addition, one can do things on one's own time to build up one's connection with God. Bible reading, praying, journaling, and talking with other about the Lord are personal activities one should strive to do on an every day basis. There are an infinite number of ways to bring glory to the name of Jesus Christ.
life is hard sometimes and trust me it will prolly be hard agian you get so caught up in life that you forget about God its tough but force yourself to do your devotions and you will realize you love them ...play some music alone in your room get down on the ground and just praize God ....go to youth group and church and pay attention to what is being said ...have bible studies with your friends tell God you want your life to be totally about him.. pray all the time..... form your scedule aroung God not God around you scedule ...... the road of being a christian can be tough and theres gonna be speed bumps along the way but when you get back to God the warm embrace is great ...shed your life of less important things and make God your main prioraty :)..God is good :)
-renie
You Are Not An Accident
You are who you are for a reason.
You are part of a specific plan.
You are a perfect and beautifyl desing, callsed Special Woman/Men of God.
You look the way you do for a reason. Our God did not encounter any mistakes. He formed you inside you mother's wound. You are excatly whom He intended to make. Your parents were the ones He intended for you. No matter how you feel about it. They were created uder God's plan and bear the Seal of the Master.
The truma that you faced was not easy. And God cried with you because of how much it hurt: but it was allowed to form your heart so that you could grow in His likeness. You are who you are for a reason. The master's hands formed you you arew who you are
A PEARL OF GREAT VALUE 
God is amazing live for him !......on friday night there was a lan party at my church (lozers and nerds party ha its a big video game overnighter haha :)) it was so awsome at one point me and two other girls had an amazing conversation about God and life with him....most of the conversation was about guys and about how dating at this age is stupid because your supossed to be dating for marage... we talked about how dating guys who arnt christians is completely stupid and no your not gonna be able to change them just stay friends with them they will just end up hurting you ...buffalos and sheep do not yoke together ! ....a big thing that is hard uis to stay just freinds with guys or not to lead them on because alot of the time girls are big flirts and my advise is to do what you do with guys in groups and to do the same things with girls if your gonna joke aroung hitting a guy do it to a girl in front of him to because then he wont think of it as flirting because you do it withsomeone else too .... we talked about the power of prayr and how important it is to stay in constant prayr and to keep praying for the same things to God will eventully answer your prayrs praying is a great way to strengthen your realationship with him so pray alot live for God ...we talked about how important it is to have strong realationships with christian girls have a girl who can hold you acountable! strengthen your realationships with your girls pray with them talk about God its so important to share your expiriance so they can learn from your mastakes and you can learn from theres strengthen your christian realationships expeshally with girls(if your a girl ha ha by the way this is for girls haha ) guys are so different then girls and if you confind in them you might start liking them more then freinds .....one last really important thing that we talked about is how important it is to act like a christian as an example to others dont cuss because its a bad example it shows people that christians are hypocrits when really its just that noone is perfect dont wear reaviling clothes dont flirt all the time dont be mean ...yes we all make mistakes but try to be a greeat example to others try to make others want what you have be happy for God really live like jesus would and did ...wwjd? haha well i love you all and i hope you got something from this blogg thanks for listining it really was an amazing converasatoion we also talked about parents and how hard it is to live with them but try to reapect there wishes and pray for help and pray that God would help them not be so hard on you too ..live for god praize him with all you do pray .....God really is good :) we ended our conversation with prayer holding hands it was so powerfull God really worked through that canversation...GOd is amazing
:)
-renie :)
Ok. Well i guess i'll show my poet side here seeing as i have shown it everywhere else online. This was written tonight and kind of inspired by a mix of things, mainly Chris Ledoux, Dwight Yokam, and overall just everything that is me providing the material. Also i will clarify a reference made in this so yall understand i dip beef jerky and nothing else and yes i know it's not the most pleasant thing but i figure it's better the tobacco. Not to mention it makes the best food on the planet more convienient to eat and it lasts longer. lol.
The Man I Am
The man I am is what I have become
I have watched so many hopes and dreams come undone.
They have come undone like a semi on the run down a cold mountain side long before the warmth of spring had come.
I guess you could say it's like a snowball rolling down hill bound for hell it gets to the point which way life goes you can never tell.
I have seen a lot and been through more mental scrapes and scuffles then I can count
Only to wonder for what price or amount.
What I am has driven me to what I do and the life I hold and view.
I'm a country boy through and through, old order conservative like my family before me, proud of who I am and what I come from, I come from a line of working folk, truck drivers, construction workers, machinist, bus drivers, house painters, farmers, loggers, bible believers, and everything in between and it is what me.
Those very things have made me the man I am, they have made me the man who wants to drive truck, the man who wants to drive the nail, the man who wants to work for what I have and never give up an ounce of the moral I have.
It's made me want to do things that most think are nuts, it makes me want to drive a beat up ford, live in the sticks, dip beef jerky from a can, where logging boots and overall just be who I am. So as it can be seen as it can be told I am what I am yall can take me as I am or leave me there to stand.
No matter what it is I'll stand on like a rock remembering what it is that many have forgot. I'll remember those who have fallen before me and in the end what has made me the man I am will never be forgotten.
This is the man I am and I guess I been this way since my time on earth began.
So there you go yall let me know what you think.
Ranger97
Dan
there goes that feeling again i can feel it rise up like a lion waiting to attack its prey when its
least exspecting it.. its cold i'm numb this is how i feel when i feel like there no point in change because change has come and go so many time in my life i wonder now who i'm really am.. they say that the things that hurt u and the things you go threw it makes you strong so tell me why i feel like this why when my little bit happiness i get its destoryed and tell me why its so hard to do what is right but so easy to do what is wrong ? I know why i'm here but someone anyone can you hear me i just need someone to talk to i know jesus you there but send an angel lord i need some one to show they care...at least someone who can understand.Feeling the cool touch of snow flurrys melt on my face i
open my eyes realizing all the word i said only god could hear and so careful to speak about the things that toy with my mind i dont think anyone can hold the concept of the reason why i'm this way but it dates back to the time when i was just turn the big one , two and the man in my life the person who taught me to never let anyone push you around the one who said standup for what you belive the guy he taught me how to have respect for my body and never let no one stop me from being who i am inside and out ...my brother i can remeber it so clearly everything around me moved so slowly like i was in a bubble and just sitting there watching my brother lifeless body stretch out on the sand.
i gasp and just look and watch the races lifegard look down at him as the other pump his chest i knew it was no use because his neck was turn to the side and sand from the bottom of the beach was spewing out of his mouth. the 1st thing i wanted was to grab him and say wake up big bro wake up ... the second was to take it out on the races life gard..but i knew doing it would not make me feel better and knowing calling my brother was a waste of time ..the 1st time i seen a love one go in front of me the 1st time adapting to it and the heart ach of wanting someone to fill the void of him not being here but knowing no one could....i guess you can say this the 1st time i live and there only one time ill die and there only 20% out of 110 % wake up in life any finally realize there eyes were never really open untill you lose something or u gain something you never had and you lose it and now you see what its like when its not there now you start to view the world ever so diffrent...
well my eyes were open that day and when i turn 13 i finally realize how peaceful it feel to rest on the pourch at 5 in da moring watching the sun come up finally relizing how beautiful the flowers were out side my gate and then just gasping at the beauty of gods creationthe earth how many wonders there are it make me lean back chill put down my selffish thoughts and say lord thank you for a new day to live to breath because i never know when its my time just like my bro and ill never can say i injoyed life because i let the littlest things stress me i wanna be able to sit back and breath and say live my life no matter how much hurt thats inside of me though no one may listen god i know you understand can you hear me god? can you hear me..? as i open my eyes looking up at the sun i smile because i knew there are brighter day to come and this time knowing i was alone but i know he heard wat i said sometime its better to have god as ya best friend.. my name is grace and im 18 this is who i am a lady in always a world of change but never will i ever change what made wat i am today... a FIGHTER
In our country mostly if you're a christian parents would always reject their kids having relationships with muslims. I for one am one of them so when I was younger I promised my self that I would only have relationships with christians, not because I don't like muslims,if you asked me I don't have problems towards them but its just for the sake of pleasing my parents. But then now,guess what? I totally ate what I said. For the first time ever, for all of my life I finally found the first guy whom have sparked my whole heart out, whom I totally...yes am IN LOVE with. He's the only guy who has made feel this way. Before I even got into this so-called realtionship we're having, I sort of asked God for signs whom he wants me to be my first. Every sign I asked,I've noticed is there with him. I even had goosebumps when on and on every sign just started popping out. He knows for sure that my parents don't like muslims but we still continued what we had despite of it and just managed to keep it as our secret in some points. As time passed by we were really happy of everything that we're getting to. He would always follow me wherever I go and just be happy with each others' company. But suddenly for the passed few days he just stopped doing that. One of my friends confronted him and asked why then he told her and me everything. I fetl bad because if my friend didn't asked him yet I wouldn't know what was going on because he wouldn't even come to me and just say it!!...His family found out about us...and his mother kind a doesn't want to continue our relationship because of the "christian-muslim issue" he told me that I should confront my mother and tell her everything about us, I told him that I would but until now I'm so darn afraid that my mother will reject it and tell me to stop seeing him ever again.....and I really really at the top my lungs through thick and thin don't want that to happen to us....That's why now I'm really asking God to help me with this hoping that my parents would approve our relationship...can anyone relate and give my advices..huhuhu
Hi there,
Ive been on holidays for the past week.. I had to stay with a friend, because I thought I got kicked out, and by that I mean.. I was sure that I did but my mum forgot she had actually kicked me out... so I guess I just assumed she meant it? I dont know :S At least it's all over now.
In my last post I talked about how I let little things make me mad, and that the house I live in is like a house without God. I have been praying lately about these things, not as much as I should, but my prayers have been answered!!
I asked God to help me remain calm in the times that i'd usually get really fired up, and I haven't even been close to losing my cool. I can literally feel all the anger (that I left bottled up, ready to explode) gone!
Even when my mum was yelling at me, cussing and so forth.. I didn't even get the slightest bit mad.
I just think its amazing, that He has helped me become as peaceful as I was a year ago.
I have a question though, and i'm ashamed to admit I haven't finished reading the bible so I don't know the answer to this, but in Leviticus 11:7 it states : "And the pig may not be eaten, for though it has split hooves, it does not chew the cud."
as well as in Deutetonomy 14:8 "And the pig may not be eaten, for though it has split hooves, it does not chew the cud. All these animals are ceremonially unclean for you. You may not eat or even touch the dead bodies of such animals"
My bible is one that I can read easily (its a study bible)..
Does it say anywhere else in the bible that we can eat pig? because i love hamburgers, and bacon lol :) please let me know
I walk in the gray colored room seeing only the shadow of a man I knew but still his name seem to be on the tip of my tongue but never did it escape my lips. though it was dark I could still see his brown mahogany skin .I was curious of how I got here I still didn't motion towards his 6/2 frame instead I close my eyes thinking that this was just a dream..all I remember was me closing my eyes and trying to get rid of the emotion of feeling like no one could understand being so young with a sickness like me I'm 18 and still I feel alone, I thank god everyday I breath cuz one day I think I will always be trap in my dream of me on the floor trying to get up but barely making it on my feet...I open my eyes and notice that the man has move closer to me he extend his hand and I know in my mind I rather turn away but its like the power he held made me weak I let my hand out and feeling a sharp pain in my stomach as he grasp on to my hand with one pull he spin me around and threw his arms around me holding me from behind he held on to me like he was the one who needed me.. I wonder did he knew I was the person who needed someone who could see I needed someone to heal me from all the hurt I been threw I wonder could any one see. He held on to me tighter not letting go I start to feel faint, dizzy,...wha..what is happening to me.. it feels like I'm loosen focus and now its hard to think..it feel..like he is draining all my energy someone help, help me!!.....what my lips their not moving I notice I was speaking inside my head instead of out loud why, why couldn't I make a sound ?I'm condemn myself again regretting taken his hand , regretting ending up here but still I know this is not where I belong soon it will be over..soon ill be home..once I motion to move his grip gets tighter and I'm turning pale unable to breath.. I manage to look in this mirror I didn't know that was apart of the wall.. I seen my reflection but notice this man had no reflection like he was never there.. the man notice I knew he got weaker looking down at me trying to make me look into his eyes but instead I kept my eyes on the mirror before I knew I speak... and I said your not real your just something that knows my weakness yeah this is how its killing me soon I woke up in a hospital laying down with my mom sobbing next's to me.. she took one look at me and hug me she said your awake I look at here and smile and said he was so strong but I know who he is and he know me he like to feed off of my weakness...this weakness inside of me . my mom look at me and said who are you talking about ..I smile and reply his real name is diabetes , but he is know as the man with no reflection . My immortal enemy
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Hi my name is Ana Ruth , My dad is a pastor. I live in Costa Rica . I truly want to live for Jesus, but sometimes It\'s so difficult I can\'t convince people , I really want to make a difference , but some people don\'t listen!!
When people turn to God their lives change... I don\'t like what\'s going on lately , and I don\'t like adults who lose their faith ;/
hey! what up?? funny to say on my blog but.. lol.im sitting here eating chicken nuggets with spicy mustard. my mom is driving my bro to work. well they say its work. its training in my opion. he's gonna be a lifegaurd 4 an indore water park. i hope we get discounts. in half fish. [not in reality!] i once spent 7 hours in a pool! so much fun. i lik ebeing tan but i CAN NOT jsut lie there in the sun. its borning! i hav eno idea how other girls do it! i jsut stay outside and well, it happens nauteraly! lol. im depressed. [im exaderating here] my bff and i go to camp each summer and i luv it soo muuch! im just thinking bout it and i really want to be there with her right now. well im gonna go check if anyone posted on another site. l8tr dudes and dudets. p.s. dudets is horrid. dudes sounds so much better! why do guys get all the good things in life? jk!
I really like this song because he talks about how God's amazing grace is evident in our lives God Bless!
Undeniable
It's undeniable how brilliant you are
In an unreliable world you shine like a star
It's unforgettable now that we've come this far
It's unmistakable that you're undeniable
February 5th, Friday morning, purple dawn,
Broke a yawn, as I stepped through the fog, like I stepped to a song
A moment like a poem, you wish you could hold it
I shut my eyes like it's frozen, it's gone when I open
It slipped past the clouds right there where it lingered
Like your band and a girl could slip through your fingers
My feet hit the ground like a beat for the lonely
On a path beaten down by the crowds in the morning
If only I could touch past the phony
If only they were there now to hold me
As the questions keep droning
You're the only one who stuck it out last night
The only other one who caught the other line
You're the only one when this world collides
The one that I can't deny
It's my last year here
My first class moved to portable 'A'
Under construction since summer
And it's cold today
I can see my breath, and what's left of the west parking lot
And all the spaces that we fought
And it all seems forgotten, left in the bottom
In past piles of rubble, in puddles of rain water
That hurt last night when I left like that
When I won't come back
Speaking my peace to the past
I can't help but wonder. who is this wind at my back
A whisper to walk on, come on from all that
You're the only one who stuck it out last night
The only other one who caught the other line
You're the only one when this world collides
The one that I can't deny
How am I gonna take it away in this winter wind
You found me on a summer breeze
How am I gonna run away when the autumn breaks
Now that you gound me in the spring
Come on and sing it out
Well...have you al ever heard of "bleaching". It's when person of color (usually women) put these creams and such on their faces to alter the pigmentation of their skin...to be white. Now color never phased me...i see no shade of color only grey I'M BLACK TO THE WORLD, but no shade at all in God's eyes. God made us all but some black women don't feel that their beautiful thats why i love this poem. Diversity is beauty!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
IS IT A DISEASE?
WELL, IF IT IS,I SURE HOPE IT'S CATCHING
BECAUSE THEY NEED TO POUR IT INTO A BOTTLE,
LABEL IT, AND SPRINKLE IT
ALL OVER THE PEOPLE~ MEN AND WOMEN~WHO
EVER LOVED OR CRIED, WORKED OR DIED
FOR ANY ONE OF US.
SO...WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
IS IT A CRIME? ARREST ME! BECAUSE I'M STRONG, BUT I'M GENTLE.
I'M SMART,BUT I'M LEARNING, I'M LOVING, BUT I'M HATEFUL.
AND I LIKE TO WORK BECAUSE I LIKE TO EAT AND FEED AND CLOTHE
AND HOUSE ME, MINE, AND YOURS AND EVERYBODYS,
LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST
300 YEARS.
WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
IS IT INSANE? COMMITT ME!
BECAUSE I WANT THE HAPPINESS,
NOT TEARS; TRUTHS, NOT
LIES; PLEASURE NOT PAIN;
SUNSHINE, NOT RAIN;
A MAN, NOT A CHILD!
WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
IS IT A SIN? PRAY FOR ME! AND PRAY FOR YOU TOO, IF YOU DON'T LIKE WOMEN OF COLOR BECAUSE WE ARE... MIDNIGHT BLACK, CHESTNUT BROWN, HONEY BRONZED, CHOCOLATE COVERED, COCOA DIPPED, BIGGED LIPPED, BIG HIPPED, BIG BREASTED, AND BEAUTIFUL ALL AT THE SAME TIME! SO...WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
DOES IT BOTHER YOU THAT MUCH BECAUSE
I WANT A MAN WHO WANTS ME...LOVES ME AND TRUSTS ME, AND RESPECTS ME
AND GIVES ME EVERYTHING BECAUSE I
GIVE HIM EVERYTHING BACK, PLUS!
WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
I'VE GOT RIGHTS, SAME AS YOU!
I HAVE WORKED FOR THEM, DIED FOR THEM, LIED FOR THEM, PLAYED AND LAID
FOR THEM, ON EVERY PLANTATION FROM ALABAMA TO BOSTON AND BACK!
WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
I LOVE ME, AND I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME TOO, BUT I AM, AS I'VE ALWAYS
BEEN, NEAR YOU, CLOSE TO YOU, BESIDE YOU, STRONG, GIVING, LOVING,
FOR OVER 300 YEARS,
YOUR BLACK WOMAN... LOVE ME!
AUTHOR UNKNOWN
Well its a long story... I was born to Carrie and Randy and i was daddys baby girl. They were doin drugs and not doin good in life so i was adopted by Jenni and Jeff. It was supposed to be an open adoption but haha it was closed. I kept askin, "Where are my mommy and daddy?" and then 5 years later i asked if i could call and the answer was no. So i kept askin and kept askin and got no where. I cried myself to sleep EVERY night and i would say to my self, "God, if you can here me tell my daddy i love him and im here for him and i miss him and i want him to come get me..." So on spring break of 2008 i was at my aunts house and saw pictures of him for the first time in 10 years. I was like wow... thats my dad and were freaking twins! LOL. and so i said thats it im tired of this and i want my dad i need my dad i can't live with out him anymore. So as i was in the room i was all alone layin in bed just literally staring at the picture of my dad. And then i heard a voice. It was just like saying murrmuring things and then i was getting scared cuz i didn't know who it was or what it was cuz again i was all alone in this room. Then i made the murmurs out into words,"Teal, i need you, its time you give your problems to me i want you to have a relationship with me now." i started to cry and my heart was racin and my adrenilin was pumpin i cried cuz i found out who the stranger was. It was GOD. I grabbed the phone and i found my daddys number and changed my life around for the better!!!
This is about another one of my fav things to do.
It is early morning. Everyone has already gotten up and bathed in the ice cold river water. Now they are eating their fish and meat stew with cassava bread (the staple) and packing up to pay a visit to their farm-the source of nearly all their food. Once breakfast is done. the 15 hp engine boat is loaded up with cutlasses, woven bags, snacks and cassava drink and other utensils. Then pile in the boat (i get the seat next to one of my friends) and head up the river on the 1 and a half hour trip to reach the farm.
Since it is still morning the river is cold and fog still lays on the river. When we reach the farm landing we unpack everything and take it up to the base shac. Ooops! demand for the computer so gotta quit. tell the rest later.
2009-02-17 15:10:43
Ok.now im ready to continue. Where was i . . . Oh. At the outui (as the amerindians call it) we get a refreshing drink of cassava drink adn have some boiled fish on a piece of cassava bread to get our strenghth up adn then we are off. we each hoist up our woven bags to our backs and start the 8 minute treck into the bush to get to the planting area. once there, we don't get to work right away, we walk all around the recently planted area looking at how everything is doing, picking what needs to be picked, straightening what needs to be straightened, etc. then we head on another 3 min, walk to where the cassava that is ready to harvest is. this walk is much harder because it is all grown over with razergrass and other not so pleasant things including snakes. we came upon one redish brown snake and all the girls ran away screeming while the guys chopped its head off. we come across snakes all the time, yet they are still so afraid of them because alot of people die in the interior each year from snake bites.
when we get to the harvesting area, we set down our packs and get the cutlasses out. hacking our seperate ways into the bush surrounding the cassava plants. we each find our own section and beguin harvesting. You do this by first slicing the top of the 6 or 7 foot tall stem of the plant off with your cutlass about 2 feet above the ground. then you cut off all the branches off the cassava stem and lay it nearby so you can use it later. then you grasp the remaining stem still in the ground and pull in little jerks so the soil loosens and you pull up 5 or 6 cassava roots attached to the stem. these you break off and lay neatly in the bottom of your woven bag. before you move on to the next plant, you dig around a bit in the soil to see if anyof the cassava rootlets broke off when you pulled it up and tto make a little hole in the ground. into this hole you stick the stem that you cut off earlier so that the cassava can grow again from the sam e stem and then you move onto the other plants. for about 4 hours everyone is talking to eachother, chanting, singing, preaching- anything that comes to their mind as we all pull and chop and stick back into the ground.
when everyone has filled up their woven bags (called 'warishee') we call it a day and lug the full bags back to the outui. where we eat again(this time more fish and cassava drink but also bananas and mushrooms we also harvested) after this meal we load the boat once again and head home-a happy but tired group.
this is very fun for me because i love working hard for a purpose and i love to be with the amerindians that me and my parents have been mineresting to for the past 14 years.
This is not the end of the process. once the cassava gets back home there is a whole nother set of processes that the cassava root has to go through to become cassava bread of cassava drink. this i will tell about in another blog entry so stay tuned!!
2009-02-19 19:55:04
East To West
Here I am Lord and I'm drowning
In your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where you found me
And it echoes in my mind
Keeps me awake tonight
I know you've cast my sins as far
As the East is from the West
And I stand before you now
As though I've never sinned but today
I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way
Jesus can you show me
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scar[r]ed hand to the other
I start the day the war begins
Endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again
Your [T]ruth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way
Jesus can you show me
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scar[r]ed hand to the other
I know you've washed me white
Turned my darkness into light
I need your peace to get me through
To get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel
But by the truth your word reveals
I'm not holding on to you
But your holding on to me
Your holding on to me
Jesus, you know just how far
The East is from the West
I don't have to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
(The arms of your mercy I find rest)
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scar[r]ed hand to the other(x2)
(Just how far, the East is from the West) (x3)
From one scarred hand to the other
In America, we as citizens are conditioned to make us seem as though we can live and act in ways that we find entertaining but also "out of line" yet we find ourselves (not everyone per-say) looking at other countries and see them more hostile then we are. Do you find that humorous? You should. America was built on many things, not just culture or freedom with liberty and laws in which are masked to seem built by a Christian community but rather savages from Europe who've been scattering around the world during the Inquisitions. We were also built with corruption, greed, murder, lust for land and money. And if people are being taught different in a high majority, then you can see already how conditioned we the people are becoming in redefining terms such as "truthfulness" and patriotism. We continuously spot the false hope our country "so needs" to get a grip on, the false promising politicians who's job is to gain the trust from the people and to rob us from our Constitutional Rights and our tax dollars we've worked so hard to receive. And what is their reply on that? "Now that's a hard working American and be proud to work that hard for this great nation that you stand in!" Is that something a patriot would say? No, sadly they would stand up and say that something is wrong with this country if we need to have 2 or more jobs to support a small family or even yourselves. Is our new president Obama going to help us? Not a chance.Â
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Why would I say that our new coming president wouldnt do such a thing? Because he too was conditioned, but in ways that you and I would have spotted as Christians to be so anti-Biblical and raised to act the same as Bush, Clinton, Reagan, Nixon, etc.. What a great time to live in ey? You can see on the news when president is elected that people are crying and smiling with a red face and is so thrilled to have a new president coming to office and the "idiot/lying/monsterous" president left it. But guess what, that was the same sense of trust people got in Bush after Clinton. Same thing Clinton got after Bush Sr. On and on and on to the past, notice anything? The last president who was willing to actually step his foot down and say that he will make a change got his brains blown out in the back seat of the vehicle in Dallas Texas in November, 1963. After that, Carter would've been something but he wasnt able to do jack because they wouldnt let him.  Now can you look at this country today and say it has changed for the better since 1963? Even if you werent alive back then, do you have that sense of knowledge, noticing the presidents' speeches and the reactions from the citizens who applaud for them? Things havent changed, maybe in sifisticated ways, but what is that when taking out the "puffness" to it? Nothing. We still have economic problems, still have dirty officials writting the Bills and vetoing the Bills and saying what is legal and what is illegal for us to view and to think with. Not to mention the constant word that is used to keep us on the edge of our seats and the parents talking about it in many homes thinking that if America isnt going to shape up to what the government said it should stand for, than we are doomed for Liberty and Justice for All.Â
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What word is that? TERRORISM. Remember, if you's can, 9/11 was the time of complete chaos over feeling safe and depending on our nation to shake off our smiles and turn on our mourning drives and somehow grab us by our gut and release the anger. You probably noticed the stories on the news about Bin Laden and Al Quada and Korean officials and Iran and Israel, right? And the funny thing about Israel, people claim they are our enemies, when Israelites are of God's people. America is trying to clean them out like other nations. Yet God has in store, a way to prove us wrong on how strong and brave and righteous we are, which we are really not. Notice how fast they were able not to only find out "who was involved" but also their whole background "as they claimed".. How? Same with how they were able to find Oswald to be the killer so fast. You'd surely reply with "Well, that's how good our officials are in finding folks." Than how can the CIA, our government officials, couldnt find Bin Laden "hiding" (But found Hussein) for months and months and yet some idiots with cameras for a news publication found him and interviewed him? That's really funny, I dont know whether to laugh or to just feel sorry for those who buy those false media stories.Â
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I can say with confidence, our nation is and wasnt and never will be a Christian nation. And if you think different, what does the Bible teach? Spiritual wickedness in high places... After Kennedy, a devoted Catholic disgraced the Vatican from allowing the Jesuits to move in more harshly in America towards public schools, univiersites, news broadcastings, Congress, etc....He was assassinated. Now after that, they wouldnt let anyone of that much promise and hope for the people to take place in office the way it should've been ran. It's a fail-safe plan. Like a member of the Illuminati stated: "It doesnt matter who the people vote for, they always vote for us." Kennedy's plan was to keep Church and State seperated from one another, which allows the Vatican officials and any religious organization to not have the ability to fill in gaps or persuade the government to act under their laws as well as the Constitutional Laws. Not to mention the CIA to fall and keeping us away from Cuba and Vietnam and others. Guess what, he lost the battle and now we are in a pagan nation (Always has been) that is now drowning the Christian community the same way it was being effective in Europe before the Inquisitions that lasted over 600 years of slaughter and torture of Christians and Jews because they refused to let go of the Scriptures and allow the Church to rule them over. Imagine how America will follow as planned? Rome is the empire rebuilding for its power like how it was during the era of the Iron Shin...an empire as TOUGH AS IRON! An empire destined to build itself all over the world with laws and governments. Greeks did so in spirituality and philosophical views, and failed when they turned to foolishness without a savior. Babylon with culture and riches, and Medeo-Persia with War and lust to conquer all. It is a non-stop act to control the world with multiple New World Orders.Â
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What's God's plan on that? God will create a kingdom that will overthrow Rome and leave all evidence of empires in the dust and to have one last empire alive, which is the Kingdom of God. So for America, we wont last....This "great nation" that they claim to be one, will always do what history shows us...It will rise, it will show hope, it will destroy faith and will collapse with nothing left but historical evidence that it once existed. Will America be gone by the time of Revelation? Will it be considered a nation that may be partakers in the Book of Revelation? Cant say... But all in all, patriotism is as falsifying in hope and filled with pride that Americans just cant help to turn away from and yet look towards it yet again when things start rattling less. Your choice in faith, not action nor power. God gave us faith and power from the mouth. Dont kid yourselves to think we can shape such a nation that is under another nation's law that requires our enslavement and our judgement from Scripture to be mocked and taken ungodly.Â
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I would write more, but I'll stop here. More blogs will come soon. God Bless! 8)
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A book I recommend to read is:Â Clark Butterfield's "Night Journey From Rome to New Jerusalem"Â Also named "Night Journey From Rome".
Often times people think they can be Christian and still do everything that goes against every law God laid down and be ok. They are right. They will be ok, but they will never be any better than that! Others ask how they can avoid being this way. Some are good people, but they are too lazy or unwilling to read and study the Bible and pray everyday. They too ask how to avoid this. The only way is to 1. repent 2. start reading and studying the Bible. This is where people get stuck. They don't know where to start. Some get devotionals and others have plans of how much they will read a day (like me). I read 2 Old Testament, 1 Psalm and 1 New Testament a day 30 min. max. Others have different portions and it is usually planned to get through the Bible in a year. In order to know God you have to spend time with God. End of story! No other way to do it! Some say they don't understand the Bible. Then get more than one translation. I personally like the Holaman Christian Standard Bible. An easy read is the New Living Translation though it's not so accurate. The most common is the New International Verson. Just pick up a translation, read it and if it doesn't make sense get a different translation or ask your pastor or youth pastor for help!
I was sitting on my porch listening to my music when out of now where I see a cloud. I mean the whole sky was full of clouds
but this one really caught my eye. At first It looked like a fluffy pillow but then it turned into a hand. It got me thinking about
the hands of God and how they will always be there for you to fall in or for you to hold onto. Its just beautiful how he would always be
there reaching out his hands, how they will never go away even when you want them to. He will never fail me and will always be there
even though I have failed him so many times.
God Bless you!
-GodisLuv
Hey, God told me last night to tell all of you that we need to all go and tell poeple about Jesus. for more you can email me
He is jealous for me,
love's like a hurricane, I am a tree
bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory.
And I realize just how beautiful you are
and how great your affections are for me.
Oh, how he loves us so
Oh how he loves us, how he loves us all.
Yeah he loves us, oh how he loves us
Oh how he loves us, oh how he loves us.
We are his portion and he is our prize,
drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes
if grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
and my heart turns violently inside my chest.
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
when I think about the way...
that he loves us, oh how he loves us
Oh how he loves us, oh how he loves us.
He loves us, oh how he loves us
Oh how he loves us, oh how he loves us.
I am sitting here before school in my own secluded place just in awe of the way God is good to me. How God is good to me and it is
mind boggling! I dont know what to do sometimes! School is a big part of my life you could say, It\'s like my job, As I sit here and watch
people walk, some with smiles on their faces, some with serious facil expression, some with curiosity in thier eyes, some with
observation in their eyes read to learn, some that look straight ahead when they walk past me, and some with ipods in thier ears, some
that look at me and then look away, some that look at me and then smile. I then sit here and process everything that I see and apply
It to my own life, What am I showing to people when they look at me, do they see somthing that they would want to be friends with,
or something that they dont really care for ( my personality)! Under the exterior of my expression do I wanna know this..... Do they
see Jesus! When I take my bible to lunch do they see another religion, or do they Jesus! Do they see something so attractive that
they want to find out what it is and except Jesus Christ into their lives. I somtimes dont know what to do because turns out I do mess
up, sometimes I dont get it right. I want to change though, I know I am not perfect, but I know that God dwells within me and his
holding my hand, he has his hand over me. It says in Psalms 139 (Please read!) 23 verse Search me, O God, know my heart: try me,
and know my thoughts:! So david is asking God to do that but if you read the first verse of Psalm 139 David says. O Lord, thou hast
Searched me, and known me. Meaning that the way to show Jesus in your heart for other people to see is you have to be willing, to
take a look in your own heart and to check yourself. Costantly ask God for his covering! God is too good for us not to show, what he is
like! Well the bell just rang! 7:20am 5 min. to get to class! I have really just found a new love that I feel like I could never repay
back. I digress. God bless you and your journey to finding God\'s love a love to never let go of!
Godisluv!
"My Child....
You may not know me, but I know everything about you. I know when you sit down and when you rise up. I am familiar with all your ways. Even the hairs on your head are numbered. For you were made in my image. In me you live and move and have your being. For you are my offspring. I knew you even before you were conceived. I chose you when I planned creation. You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. I knit you together in your mother's womb, and brought you forth on the day you were born. I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. And it is my desire to lavish that love on you, simply because you are my child, and I am your Father. I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. For I am the perfect Father. Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. My plan for your future has always been filled with hope, because I love you with an everlasting love. My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. And I rejoice over you with singing. I will never stop doing good to you. For you are my treasured possession. I desire to establish you with all my heart and my soul. And I want to show you great and marvelous things. If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart, for it is I who gave you those desires. I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. For I am your greatest encourager. I am also the Father to who comforts you in all your troubles. When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. And I will take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. I am you Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. He is the exact representation of my being. He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. If you receive the gift of my son, Jesus, you receive me. Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. I have always been Father and will always be Father. My question is....will you be my child? I am waiting for you.
Love, you Dad
Almighty God."
“Culture is good, genius is brilliant,
civilization is a blessing, education is a great privilege; but we may be
educated villains. The thing that we want most of all is the precious gift of
the Holy Ghost.” ~ John Hall
Matthew 3:16-17 “As soon as Jesus was baptized, he went up out of the water. At that moment heaven was opened, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and lighting on him. And a voice from heaven said, ‘This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.”
God sent the Holy Spirit down to us because Jesus was not going to be there forever. God sent us the Holy Spirit so that we will have the power of God within us and to give us the wisdom and knowledge that we need to spread his word. God says in Luke 11:9-13 that if you are obedient to God and do his will and live for him that you will be blessed. He also says that if it is the way of God that anything you ask you will receive and anything you seek you will find. In John 14:26 God says that the Holy Spirit is there to remind us of what Jesus has taught us. When the Holy Spirit enters you though your life should change and you will start to think about everything in the point of view of “Is this glorifying God?” I like Francis Chan’s analogy in his book Forgotten God – “For all its caterpillar life, it crawls around a small patch of dirt and up and down a few plants. Then one day it takes a nap. A long nap. And then, what in the world must go through its head when it wakes up to discover it can fly? What happened to its dirty, plump little worm body? What does it think when it sees its tiny new body and gorgeous wings? As believers, we ought to experience this same kind of astonishment when the Holy Spirit enters our bodies.”
We will see a change in us and other people shall to when the Holy Spirit comes into us. We will begin to think of things differently and think of God more.
The Holy Spirit gives us different gifts of God so that we may spread his word. As it says in 1Corinthians 12:8-11 not everyone has the same gift but you will use the gift for God and spreading His word. We must tell everyone about the gifts we receive from the Holy Spirit and God because in my research I have found some scary statistics.
"In a representative nationwide survey among born again adults, none of the individuals interviewed said that the single, most important goal in their life is to be a committed follower of Jesus Christ."
Although 2/3 of all teenagers say they know all the basic teachings... of the Christian faith, 2/3 reject the existence of Satan, 3/5 reject the existence of the Holy Spirit, and 1/2 believe that Jesus sinned....
We need to reach out to people and spread the word. The Holy Spirit can work in awesome ways and nothing is impossible. This video I found shows the work of God and the Holy Spirit giving the courage and power to do great things for them.
http://media.causes.com/324247?p_id=116595580
Are you filled with the Holy Spirit?
Im bored in comp class but jesus freak is making it a little bit more interesting <3
What to say Lord? It's you who gave me life and I
can't explain just how much you mean to me now.
That you have saved me Lord, I give all that I am to you
that everyday I can be a light that shines your name.
Everyday, it's you I live for.
Everyday, I'll follow after you.
Everyday, I'll walk with you, my Lord.
Everyday Lord, I'll learn to stand upon your word
and I pray that I might come to know you more.
That you would guide me in every single step I take
that everyday I can be your light unto the world.
Everyday, it's you I live for.
Everyday, I'll follow after you.
Everyday, I'll walk with you my Lord.
It's you I live for everyday.
It's you I live for everyday.
It's you I live for everyday.
It's you I live for everyday.
Everyday, it's you I live for.
Everyday, I'll follow after you.
Everyday, I'll walk with you my Lord.
what are some problems in your life or things you don't understand i am looking for ideas for my next blog post?
Be Thou my vision O Lord of my heart
naught be all else to me save that Thou art.
Thou my best thought by day or by night,
waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my wisdom, and Thou my true word
I ever with Thee and Thou with me Lord.
Thou my great Father, and I Thy true son,
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.
Be Thou my battle, my shield, sword, my fight
be Thou my diginity, Thou my delight.
Thou my soul's shelter, Thou my high tower,
raise Thou me heavenward, O power of high power.
Riches I need not, nor man's empty praise
Thou mine inheritance, now and always.
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my treasure Thou art.
High King of Heaven, my victory won
my I reach Heaven's joys, O bright Heaven's sun.
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
still be my vision, O Ruler of all.
Are you scared of the dark?
Are you afraid they'll break your heart?
Are you afraid you'll lose yourself?
Are you afraid for your own health?
Are you scared to lose?
Are you afraid to choose?
Are you afraid you'll win?
Are you afraid of your own sin?
Are you scared to forgive?
Are you afraid to live?
Are you afraid to die?
Do you think you've told a lie?
To live
when you think you're dying,
to laugh
when you feel like crying.
To stand
when you think you're gonna fall,
it's only fear after all.
It's only fear after all.
Are you afraid to be alone?
Are you scared to pick up the phone?
Are you scared of the past?
Do you think that you might crash?
Do you think you're in too deep?
Are you afraid to sleep?
Are you scared there's no stability?
Are you afraid of your own fragility?
To mend
when you think you're breaking,
to strength
when you know you're shaking.
To pray
when your back's against the wall,
it's only fear after all.
It's only fear after all.
To live
when you think you're dying,
to laugh
when you feel like crying.
To stand
when you think you're gonna fall,
it's only fear after all.
It's only fear after all.
The only fear is fear itself.
The only fear is fear itself.
The only fear is fear itself.
The only fear is fear itself.
Numbers 30:2 “A man who makes a vow to the Lord or makes a pledge under oath must never break it. He must do exactly what he said he would do.”
Joshua 21:45 “Not one of all the Lord’s good promises to the house of the Israel failed; every one was fulfilled.
1 Kings 8:56 “Praise the Lord, who has given rest to his people Israel just as he promised. Not one word has failed of all the good promises he gave through his servant Moses.
2 Corinthians 7:1 “Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God.
Throughout the whole bible it talks about Gods promises. At the same time it talks about how he fulfills EVERY promise he makes to his people. Some people may say no he doesn’t he hasn’t taken care of me in some sort of way if its some illness or personal promise it doesn’t always get answered your way. That is where I think most people go wrong they think if it doesn’t go there way God didn’t answer it. NEWS FLASH! He picks and chooses what is good for you and what would best help you grow in him. We are to be like God so shouldn’t we fulfill all our promises? We make promises all throughout our life. Sometimes we may make them everyday and we don’t know it. Since God promised us all this stuff shouldn’t we worship him and be holy for him. We can not make a promise as big as he has made us. He has promised us eternal life with him if we live our life for him and accept him. He promises us so much and we can’t even keep a simple promise to people we come in contact with everyday. The bigger picture we can’t do it to some one who has promised us eternal life. How many promises have you kept?
HEy soo.. like you may know.. about my prayer request.
its not really looking good. at all. And honestly I'm scared for my friend and his mom. This kind of cancer, detected at this late of a stage, the % of surviving this is very slim! pray, pray, pray!
How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Lading you down into my core,
where I've become so numb.
Without a soul, my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold,
until you find it there and lead it back home.
Wake me up inside, wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark.
Bid my blood to run, before I come undone
save me from the nothing I've become.
Now that I know what I'm without,
you can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real, bring me to life.
Wake me up inside, wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark.
Bid my blood to run, before I come undone
save me from the nothing I've become.
Bring me to life, I've been living a lie
there's nothing left inside, bring me to life.
Frozen inside without your touch, without your love,
only you are the life among the dead.
All of this sight, I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark, but you were right in front of me.
I've been sleeping for 1000 years it seems
I've got to open my eyes to everything.
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
don't let me die here, there must be more, bring me to life.
® Psalms 103:8-10 “The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever; he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.”
® Proverbs 15:18 “A hot tempered man stirs up dissension, but a patient man calms a quarrel.”
® Joel 2:13 “Rend your heart and not your garments. Return to the Lord you God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity.”
® Nahum 1:3 “The Lord is slow to anger and great in power; the Lord will not leave the guilty unpunished. His way is in the whirlwind and the storm, and clouds are the dust of the feet.”
® James 1:19-20 “My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry, for man’s anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.”
® 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.”
® Ephesians 4:31-32 “Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”
God does not want us to be angry. You can take that in different ways its not always actions that determine if you are angry. It says in Ephesians that any kind of anger you should get rid of. Anger can be angry thoughts, actions, or words that you use. In Matthew 5:44 it says, “…love your enemy and pray for those who persecute you.” It also says in the bible that love is not easily angered. Aren’t we supposed to love God to? Why do we get angry at him when things don’t go our way? If you step back and think about all the times you got angry you don’t really see that it helped the situation or made things better. I bet you most of the time it made it worse. We are to be like God in everything we do. Nahum states, “The Lord is slow to anger and great in power…” so we should be slow to anger to. I know that we all mess up and we are not perfect but still should we just shrug it off like its nothing? NO! We are to grow from our mistakes and learn not to do them again. Our life should not be about failure but it will consist of failure. Will you take the extra step to make this failure vanish and be more like God?
Find me here, speak to me
I want to feel you, I need to hear you.
You are the light that's leading me
to the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength that keeps me walking
you are the hope that keeps me trusting.
You are a light to my soul
you are my purpose.....you're everything.
How can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me, how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, you give me rest
you hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, you take my breath away
would you take me in? Take me deeper now.
How can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me, how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
you're everything, you're everything.
Yeah you're all I want, you're all I need
you're everything, everything.
Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
you're everything, everything.
And hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me.
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away,
they're washed away.
And hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me.
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away,
they're washed away.
I need help with my faith. I dont know if God is real or not,Im so desprate to find out it kills me Iread my bible to the point my eyes and head hurt im not trying to tempt the Lord at all. Im just looking for a awnser to a Question that no one has been able to awnser. im trying so hard in High scholl but Im failing I feel like nothing's working right
Hey, I'm new to ChristianTeenagers.net! I just like blogging, so I thought I'd post my first one tonight.
I'm a fairly new Christian, but I can't imagine not having Jesus in my life again. I chose to follow the Christian church because I feel most comfortable there and I understand the sermons more. I'm also familiar with the Catholic and Lutheran churches though. My mother used to take me to the Holy Cross Catholic church when I was a child, and my best friends attend a Lutheran church.
I've really been hearing God call to me my whole life, but I didn't stop ignoring Him until just recently. And now I've opened my whole heart to Him. I really try to read from my NLT Life Application Bible everyday. Sometimes I don't really understand why God did certain things the way He did, but the more I study, the more I understand.
I'm also an animal rights activist. I don't believe that animals are to be eaten, worn, tested on, or used for entertainment. I'm a strict vegetarian. I think it was God's original plan for us anyway. Genesis 1:29 reads:
And God said, "See, I have given you every herb that yeilds seed which is on the face of all the earth, and every tree whose fruit yeilds seed; to you it shall be for food."
The more I study the Bible, the more I've come to realize that God only requires animal sacrifice and eating meat after Adam and Eve commit the first sin. I don't think eating meat is a very holy lifestyle and it's certainitly not a healthy one. I'm currently working on a Bible study about vegetarianism. I'll post it on here when I'm done!
I came on this site to find some new friends who share my beliefs. I often need someone to just talk to who won't send me in the wrong direction. I'm hoping to find those kind of peers.
Hey girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts a rythm in my hands,
still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
Covered up with make-up in the mirror
tell yourself that it's never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears that he loves you.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's gonna end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
A pebble in the water makes a ripple affect
every action in this world will make a consequence.
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.
I see the way you go and you say you're right again
say you're right again, well heed my lecture.
One day she'll tell you that she has had enough,
it's coming round again.
Face down in the dirt, she says, "This doesn't hurt," she says
"I finally had enough."
Face down in the dirt, she says, "This doesn't hurt," she says
"I finally had enough."
One day she will tell you that she has had enough,
it's coming 'round again.
One day she will tell you that she has had enough,
it's coming 'round again.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's gonna end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4nckjoBALgM
HURTIN HURTING DEEP DEEP WITHIN
PRAYING GOD WILL JUST SEND ME A FRIEND
RELEASING SILENT TEARS
SCARED OF LOSING WHAT I LOVE SO REALITY TURNS INTO TO FEARS
CANT EXPLAIN MY CURRENT SITUATIONS
ONLY GOD KNOWS BECAUSE HELL BLESS ME WITH THE MOST PERFECT EXPLANATIONS
FAMILY AND FRIENDS BUT MY TRUE IDENTITY REMAINS HIDDEM
THEY ARE ALWAYS AROUND ME PROCLAIM THEY LOVE AND CARE ABOUT ME BUT ACT AS IF TRULY KNOWING ME IS FORBIDDEN
IM EXPERIENCING SOMETHING THAT HURTS ME SO DEARLY
BUT MY GOD MY ONLY FRIEND TELLS ME NOT TO BE WEARY
I IDENTIFY MYSELF DIFFERENT FROM THE ONES WHO PROCLAIM THEY'LL BE THERE UNTIL THE END
HOW CAN THEY BE THERE TO THE THE END IF THEY MISSED THE BEGINNING AND SLOWLY MISS THE MIDDLE WHICH THERE NOT EVEN IN?
SO MANY THINGS OF THIS WORLD BUT I HAVE N O THING AT ALL
PEOPLE DONT CATCH ME AS I TREMBLE THEY HELP ME FALL
IM TRYING TO HOLD ON AND REMAIN STRONG
BUT PEOPLE CONSISTENTLY KEEP DOING ME WRONG
'MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD REMINDS ME THAT FOR ME HE HAS SOMETHING IN STORE
THAT REMINDER HELP ME TO CONTINUALLY SOAR
AS I SSLOWLY BUT QUICKLY FULLY GIVE MY LIFE OVER TO CHRIST
MY TRIALS AND TRIUMPHS APPROACH ME FAST
I CRY BRING MY PROBLEMS TO MY LORD AND SAVIOR WHO SHOWS ME THEY'LL NEVER LAST
LOSING EVERYONE BECAUSE NO ONE KNOWS ME SO ITS HARD FOR THEM TO UNDERSTAND
THAT GOD LOVES ME HAS A PLACE FOR ME IN ETERNITY SO THIS ANTI-CHRIST I MUST BREAK FROM AND REFUSE TA LET STAND
IM FINALLY FREE
IM NO LONGER BLIND I CAN SEE
IM WALKING WITH MY HEAD UP HIGH
NO LONGER AM I WALKING WITH MY HEAD UP HIGH BECAUSE OF SELF PRIDE
LOR THIS FEELING IS OSO GOOD'
NO LONGER DO I HAVE TO PORTRAY THE ACT OF BEING HOOD
IT FEELS SO GREAT TO HAVE SOMEONE WHO ACCEPTS THE REAL ME
IM SPROUTING LIKE A SEED FEELING OUT LIKE A TREE
NO LONGER HAVE TA ACT BRAND NEW BECAUSE I AM BRAND NEW
IM O LONGER LOST SEARCHING FOR A CLUE
BECAUSE I HAVE GOD ON MY SIDE LEADING AND TELLING ME WHAT TO DO
IM SLOWLY TRANSFORMING TO A SLIGHTLY DIFFERENT HUMAN BEING
A HUMAN BEING WHOS WORLD REVOLVES AROUND THE LORD TO WHOM I CLING
HE BLESSED ME WITH A NEW MISSION A NEW SET OF GOALS THAT START AND END WITH HIM THE ONE UP ABOVE
MY FIRST MISSION IS TO GLORIFY HONOR AND ENJOY HIM FOREVER BUT MOST OF ALL JUST SHOW HIM LOVE
MY LAST MISSION IS TO LEAVE MY TRANSFORMATION IN HIS HANDS
JUS WATCH AS HE REVEALS ALL HIS PLANS
AS I SIT BACK AND GIVE MY LIFE TO THE ALMIGHTY SAVIOR
I APPROACH LIFE WITH A DIFFERENT BEHAVIOR
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Okay well...i checked my yahoo email today. i got this email it said "Why wait to have an affair with a married woman? FIND MARRIED WOMEN TODAY!"... what the heck? It made me think of how many people are on that website... honestly how could someone have an affair. let alone make a website so more people do it!? what is wrong with man kind... needless to say we have lost our way.
Don't give up, it's just the weight of the world
when your heart's heavy I, I will lift it for you.
Don't give up, because you want to be heard
when silence keeps you I, I will break it for you.
Everybody wants to be understood, well I can hear you.
Everybody wants to be loved, don't give up
because you are loved.
Don't give up, it's just the hurt that you hide
when you're lost inside I, I'll be there to find you.
Don't give up, because you want to burn bright
when darkness blinds you I, I will shine to guide you.
Everybody wants to be understood, well I can hear you.
Everybody wants to be loved, don't give up
because you are loved.
This is it, confidence is all I need
this is how you're going to save me from myself
from all that fails, I see you and me and everything in between
and I know I'm wrong, but you long
to fuel the fire beneath these tired bones,
as I dance this road to:
run back to you, a place of sweet escape I fell into
my everything, that always sings your glory.
Progress, I confess is way over due,
I get caught up in the things that I've held on to.
For too long I've been alone
I'm stronger every step that I take, back to you.
Run back to you, a place of sweet escape I fell into
a familiar taste that you have made
inside of this refuge I can't create.
All back to you, a place of sweet escape I fell into
your glory, yeah your glory.
Sing hallelujah, I'll forever sing to lift you up
sing hallelujah, I'll forever sing to lift you up, you are my King.
Yes Lord, you're my King.
I find myself smiling tonight. I mean really smiling and laughing. I was watching jj heller's video blogs and just listening to her
music and it really made me smile and laugh. I have been through so much to past 2 weeks. Being sold out for Jesus, our lord and
savior takes a reall toll on your faith and trust in God. I got throught it though. I learned a few lessons in the mix also. I learned not
have a high expectation. If you do that you might be let down. I think I past the test though. The joy of the lord should always
be present in your life and should shine brighter than the sun, the brightest star in the universe! It may be hard sometimes but you
have to press through. Living for God is not a walk in the park, at times it may be, but most of the time you will stuggle, but stuggling
is apart of overcoming. I also learned one the most valuable lessons about the bible. When I was let down, apart of me fell, so I
decided to sing and praise God. It helped , it helped me alot, when I was done I went to my dad and told him about it and he told me
this. " Jaque, I am glad you feel better, but there would be times where singing, and praying might not help, where what you are going
through may be so dark that you have no where to turn, but to your bible... he said " Reading the word will not only help you through
hard time it will also help you with temptation." For example, "You and your girlfriend or boyfriend have been dating for awhile and you
have strong feelings for that person, and they want to take that next step in your relationship, they have been pressuring you and
pressuring you. Just as you are about to give in you remeber in the bible it says, "Flee from forniciation." Just like that you are saved.
I just want to encourage you, and myself to read the bible as much as you can, because not only will you it help you flee from
temptation it will show you God's promise, what he says and what he is! God is love and the love of God is poured all through out the
bible. So you can go and find this love and roll around it, feel the joy and happiness you are supposed to feel from the presense of
God. By the grace of God I am able to write this! Amen
P.S. If you don't have a bible there is also bibles online you can read. The word of God is everywhere!
A Prayer:
Dear God,
I come to you with praise and exalution. I pray that you would help me and others read your word and I hope that we will recive, love
and encouragement as we read your word. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!
Green is a zealous color for a wedding, especially for a summer one. So a great choice is provided for the bride who has always puzzling in choosing the cheap bridesmaid dress when she has many maids of honor and cannot decide what color should be the most suitable for all of them.
Green is a gorgeous hue for weddings. How about a shade like moss green, grass green, or yellow-green, all lighter and less wintry than forest green? And do not think your designer bridesmaid dresses in different colors is too radical -- in fact, it's completely cool! You could put them in all different shades of green, which would be gorgeous and would make you really happy. If you want to do all different colors, just make sure you choose hues in the same tone, whether it's muted, jewel, or pastel. A rainbow of bridesmaid shades is amazing -- and if the variety suits you, that's all the more reason to do it.
Actually, more and more cheap bridesmaids' dresses in combination has progressively popular, they are either different in styles or in colors, that would be also a choice for you!
I love to sing, I love music, and I love God. If you put all those together, It does wonders. I was just thinking about christian artist,
people that go out everyday and sing about God and change people\'s lives. If I would be able to go travel around the world or just in
Texas would be an honor. I just have to get the right tools and hey i just might put a song on here! After very deep thought and much
prayer that is! Love yall Only by the grace and love of god I am able to write this!
What is your dream? What do you like to do in your spare time?
Answer back! I want to here what YOU have to say!
Tags: dreams!
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Alrighty. Here goes my first attempt at a blog. I don't even know what in the world to put on here. So I guess I'll put stuff about life's happenings. I guess... XD Just a warning. I abuse the harsh laughing smiley.
Today I went to a job shadow. I've never done one before because I really don't like going out of my comfort zone. My comfort zone is home & school. My job shadow was from 9 - noon today, so I didn't go to school. It was a job shadow for a graphic design/animation company, which is stuff I really enjoy doing. It was Seven2 Interactive. It's actually a really cool company.
I don't have my license yet, so my dad drove me over. I walked to the suite that the company was in and I was shocked. I've never seen a company like that. Their whole deal was art. Their cubicles were the strangest things. I think they were designed to look like ceiling fan wings. That's what it looked like to me. Abstract thought.
So I job shadowed the art director, a guy named Marcus. They all call each other by their first names. Extremely unprofessional, but I like the environment. There were 18 men and 2 women designers. Strange, I thought. I didn't pay much mind to it though. It was really weird when I saw this guy walk by in skinny jeans. I swear, he looked gay. He probably was. Ok, off subject!
The job shadow seemed to fly by for the most part. I got dragged into two different conferences, one with a freelance artist. It wasn't really that boring. I had to ask Marcus questions that my teacher told me to ask. Honestly, I wish Marcus was my teacher. Ms. Terri is overly cranky and she seems to have a problem with me at times. Marcus was totally cool. I know, I shouldn't judge Terri. That's just my thought of her though. I guess she's an ok teacher, even though she doesn't really do much. Public education.
For the most part, I learned more just conversing with Marcus than I did asking the questions Terri told me to ask. I actually had fun. Though it only lasted three hours. The new game that Marcus was helping create was Penguins of Madagascar: Oh Snow You Didn't. It'll be coming out in Dec. Trust me, it's a pretty cool game. They'll have it on Nick.com.
The rest of my day was pretty boring. I've just been sitting around all afternoon and evening. So, that pretty much sums up my day. Until something interesting happens, see ya!
As the sun sets
I turn to you
Look deep into your eyes
And I see a glimer
Of what I myself
Am fiercly trying to hide
I look away
In hopes you didn't see
What I just say in you
But still I smile
Just a little bit
For what you let shine through
"It would never work"
I hear you say
As I turn back to your face
But there instead
Is a shining star
Set nicely in your place
On halloween night i went with a group to work at Cedar Point. I had a blast, But that was till I started heading home with my mom. When we were heading home she kinda started to smoke weed in the car i hate the smell its horrible. But my mom has kinda like smoked alot in front of me but i didnt mind then when all of a sudden she started to smoke in front of me and that bothered me alot.
She made me hold her weed cause she seen a cop and she told me that there would be less of a chance for me to get searched than it would be for her to be searched. but i now realized that my mom was in the wrong and so was i i didnt that for my mom.
And then i think about it she didnt really care that if we got caught she wouldnt care if it was me. and then i think what a mom. And until this day she still denys it even though there were three other people in the car that say she did have me hold it.
My dad told the cops. is that okay did i do the right thing by telling??
HELP!!
I knew when I first met you
That it would be love
Ever since that day
You've been all im thinking of
I smile when I see you
I melt when we kiss
If we every do break up
You'll be the one I miss
I love you with all of my heart
I hope you know that
We'll never be apart
In my heart
You say you really love me
How much of that is true?
One thing I do know for sure
There is no other you
You say that I deserve more
That part I know is wrong
If it wasnt real love
It wouldnt last this long
I love you with all of my heart
I hope you know that
We'll never be apart
In my heart
I love you with all of my heart
I hope I show that
We'll never be apart
Don't break my heart
see, we had a missions conference this past week, the 11-15 [not over yet!] and our old college minister, jeremy was preaching. i kno that the great commision tells us to go out, but the way jeremy worded it was EPIC. he said its not DO i go its WHERE do i go? it might be in africa, china, ohio [his planted church, where im gion with my youth group this summer. my summer is gunna be insane!] or ur neighbor. he said God calls u according to where exactly He wants you in His will. i wonder WHERE im being called, and when ill go...
When I see your smile
tears roll down my face, I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold
and breaks through my soul
and I know I'll find deep inside me
I could be the one.
I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to Heaven.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
and I could show you that I'll be the one.
Cause you're my true love, my whole heart
please don't throw that away.
Cause I'm here for you
please don't walk away
and please tell me you'll stay.
Use me as you will,
pull my strings just for a thrill.
Cause I know I'll be okay,
though my skies are turning grey.
I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to Heaven.
Wedding is a very special and important occasion for any birde and groom and every bride wants to look great. And so does mother of the bride.
The first thing they should do is to buy a mother of the bride dress. You may feel dizzy to choose from such a large selections if surf on the Internet. When a mother of the bride browsing the endless selling pages of mother of the bride dresses, she should not only consider the appitite of her own, but also the theme of daughter's wedding. It's very important or you may feel embarrassed if wearing the wrong style.
Referring to the mother of the bride dresses, they are usually very expensive if you buy a designer style. But if you custom make from the manufacture, you will cut a big budget. What's more, Custom mother of the bride dress can fit you perfectly and flatter you. It's a method of killing two birds with one stone, isn't it?
If you order a mother of the bride dress and Custom wedding gowns together, you usually can get a discount. It's a great deal.
Many people who profess to be Christians or say they are going to heaven , are not actually Christians and are not going to go to , but to firstly know what it is to be a true Christian , we must know what it means to be saved and how we get to heaven.(Note i will be using quotes from the King James Bible which is the true unchanged Bible , i will explain why it is in a later Blog)
Ok let me first , start by saying that to uderstand what makes us go to heaven we must firstly understand what makes us go to hell.
Now let me explain since every human is a sinner (except Jesus when he was human) that means all humans deaserve to go to hell as punishment for their sins , now many say why would a all good God send people to evalasting punishment , but the truth is since he is benevolent he has a duty to punish those who sin and the price for sin is eternal damnation , also since God is infinate and when we sin , we sin against him , the price paid for our sin must be infinate and there for since our human bodies cannot pay the price for our sins, we must pay the price in hell after we die .
Here are some Bible quotes that will help you understand better:
Romans 6:23, "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
*Romans 5:12, "Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned."
2nd Thessalonians 1:8, "In flaming fire taking vengeance on them that know not God, and that obey not the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ."
Revelation 20:15, "And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire."
Revelation 21:8, "But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death."
Now since we uderstand how and why we go to hell we must understand how we get to heaven , now maney Christians and Christian denominations like catholics , think that we get to heaven by our works and what we do , but this is actually wrong as they miss the whole point to why Christ died for us .the reason Jesus died for us was that he paid the ultimate and perfect price for us that we should have paid in hell and also that it is "ONLY" by believing in him we can be saved and go to heaven.
Here are some quotes from the Bible (KJV) that might help you guys understand better:
Galastions 3:10 No man is justified by the Law in the sight of God , it is evident , for the just shall live by faith. 11 But the Law is not of Faith , but the Just shall live in them.
Ephesians 2:8 For it is by Grace , that ye saved through faith , and not of yourselves , It is a gift from God. 9 Not of Works , lest any man boast.
Romans 5:8, "But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.
John 6:40, "And this is the will of him that sent me, that every one which seeth the Son, and believeth on him, may have everlasting life: and I will raise him up at the last day."ied for us."
John 3:16, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
John 11:25, "Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live.
Acts 26:18, "To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me."
And can you see in the Bible it dosen't mention anything about getting to heaven by works but actually the opposite it says we do not get to heaven by works but just believing in Jesus Christ totally .
Many of us have seen the state of the world and seen how distorted and corrupt it has become ,with famine ,war , corruption and crime but while many of us see these things as wrong and not how God intended the world to be , but instead of doing somthing about it , we decide to acknoledge and give into the illustion of how things are , instead of trying to figure out why things arn't the way they are supposed to be .
Well have any of ever noticed how the worlds rich mostly stay rich and the poor or average like us stay have our parents working hard , for hours day after day without any improvements on our personal lives or how peoples finacial situation never seems to improve no matter how hard they work , well ill tell you why , did you know that what we are tauught is controlled , that how we live , what we hear on tv in the news or in certain entertainment is all controlled , by who you ask , well ill tell you , the illuminati , well i now most of you guys don't know who they are or have never heard of them and will be asking who are they well ill tell you , the illuminati is a secret organization that controlls most of the and manipulate almost everything that goes on in our lives , as to how they where formed ill leave that for another time , but you might as to what are their goals , well ill tell you , they seek out totall control of the world and want to impliment a new order of things , where there will be only one world Goverment , one currency , one world religion , and where everyone will eirther have to comply to them and forget about their freewill or be severly punished , this is also known as the "new world order" movement , and just to let you know part of their plan to rule the world is to eliminate or better should i say kill off 80% of the world ,they have tried this many times before for instance ,they tried it with bird flu , now they are trying it with the recent swin flue pandemic ,and also id like you to know that , that 80% includes you , me and everyone you know.
Now while many of you won't believe what im saying or think im conspirital or a conspircy theorist but i don't expect you guys to believe me actually , you guys won't be able to believe me unless you reasearch what im telling you , yourself, for instance to those of you living in the USA , look at your Doller you see the words Novous Ordo Seclorium under the eye and the pyramid , those words are latin for new order of ages , better known as the new world order , also you might want to know what the eye on the pyramid simblyizes , well ill teel you it symbolizes the omniscient eye , but the eye really dosen,t really represent the omniscient eye but actually the eye of lucifer , yes , lucifer , all highly level members of the illuminati actually worship lucifer and also every high level member of the illuminati is also a witch , and yes i did say witch but i do not mean witches as in witches and wizards of fantasy novels , no , while real life witches don't go aound shoting firebolts , but some of their spells do work and while i know most of you will be skeptical towards what im saying or think im joking around but trust me , to be a witch , it requires lots of study , but don't fooled , to be a witch would be to purposly let demons into your life , as witchcraft is satanic and the power in it comes from demonic forces but dont take my word for it , go reasearch it or ask people like John Todd , and ex witch and illuminati member , who found Christ , bug the only promblem is you can't talk to John Todd anymore as he was framed for a crime he didn't commit and then assasinated when he got out of jail , and as you can see that the illuminati ae so devoted to their goal that they won't even let their own members leave.
Anyway as i have said before i don't expect you guys to believe but advise you to do reasearch if you don't , anyway i must leave you now to your own thoughts about what i have just told , i will continue to talk about the iluminati in a later blog , but as of now i must leave.
God Bless to you all.
THIS IS TOO FAR THAT OBAMA'S STUPID HEALTH BILL SAYS THAT 1 15 Y/O IS WORTH MORE THAN 14 50+ Y/O WAT THE CRAP
idk what to do any more.. feels like god is turning his back on mii.. dont no what i believe any more.... im tired of crying blood and bleeding tears.. im sick of not being whho i am and im sick of being afraid to be who i am... god if u see this help mii.. y are u forsaken mii.. ive done nothing but read ur word and praise ur name. like mii fav song from skillet "And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault
(Chorus)How could you, how could you,
how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?
open wounds."
how could u....
ive been having these thoughts latly and when i cut i feel the urge to just move a little to the lefrt and get it over with... i dont think any one can possibly understand how could they no one nows the fell mii
no one wnats to....
so im gone...
im dead...
and im...............
Psalm 25:5 - 5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.
Psalm 31:14,15 - 14 But I trust in you, O LORD;
I say, "You are my God."15 My times are in your hands;
deliver me from my enemies
and from those who pursue me.
Psalm 37:7 - 7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.
Psalm 39:7,8 - 7 "But now, Lord, what do I look for?
My hope is in you.8 Save me from all my transgressions;
do not make me the scorn of fools.
Psalm 62:1,2 - 1 My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
Psalm 145:15,16 - 15 The eyes of all look to you,
and you give them their food at the proper time.16 You open your hand
and satisfy the desires of every living thing.
Isaiah 30:18 - 18 Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you;
he rises to show you compassion.
For the LORD is a God of justice.
Blessed are all who wait for him!
Isaiah 40:31 - 31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Habakkuk 2:3 - 3 For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay.
This is my first post ever... so this is going to be random and will have no order. Plus, my grammar kinda sucks so here we go.
Well I'm 16 and I'm korean. I'll tell you(anyone who'll ever read this) more about myself later, but my dad's a pastor. More about my chuch: my dad has been stressing the importance of the Holy Spirit. I really don't know what to say about this. But I wish I can experience the Holy Spirit more. God please give me more of the Holy Spirit. Well our church is rlly small about 30 ppl max. Mostly people in their 30s and we have about 4 youth members including me. haha. So its a mixed service of adults and youth in both korean and english... Well actually the english portion is just a summary of the sermon. A lady does the summary, but I think she adds her own little messages in it which kind of bothers me. I dont know... Maybe more about her later. Anyways our church stresses the Holy Spirit (hence the name Church of Holy Vision) and 2 youth members and one girl speak in tongues. I have trouble believing it. It sounds like two of them (siblings... a boy of 13 and a girl of 10) are faking it. I don't know if my faith is shallow or something. Which leads to another topic: my faith.
Well I actually don't remember when I got saved. I dont remember one point in my lifewhere i specifically accepted and my life changed. I sometimes doubt if I am really saved or not. This makes me think if my faith is lacking. Which i think it is. Recently my faith has been shaky. I think about death and I'm scared that when I die, it'll be a different system than what i think it will be. Like what if it really matters that you put your 100% effort in doing God's work. What if we fall short just a bit we can't enter heaven? Or what if God isn't really forgiving. SOUNDS CRAZY...................................................... I think i need rlly pray more and mebbe its a devil thats giving these doubts. Lord please help me know the truth. Help me to believe you are the truth. Its just that ive been thinking that what if our mind makes us believe all this is real when its not. I rlly am doubting a lot. God help me. My faith has been so shaky. I'm sorry if it hinders Your work. Gahhhh... My heart is heavy. Too much stuff. I have SATs, Grades, Social problems, and scripture that I'm worrying about. SATs, Grades, and Social problems... everyone goes through. I won't bother you(whoever is reading this) with it. But some of the old testament is getting to me. I've been reading the bible from Genesis to Revelation with my biblestudy group at church(the one consisting of the 4 youth members) Our teacher's name is Berm. Iono why u needed to know that Ahaha. But we've been reading old testament. We're currently reading Ruth. I hardly do the reading assignment wholeheartedly. I'm rlly lazy. God help my laziness. Thank you for being so patient. Help me to get up. Anyways Teacher Berm's goal is to find out who God is based on scripture. Its just that so many things seem cruel or heartless in the old testament. So many things i dislike. I began to doubt. Like Why does God do these thigns or allow them to happen? In Judges, there was a guy who said that he would sacrifice the first thing that came out of his house to God. It was his daughter. I began to think... God how could u let something like a HUMAN BEING be killed liek that? Well of course I don't know anything cuz Im human... but it just makes me think how mebbe unimportant my life is. Well I dont know how important my life is to God. But I've been going crazy. LIke God is never changing, but now a days u dont see much of the stuff(or ive been sheltered from it) that happened in the old testament. Ive been shaking in faith so much. man.......
I really don't know where Im going. I want to follow God. But what if thats just something my mind made me. I cant base it on emotions alone. But I want to follow God. Thats simply what i want. I know if you're reading this, you think im crazy. Mehhhh... Anyways its almost 12 am and i have classes and tutoring tomorrow. God help my faith I want to know just a bit of what you are.
~Andrew
PS. Teacher Berm( bible study leader) is leaving to China for God's work. I feel like he has guided me a lot. He told me that these doubts i have i need to share or either explode and Not be a christian or will be very shallow. haha. Anyways look for more posts.
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I was in a very dark place when i wrote this, but i am totally better now:)
Pain.
Neverending, tormenting.
Under my skin the blood boils and everything begins to spill over.
Can't anybody hear me??
Can't anybody see??
I'm broken, battered, torn, and damned to the deepest depths of my black soul.
Yes, i have loved and yes, i have lost.
The comfort i found from the man on the cross torn away by this pain.
Tearing, destroying, eating away at the flesh upon my bones.
I'm dizzy, unconcious of the world around me.
Why must my broken bones poke out through my skin??
Tearing me open.
Wound upon wound, gash upon gash.
I feel i've hit my lowest point.
This demonic spirit of depression attacking at my soul.
So tired, so very tired.
I do not want to fight anymore, i cannot!!
My eyelids trying to shut.
Closer, closer they come together but the dreams of unearthly screaming and
Bones protruding from flesh rip them open.
Pain! Let me be!!
Give me 5 seconds of rest!
And as i wish upon the wishing star
IT walks in and asks, "Are you ready??"
I shake my head no but IT engulfs my body in flames and darkness and doesn't let me be.
My eyelids grow heavy once again and i ask, "Why can't i rest?? Why can't i rest??"
And IT says i am in my dark place but this time there is no escape.
Again the pain wretches at my black soul, but this time i do not fight.
I let it consume me from the inside out as i see the children of tomorrow being eaten alive by this
Indesrtuctible creature.
Fire Night
By: Shay H.
Prologue
Ziah and her friends lived in a small town called Abijah, New York. They all went to the same school and loved spending time with each other, but when President Peacey went missing, their world was turned upside down. His brother took over the United States of America with his millions of loyal and power-hungry soldiers who were promised unimaginable power and wealth for their services. With a little help from his supporters, the other Peacey took over America and placed himself in control of the entire country. If people did not bend to his will, they were killed. Simple as that.
Eventually, Tyrant Lye got sick of the first amendment that involved freedom of speech and religion. He decided that Christians would pay for what “they” had done to his family. Lye’s parents and grandparents were killed in Nazi concentration camps by SS guards who had the gumption to call themselves Christians.
Numerous people, including the UN, have tried to displace the tyrant and even cut off their ties to America, leaving in their running shadows another Great Depression. It was not easy to remove this evil Lye from his comfortable throne at the head of the mighty United States of America. During the story, the war continues as other countries try to help solve this problem. More and more people- men, women, and children, are being forced in these awful concentration camps that are based off the originals during the Nazi regime.
Lye had a total of thirty camps, spread throughout unknown places in the United States. They were all controlled by ironically the old president’s brother, Dr. Peacey who was an accursed and despicable man. Each concentration camp is surrounded by barbed wire and complete with an electric fence running down the center to keep males and females separated at night. There is nothing green but a few scattered weeds, which the children from the Brat Spat in Ziah’s camp regularly chew on to give them some extra nourishment, what little it might have. Ziah and her friends are boarded at Camp Anji which houses boy and girls ages 14-18, not including the two and three years in the Brat Spat. Dr. Peacey resided here and oversaw every minute detail of the prisoners’ lives. The young women are expected to sew, take care of the children, cook, and even dig trenches. The young men are required to farm, dig trenches, or mine for the precious commodity of oil.
There were also other forms of discipline other than just being beaten. A cage-like object, just big enough for someone to fit into uncomfortable, was placed in the middle of the yard. There were spikes surrounding the inside so if the prisoner moved at all, they would be cut by them. The most horrific part of the camp was the crematorium. Even Dr. Peacey did not use it that much because it was so unbelievably harsh. They called it the “Kill Buil”. Smoke rose each time someone was burned alive. Their screams echoed in the other prisoners’ heads all day long.
Chapter One
Thick black smoke. Once again billowing towards the expansive sky. Screaming. Unable to tell whether animals or humans were the ones going up in flames inside that detestable ‘Kill Buil’. The stench of burning flesh and hair was snaking throughout the camp, not letting up. They must have burnt four or five people today. “Oh Lord,” Ziah whispered, “Please don’t let it be anyone I know well or any children from the brat spat!” She, as well as her friends, would find out soon enough at next roll call or if someone “signed” it to her. They were not allowed to have conversations in the camp, so the teens developed a system of communication using hand and body gestures, as well as leaving small signs on the ground. For example, if a kitchen girl did not drag her foot on her way to the serving spot, it meant that you must eat sparingly because you would not be getting much else after that meal.
If a prisoner came out of the discipline house with his hands by his side and his thumb out, it could be interpreted that he would not be making a trip to the incinerator just yet. On the other hand, if a boy came out with his arms at his sides and fingers spread out, it meant he would go to the public humiliation box, or The Box. Worse still, if a teen came out with his arms crossed, he was doomed to the Kill Buil. They did not use the incinerator often, but when they did, it was a big deal. Ziah only knew of one person who was sent, and that was two months ago. She would never forget little Abby’s screams of pain and terror and that memory haunted all in the camp. Ziah and her 3 friends loathed the guards who ruled over them with a passion.
In Camp Anji, the guards were all men. Merciless and hateful men. They hardly ever took pity and especially loved to afflict the girls and they were attacked on a regular basis. Some of the boys, brothers or friends, tried to help the girls when they could, but if they did, they were put in The Box and made to watch while the guards raped and tortured the girls. Ziah and Megan never lost their faith in their Lord though. He was the reason they never gave up. He was the reason that all of Ziah’s friends got up. It was not their time to go yet. They would not give up.
Ziah and Charlie eventually became utterly infuriated with the camp and so decided to hatch an escape plan. They were going to call it “Operation Fire Night”. It was presumed that it would be carried out in one month’s time. Until then, Ziah, Charlie, Megan, Corey, and George must get on the guards’ good side. They were supposed to bend to the guards will and do whatever they say. Ziah and Megan were appointed to sew the men a couple of hats because they both were assigned to the sewing stations. It was set that the boys- Charlie, Corey, and George, would do extra work and let the guards beat them whenever they wanted. These five teens must fade into the back round while at the same time get on the guards’ good side. It would not be an easy task.
Chapter 2
Ziah and Megan’s eyes were filled with sorrow when they glanced at their friend Caitlin who had her arms out to her sides and was being led to the Box. “Madness” muttered Ziah as she continued her mandatory sewing. “This must end.”
Megan stole a glance at her best friend but wisely kept her mouth shut. Caitlin had given herself two scoops of ‘mush’ instead of one. They were all starving in the camps and the least she could have done would have been to give the youngest children a bit more then their share instead of just herself. Though Megan did not think that it was justified for her to be sent to the Box, she understood it and was even a little mad at Caitlin for being so selfish.
Megan then got up to give the guard who had green eyes and short black hair the hat she made, which was part of Operation Fire Night. Instead of the reaction she was looking for, the man backhanded her and knocked her to the ground.
“Don’t be a kiss ass, bitch!” he sneered at her. She scrambled back to her seat and worked double-time on the required but pointless sewing. He strode over to her and slapped her across the face again and shouted so that the entire camp could hear, “Thanks to this thing, your rations will be cut in half tomorrow and your work day will start one hour earlier and end one hour later. Feel free to thank her later tonight.”
Meg felt bad and could feel Ziah’s sad eyes resting on her, but they both knew that Operation Fire Night was not going to be perfect right away. The guard stormed back to his post. Megan knew she was going to her it that night from the other girls in the cabin, but she was really just happy he did not send her to the Box, or worse.
~~~~~
That night, much animosity could be felt in the girls’ cabin. People glared and kicked at Meg as she walked by. The only thing she could do was to keep apologizing because of how the guard responded to her little gift. She tried to explain what she was really trying to do, but the girls would not listen. Ziah and Meg had to tweak their plan again. Ziah decided that she would talk to Meg, who slept in the same bunk as her, later that night and they would figure out what they should do and then pass the new information to the boys.
“What now?” Meg questioned after the sound of other girls snoring would muffle their voices.
“We need to be totally inconspicuous.”
“Well then, how?”
“Don’t do anything. Then in a couple of weeks, when they don’t pay any extra attention to us, we can make another move. But for now, we must start over. And no, it wasn’t your fault Meg. I’m sorry he hit you.”
“Eh, I’m used to it now. The new plan sounds good, so no more special treatment?”
“Not unless you think it will be to our advantage.”
“Okay, can you think of a way to tell the boys?”
“Yeah, I’ll tell them somehow. Night.”
“Night, Ziah.”
Chapter 3
At roll call, Ziah stared imploringly at Corey, praying she would catch his attention. He was across the yard, transporting buckets of rocks to the other side, but he finally met her eyes. She slowly blinked twice so he could deduce that she needed to talk to him. Afterwards, she looked around the yard to make sure nobody had seen them and then went back to accidentally pricking her fingers as she sewed endlessly.
Later, during their half-rationed meal, she made sure she got in line behind Corey so she could talk to him.
“Tweak to Fire Night” she murmured as they inched up the food line. “Lay low, don’t do anything. Tell the others,” Ziah said hastily. Corey nodded slightly and went back to the boys’ side after he got his mush. Ziah got hers and found a spot against the wall of the girls’ cabin and waited until Megan had gotten her food.
“Corey was told. No worries now,” Ziah whispered to Meg. “The new plan is simple. Just lie low and in a month or so we will continue with the next phase.”
“Ok, then…wait…Ziah, look at that!” Meg pointed to a spiraling red flare shooting skywards in the distance. “What is that?”
~~2 Days Later~~
The air was cool and moist on their bare arms as they marched outside into the yard for morning roll call under a cloudy sky. There were about fifteen girls and twenty boys who lined up each day. They stood about ten feet apart, girls on the girls’ side, boys on the boys’. They were a ragged bunch. Haggard and emaciated. Blank stares on each teen’s face as the guards made their way slowly down the lines. Ziah always stood directly across from George so she winked and mouthed, “It’s time!” when then the guards were preoccupied with screaming and beating on a red-haired boy with freckles about her age. “Next phase!” Thankfully for Ziah, George could read lips fairly well and winked back. Ziah suppressed a shudder. She did not think to highly of George, being that he was arrogant and annoying. Either way, she got the message across to move on to part two.
~~~
Later that day, a chubby girl of about fourteen, named Nancy came from the Brat Spat because they were having some problems with her young cousin Kevin. Nancy was worried that if he would not calm down soon, the guards would hear and declare him “unfit”. That declaration would render Nancy and the other teacher, Jessica, helpless in protecting him from what the guards wanted to do to him.
As soon as Ziah walked in, she heard Kevin’s distinguishing sobs. “Let me out Zi-Zi! I don’t like it here! I wanna go home!”
“Kevin, hush. Tell me in your big boy voice why you are upset.”
“I want out! I hate it here! Lemme go home!” he screamed. Ziah took the squirming two year old in her arms and rocked him.
“Hey Kev, would you like to know a secret?” she asked excitedly. Her plan was working; the little boy was calming down. “Guess what? I heard that we would be home soon! But until then, I need you to follow Nancy and Jessica’s rules and be on your best behavior, okay sweetie? I need to get back to work now though. Bye honey, I love you!
“Love you too Zi-Zi!”
Chapter 4
Ziah put some extra string in her pocket. Over one week she had only gathered two fistfuls of left over sting from work. They would need a lot more if the Operation is to go smoothly. She was hoping that Charlie, her good friend, and Corey, had gotten a hold of a match or two from the farming area. A couple of leaves and some sticks would help as well. She figured they could carry out the main plan as soon as they had sufficient supplies.
That night, Meg brought in another handful of string. The girls fell asleep with a strangely calm mind for just having decided that the actual escape would take place in two days time. They would tell the boys the next morning. They both knew that the guys have been itching to get it over with. No doubt their adrenaline and testosterone will be fully kicking in very soon.
~~~
At lunch, there was a quick chance for Charlie and Ziah to talk as they were waiting in the lunch line. When Charlie got close enough, Ziah whispered to him, “Charlie, It’s time. We need to do this tomorrow. Did you get what we needed?”
“Yeah, it is all in my pocket. So how are we supposed to go about executing this? I was thinking about…”
“HEY! GET THE HELL OVER HERE!” A guard had seen them talking! “Who the hell do you think you are? Both of you morons. Come!” He punched Charlie in the stomach and as a reaction he let out a grunt. “Oh, he’s a wimp too is he? How about the little bitch? She tougher than you are?” He slapped Ziah across the face but she held her tongue. Her silence only made the man madder. He whispered sneeringly, “So what were you two idiots doin’ over there? I think I heard you were talking about some kind of plan. Were you?” Ziah and Charlie nodded their heads cautiously.
“Speak!”
“No, sir!” they both stuttered.
“Really? Then I guess we will just take a trip to the Kill Buil to see if they will let me burn you for your horrendous misbehavior. Let’s go.”
He pulled the two by their hair but they tried not to attract any more attention than they already had. Ziah silently prayed that Corey or one of the others would not actually try to standup for them. If they did, they could kiss Fire Night goodbye.
The guard threw them inside the door of the discipline area of the Kill Buil. The faint smell of burnt hair and flesh still haunted the air. The guard disappeared behind another door, but Ziah could sense they were still being watched. She did not make a sound but stared wide-eyed at Charlie wondering what they should do. Interestingly, Charlie’s eyes were nonchalant. She thought that maybe he was in shock or something because she was freaking out. Eventually, he met her gaze with his serene, all-knowing eyes. He hugged her tightly and gave her a friendly kiss on the cheek. “Don’t forget me.” Ziah was gaping at him but all too soon three more men came out and pulled them to their feet. They were closemouthed as they brought the youths to the point of a hallway where if you turned right, you would be incinerated and if you turned left, you would be led to The Box. Ziah was sobbing, but Charlie stood wearily and looked very wise in his young age. It was almost as if he knew what was going to happen.
Chapter 5
“So, which one of you wants to die? I will be gracious and let you choose.” Without a second to reconsider, Charlie immediately said, “I will die, send her to The Box.”
Dr. Peacey smiled mockingly. “Isn’t that sweet…the young man saving the lady in distress…what a perfect love story, eh? Too bad I despise love stories.” He turned to the other guards. “Send the girl to die.” They nodded and started to lead a very aghast Ziah to the right of the hall.
Charlie called out, “Guards, I will let you torture me all you want before I die if you let me switch places with the girl.”
The guards laughed. “We will torture the both of you.”
“Sirs, please, let me go instead of her. She is worth more you to you than I am. She will work twice as hard. Let me take her place. I want to see if the fire will make me scream.”
“Hmm… she will be of more use to us…very well. David, take her to the Box and lock her in for three days. One piece of bread and one sip of water per day. Understood?”
“Yes sir!”
“Good. Take our little hero down the hallway and prepare the Kill Buil. Now!”
Before Ziah could protest, she was gagged and her hands bound. Once outside, she got some of her wits back and began planning to save Charlie. She wondered what would happen, not just to her, but to her old friend as well. She still could not grasp the notion that he actually just gave his life to save hers. Would they really kill him? Of course they would. Could she or any of the others save him? No, she could not even figure out how to tell them what happened. All they saw was she and Charlie getting yelled at. They did not know he was going to burn that night.
~~~
Ziah was shoved into The Box. Immediately she could feel her flesh being punctured and her body weeping blood. The pain filled her eyes with tears. She could not help but let out a moan. She noticed she sounded like an animal. Well, it made sense. She was caged like an animal, treated like an animal, and in both the guards’ eyes and now hers she was an animal.
Clouds gathered ominously. Once in a while, after the guard left, people glanced at her. Ziah’s eyes burned with tears and blood dripped into them from the reinforced rusty metal spikes that were piercing her head. She was a horrid sight. Ziah began to feel numb after a few agonizing hours, but if she took too deep a breath, the pain would return with a vengeance. She did not know if she could stand it for much longer. She hoped the days would go by fast, but pain was only part of the reason. She could not bear to think of Charlie. It was more caustic than the spikes. Could she and the now the three others continue the plan? They must. Just with out Charlie- the boy who will go down in history as a hero.
He was so protective. He always stood up for her. He was always there when she needed him. He loved to make them all laugh and succeeded many times. He listened to her and even studied with her. She did not think he ever liked her, but that kiss and hug he gave her today really confused her. He was not a very huggy person. Well, there was no use in thinking of that now; he was a dead man walking. If was still walking. She had no idea how badly they tortured him, she hated to think about it, but there really was not much else to think of.
Chapter 6
Corey had absolutely no idea what to do. The workday was not over yet so he hadn’t seen Ziah in The Box yet. All he knows was that Ziah and Charlie had gotten caught talking during the lunch break. Corey feared the worst for his friends but had come up with numerous ways to potentially rescue them. The only problem was that there was always some major flaw in his plans. They had to keep working and the guards with their dogs were always on watch. Still, Corey knew he had to do something, however he did not know if Fire Night was still in place. What if they were both dead? No, he couldn’t think about that. They were still alive until the damn Kill Buil coughed up more smoke. He shuddered. Besides, if they died some other way, George would know because he worked as a trench digger where the trenches doubled as graves. Corey paused to wipe the sweat off his forehead and continued again.
Oh my God…No. No, it can’t be!
There was smoke emerging from the smoke stacks of the Kill Buil. They were heating it up. Preparing it for one or both of his friends. No, please, Lord, no! The screaming will be coming soon…No! He only smelled wood so far...but hair would come soon…and then flesh.
~~~
A low moan started to fill Corey’s ears. He couldn’t help it and let a tear roll down his cheek. There was definitely at least Charlie in there.
“No, please, no,” Corey murmured. The moaning got louder and louder, the stench of burning hair made its way around the camp. The moans turned into screams; apparently the guards had cut him with a knife to make him die faster but even more painfully. Ear splitting cries engulfed the camp. Corey whispered, “Please God, don’t let him feel any pain, make it only be a show for the guards, take his pain from him but let him keep sobbing so the guards think they won.”
A scorched flesh and hair combination permeated throughout the camp. Sobs. Shrieks. Terror. After fifteen minutes of emotional torture for all those who knew Charlie or Ziah, the wails began to die down. He was dying. The dark clouds overhead began to cry bitterly for the young man. Then the cries stopped all together. Charles Jonathan Moyer was dead. Thunder boomed its sorrow for the boy. Corey stopped his farming, and knelt in the now wet dirt to pray. He didn’t care what the guards did to him now.
“Lord,” he whispered, “Please thank Charlie for me. Thank you for giving him to us. Let him be at peace with you dear Father. And please, save your daughter Ziah, if she is not already with you. In Jesus’ name, Amen.” Just then, a guard stalked up to him and punched him four or five times. Even that horrible man had a tiny bit of sympathy and didn’t discipline him more than that. Corey’s nose was bleeding, but he got up and took his sorrow out on the dirt under his feet. He worked like never before.
Chapter 7
Finally, the long, sad day was over, and as Corey marched to roll call before lights out, he looked for Ziah. He saw her in the Box, bloody and gagged. He was so happy she was alive, but it made him sick to his stomach just looking at her. Once the teens were accounted for, the head guard, Dr. Peacey, spoke.
“Who sees this girl in the public humiliation box? You may answer.”
“We do, sir” the teens chanted in unison.
“You!” he pointed to Meg, “What is its name?”
“Sir! Her name is Ziah sir!”
“Right, are you friends with it?”
Meg hesitated. “No, sir!”
“Good, it does not deserve friends. This…. thing… actually discussed with a male prisoner plans of escaping Anji! So bold they thought they were. So heroic. How stupid! There is no escape from this or any other camp. None. Let this be a warning to you maggots. Whoever tries to escape will be tortured and killed in front of everyone. Would you like to know how they will die?” A pause. “One of my guards will tie them to the ground with their feet together and arms spread out. Just like that damn Jesus guy. Each hand and each foot will be shot point blank. Their fingertips will be burned, their nose twisted off, and eyes gauged out. If anyone cries while this is being performed, that individual will join them. None of you will escape. Understood?”
“Understood, sir!” they all chanted.
Corey turned his attention back to Ziah. She was either unconscious or just being silent. He guessed unconscious. This was insane. Te guard made them all watch the caged girl for two hours. Three people fainted from locking their knees on inn pure disgust. They were kicked awake and made to stand up again. Corey had to help put an end to this.
Chapter 8
Meg walked to her sewing station. It had been three days since Ziah was put into her new prison. She will be let out and fed some real mush, but she’ll be on her own for cleaning the many wounds. Meg would help her with that though. The only thing is, she can’t let the guards realize they care so much for each other otherwise they could use that knowledge against them. She did not want to think of what they would do, but it would be worse than the Box.
Like all the others, Meg was upset about Charlie dying. She was going to cry with Ziah, if need be. She, as well as Ziah, hated crying but Meg had to admit that she wept for her dear friend Charlie. So brave he was. She didn’t know the gruesome details yet, but she was sure Ziah needed to tell someone. She kind of did and did not want to hear it, but her friendly love for the both of them told her she needed to know.
~~~
Ziah staggered towards her station. Dark red covered her skin, her beautiful blue eyes physically drained, but Meg could have sworn she saw something sparkle even in her pain.
“Ziah!” Meg whispered.
“M-M_Meg…”Ziah collapsed onto her station and covered her face. “ Cha..Char…Charlie!” Ziah’s voice was getting louder so Meg had to regrettably hush her.
“Shush…its alright honey, its alright.” Meg held Ziah in her arms with sisterly love. Ziah was beginning to make a scene, but miraculously God shut the guards’ eyes and ears towards them. For now, they were safe.
“Ziah honey, let me see you. Are you in pain? Kristen, get me some water and the cleanest dirty rag you can find. Now. Please go.” Kristen got up obediently and jogged to find water.
“Z, do you want to talk about it?”
Ziah was curled up in the fetal position against Meg. Her clothes were getting smeared blood on them but she didn’t care.
“I…I can’t…he gave his l-life to save m-me!”
Meg didn’t know what to say. She didn’t think that Charlie would EVER take any kind of punishment for someone else. He was too arrogant! This blew Meg’s mind that he was actually a hero.
“Ziah, tell me what happened, you cant keep it bottled up or you will explode! Please. Let me share your pain. You can tell me.
Ziah, stuttering and sputtering told Meg everything. The guards didn’t notice them throughout the solemn chat. Meg quietly thanked the Lord for keeping Ziah safe and the both of them hidden. The story Ziah told was horrifying. She cried and wept at the end of it with poor Ziah. She was so sorry she actually had to go through it.
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Ok. First off i know i ain't been blogging here much. I have been having some health issues and putting time into other things so this has sort of fell into the overflow pile. Well now i'm finally able to start working through that particular pile since things slowed down. It has been a busy few months. My sister graduated, we done extensive mulching work throughout our entire landscape all together about 10 yards of mulch which is 5 to 6 pickup beds of my 97 Ranger. On top of all that we have had hockey and other things going on so i have been busier then heck. Anywho, i figured i would post a blog up here and get yall's response to some things if yall would be so kind as to leave some comments.
Ok. Well where do i start? lol. Umm it's been a rough few months. I'm holding onto god and for the most part doing good though sometimes i just can't take it and turn to my old ways. I know some people don't understand it but when you have demons from 16 years chasing you and you gotta deal with them, on top of your current everyday life. There are days when you just want to numb yourself to it all, i ain't a drinker, i ain't got nothing against it i'm just underage, anywho as i was saying there are days when i get to the point of wanting to just crack open a bottle and let go. There is a song and one of the lines in it is "One broken bottle, and one broken man. Drenched in a boubon perfume." That is me in a metaphorical speaking way. Even though i have god i'm still broke down. I'm still setting on the side of the road hoping someone might come along and tow my sorry butt somewhere so to speak. So what i'm getting at is how do i get to where i want to be? I try on my own and whatnot and reading the bible but i read it i can't get my mind to think deeper into the meaning behind the verses if that makes sense? That is probably my biggest problem because once i can get myself to that point then i figure logically i'll be able to get the rest of my life straight. I have thought about going to church but truth be told, i'm not the kindof person churches like in their congregation. I'm a little too hard, a little too rough, a bit too outspoke, and overall i just ain't the kindof person most churches take kindly too. Mainly because i'm the one in jeans, boots, t-shirts, a dip can in my back pocket, 2 or 3 pockt knives on me. I just have an image about me that people don't care for. Though honestly something is telling me that i need church or someone to guide me on earth so to speak. So i don't honestly know what this past paragraph of rambling is really supposed to get at. I can only fathom that i'm grasping at straws reaching out for advice on how to not just be a person who has accepted god but that is growing in god. That make any sense? lol.
Onto the next issue for this blog. I promise this blog has 2 issue max limit seeing as it's 5:20 am and i have been awake pert near 16 hours. lol. The second issue at hand is of my ex girlfriend. Not that i want to get back together with her, been there, done that, we just wasn't meant for each other. The issue i'm having is this. Since finding god i have been able to let my discontent and anger with her go. Now the issue is i want to start talking to her again though the last time we talked was like January. Which it was a few sentence response from an email i sent her. Essentially appologising for all the hell i put her through and thanking her for in the beginning saving me from myself. She responded and said it was cool and water under the bridge. Since then we haven't talked. I'm hesitant to contact her because i don't want to upset her, she is a good girl and doesn't need any more issues in her life. On the other note she means a lot to me and we had a great friendship before this mess and i want to pick that back up because as a friend she is great. She has bailed me out of so many mental slumps and helped me so much. So what i'm trying to figure out is should i contact her or should i just leave it be? I figure the worst she can do is ignore me, respond and tell me off, or just respond and say leave me alone. Anywho i don't know what do yall think i should do?
That all being said i shall wrap up this addition of my blog seeing as it is now almost 5:30 am and i will await responses or comments.
Ranger97
So i really want more friends. I love helping people out with situations. I love chatting away when im bored. I love talking about the lord! :DD So come on people! :) Lets go down the highway to heaven!
When Jesus says blessed are the merciful for they shall receive mercy, he assumes that you really can't be merciful until you've received mercy in the first place. Mercy is not a deal, but an ongoing lifestyle. We receive mercy then we show mercy and as a result we receive more mercy, and as a result, we then show more mercy-and on and on.
It's like we're rolling a snowball downhill. We start with a small one, maybe the size of a baseball. As we toss it down the hill, immediately gravity starts to pull it farther downhill. As it rolls over, of course, it collects more snow. Now it's bigger and heavier, and so gravity pulls it even harder. It rolls over even faster, and collects more snow, and gets heavier, and rolls faster. And so on. Before you know it, it's a huge ball, bounding down the hill. That's how it is with mercy: The more we receive mercy, the more we give mercy.
What to do when you know you are losing the battle? Is running away and crying means you lose?
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For the last weeks, it was like i was living in a dream. I always told my self, "This couldn't really be happening. We can't be leaving like this"
I wanted so badly to believe this, but at the same time i knew that it ccoulnt' be true. We were leaving.
It was harder than i had expected. That last day was the hardest of all. Everyone was trying not to cry, not to talk about sad things, but it wasn't working very well. Everytime we looked at eachother, we had to look away again real fast so that we wouln't start crying all over again. I got a lot of gifts, My best friend even came all the way from her boarding school for the week end so we could spend my last days together. Everyone begged and begged me not to go , but that just made things worse, cuz if i had a choice, of course i would have stayed back.
When it was finally time to go, my friend Sonia had to pull me up off my chair, cuz for some reason, i couln't make my self budge. I cried and cried, and couldn't understand for the life of me why my mother, father and brother were soo cheery all during the boatride down the river. All that i could think about was that each minute, i was getting further and further away from my home, the village that i love sooo dearly, and that will always stay in my heart no matter what.
Han..
A certain person is having problems with the drifting of his spiritual life away from God. I got inspired to reply that I wanted to share it to all the people out there. This is what I replied:
I had the same situations before but now I could say that I'm coming back. I've realized that we are always reminded everyday with all His wonderful ways of enriching us because of His whole-hearted eternal love for us. He doesn't want us to be hypnotized by the evil spirit's plan of pulling us away from Him. If we are worried of our poor spiritual life it only means that we're hungry for more of his wisdom and His presence in our life, this touches His heart. You don't need to go to churches or youth groups just for the sake of going there because you think that's the right thing to do for you to uphold your relationship with Him. Because His holy spirit is in you anywhere and everywhere is a church, it doesn't really need to be a fancy place or something; do you see where I'm getting to? We have youth groups because God uses the people there to comfort and help other people in pain face the struggles in life and just ultimately be inspired by His great Love for all of us here to live life in his accordance. For almost 3 weeks I've been lost. Hardships have flourished; I was letting the bad spirits' tricks perceive me away from Him. I didn't like the way I run my life. I felt incomplete and sad every time. I needed him so bad, in doing so; I stopped thinking about my problems and eagerly asked Him to help me turn my life around again. My life now runs smoothly putting Him first in everything I do. This test he gave made me realize a lot of stuff. He amazes and inspires me with the way he gives me strength to carry on. He makes me love him even more. Nothing would really make sense in life without our dear Lord Jesus Christ.
Its been 2 weeks since me and this muslim guy i really like hanged out with each other. I feel so sad knowing that he's not even doing anything to fix are problem.It makes me feel that its as if he doesnt even care. He's hurting me so bad. He just doesn't know it! Its disappointing just to even think that i waited for him so that we could talk but then he just left me..so what does this mean..that he's giving up??huhuhuhu
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so just recently i just started to go to a new church called Victory Outreach it is sooo cool. i feel like i belong their. and for the youth, i joined the GANG it stands for Gods Anointed Now Generation it is amazing how just on service changed my life. but yea if you attend Victory Outreach where you live, let me kno
So i just thought i would post some things i have been pondering all day and finally got the time to write.
Frist thing is why is it that so many people can't take into consideration what you see as a joke might be taken serious by someone. This ponderism was sparked by what a few associates at school done to another guy. Keep in mind it's a vocational school and i'm only there for 2 and 1/2 hours in the morning then i do virtual school for my academics so i wasn't there for this. Anywho my one friend dosn't have a date for prom so a couple of guys from our program say something to this girl about my friend looking for a date for prom and they asked if she would go with him and she said maybe. Well what they didn't tell the poor girls is that my friend who dosn't have a date isn't interested in her at all and it was all a joke. Now why can't they realise this will probably hurt the girl if my friend tells her he ain't interested. Anywho, that one just ticked me off and maybe it's because i know the feeling of having trouble finding a date and also have the highest respect for women and hate to see one get hurt in any way. Anywho, i guess that is it for that ponderism it just bugs me and these jerks don't even think twice about it. Then again they are the brilliant batch who thought it was funny to put a chicken wing on my cb antenna so why am i expecting anything specatcular.
Second thing for tonight. Why is it that when parents are being stupid and rather then be adults about a situation their children have to be the adult? My parents constantly have money issues, it's all i have known my whole life. Currently we are doing a heck of a lot better then where we have been however my parents aren't on the same page and want to blame each other instead of taking mutual responsibility for the problems and fixing them. I can't get my mom to realise that this is the kind of stuff where it will lead to divorce. I can set here and watch the foundation of their marriage cracking and they don't seem to care. It also irritates me that this spills over onto me and my siblings(i'm the youngest but the most mature). Due to their bickering and tension there is always slight tension and you never know what could spark who. I guess maybe i'm just more affected by it then my siblings but it's hard to set here and watch your parents letting their marriage go to crap. It's also hard to try and stay on the right path when there is so much negativity, i keep fighting but there are days when i question why. I figure though if it ain't killed me yet there is a reason and i'm supposed to keep pushing on and looking to god for guidance. So yeah that is another ponderism for the night.
Third and final one for tonight that is more of a joke then anything else why does my truck keep breaking? lol. Since i bought it in september of 2008 i have had to replace spark plugs, wires, ignition coil, oil, filter, tires, radiator, and other minor parts. The worst part is it's a 97 so it shouldn't break this much. The current thing i just figured out is my dad managed to bust my rear shocks bottoming out the suspension with the bed loaded down with mulch in our front yard. You would think in his 40 some years he would know not to back a loaded mid-size pickup into a yard at the ditch, come in off the drive. lol. Ok, that one is kind of pointless i just sortof felt like rambling about my truck, i have been told by some i love that truck more then i love food(not true). lol.
So if anyone wants to comment feel free. Hopefully i don't sound like i'm complaining because i'm not. I have been blessed with a lot of good in my life i just have to vent about the bad and let the pressure off some. I'm thankfully every day i wake up alive and able to get out of bed, so i'm not complaining by a long shot.
Ranger97
Dan
Well Today was kinda good. I got up around 7:00 which you should know that I sleep to about 9 9:30.Neways I went to work at 9:38 early early to early.Well It was slow again and my Boss Larry he was telling me that I dont need to work for him anymore... He was not fireing me he just did mot need me since tax season is over. I am kinda glad altho the money was really nice Well I'll just find a new job well try.I read my book for like 3 hrs it was really good. Um i got home got ready to go to this teen class called LIFE,then I ate some dinner then I ran into Brookshires and got some cookies for my dad and then he droped me off at my class.As soon as i came in to sign in I got my pix taken I like getting my pix taken Neway I was just hanging out with my friends we had a fireball contest of course I had lost I was the first one to spit it out.I couldn't keep my eyes off of this dude that I like. It is really hard cuz I am not alound to have like a boyfriend and I don't know if he likes me. So me and my friend went outside and we were doing cartwheels I really suck at it too. Neways we went iside cuz it was starting I was searching for *him*.... Well we played some games they were fun but very dorky *him* played it he was on my team... Neways My brother is best friends with *hims* brother. So i rode home with them it was so hard not to look at him. I didnt want hime to think you know that I actually like him but then how would i ever find out if he liked me.. All of my friends say that he likes me but i don't think so he acks the same around me as anyone else altho I did have a few moments with him nothing big just like us meeting our eyes together i don't know why but whenever I meet his eyes i always look down I hate it. So I was all prepared today if i met his gaze i would gaze back. Well guess what it didn't really work I hate it. I think that I want him to know that I like him but I don't want to go up to *him* and be all like hey dude I really like you and have a huge CRUSH on you.. Well That's all for today. Keep reading my online blog.
P.S. Don't forget to follow your dreams
Well today is my first day using this site. Well Today was a boring day for me. I got up at 7:30am got dressed which took 30 min while the whole time all I was thinking about was reading my book New Moon. I love it.So at 8:05am (35min)lol. I went in the living room and sat in my chair the one that everyone of my sibilings know that it is mine.My parents went to work and my lil sister went with them to, My brother was home till bout 9:45am. Neways, I was starting to read my book when my brother comes in the nice quiet living room and plugs him ipod into the stereo and turns it on MAX. I tried reading and consitrating on my book. It was working better than I thought. He was messing around on my laptop when out of the blu he is done and slams it shut I got upset cuz my laptop opens way to easy and I dont want his to break it so he said I was a brat and everything, it didn't bother me. So anyway I had to go to work at 10:00 So I had to leave around 9:45am cuz I had to ride my bike today I hate riding my bike to work.Well I work at a office it was pretty slow.That's why my day is so boring.Neways When i got home at 5:00pm I watched Gilmore Girls,ate some dinner,did chores (not fun), got on my laptop and went on Yahoo Messenger I was chatting with my friend. When I was talking to her I saw this call button so I clicked it and I was talking to her on my laptop. We were freaking out. It was hilarious. Well after that got boring I read in my book, Then took a shower then read some more then txt my brother and read and then got on my laptop and now I am righting in my journal and listening to music (Jordan Sparks Next to you) I like this song cuz I think that it reminds me of me.Well Keep reading my online crazy boring spontaneous journal.
P.S. Don't Forget To Follow Your Dreeam.
So, I just signed up on this site. I thought it would be good for me to talk to more teens my age who follow Jesus Christ in their lives. I've gone through a lot from March 2008 to the present, even as I am writing this blog. I finally got the hint that I couldn't do it on my own and I needed Christ in my life.
I tend to be an open person so here's a list of some of what I've gone through:
- Had 3 CT scans w/ barium and iodine because my doctor thought I had lymphoma.
- Became highly depressed from some birth control pills (it can happen).
- Went to a pyschiatric ward in December 2008 for cutting myself
- Was diagnosed as having Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Dysthymia. I am your typical, textbook Borderline. I misinterpret things a lot, I am a highly sexual person, I have low self-esteem, I have rocky relationships with people except casual friendships.
- Had my boyfriend of over a year and a half/fiance break up with me three days after the anniversary of us losing our virginity to each other.
- Have had to deal with him being a jerk to me, him going back to drugs, him finding a new girlfriend who loves to make me miserable, and all the while him telling me (when he's high) that he still loves me and he isn't sure if he's happy with the new girl but he thinks things are too broken between us (we were having problems because I didn't know how to control my Borderline as well).
- Dealt with my sister running away (she came back though!) because she can't stand my dad anymore.
- Had someone who I thought was a friend pressure me repeatedly until I had sex with him.
Through all of this, I was miserable. I felt dead inside. I didn't want to wake up in the mornings and face the day. I was so far from God it seemed impossible to reel myself back in. One night recently, I was considering hurting myself and my best friend texted me saying I should give my testimony at church because she thought it would inspire others with how much I've gone through in just the last year. I haven't given my testimony yet but I have given my heart back to Christ.
I am very proud to say that April 3, 2009 will make me cut-free for 4 months! :)
This is one of my favorite worship songs
All Around Me
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air, I'm breathing
Holding on to what, I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air, I'm breathing
Holding on to what, I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air, I'm breathing
Holding on to what, I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
Hi! Im Sabrina. Homeschool gal who luvs books. Im aslo very lyal to my friends. Id luv to chat with u sometime! life is hard and the path is easier with friends! Im not shure what else to post.. Ill post mre as life comes along. Well I gtg. Sabrina
my family has a farm and in our farm we have pigs,goats,chickens,and sheep and one of those sheep had
baby lambs. Two of them their both boys and it was really amazing because I had forgoten to feed the animals
because it was sunday and all.
so anyways I got out to the barn at like 9 pm and I was about to throw the hay down
when I heard little bleating, we have teenager lambs and I knew that teenager sheep don't sound like that and so I realized that
there were babies down in the pen and remembered that also there were big sheep and the poor babies might get trampled
so I ran down to the pen and saw that the babies were already like a day old and our farm has never had baby sheep
live a whole day without a persons help to help the baby find its mother and stand up and so I was shocked for a minute
but after the minute went by lol I ran inside to tell my mom . after words my mom told me that she thought I was hurt
well I had to get her attention and when I got inside I didn't know where in the house she was so I just yelled for her to come here
My family wasn't expecting lambs so soon so maybe that why I was shocked idk I mean its not even close to spring yet
and we didn't know that this ewe was pregnant we just thought she was always big.
so now we have two little baby lambs that only a day old
none of them have to be bottlefed though which I wish was different because whenever we have bottlefed lambs
they get really tame and follow you around everywhere their so cute when their like that
thats about it ttyl
@Rosebud@
winter jam is coming up for us in michigan and its going to be sweet tobymac is going to be there and hawk nelson and newsong and a lot more singers like I said before its going to be sweet
free to be me is an awsome song by francesca battistelli ( I think thats how you spell her name)
I can't wait my cousin is going and I hope a friend of mine will say yes to going I don't think she's a christian
but that doesn't mean she can't go
@Rosebud@
Hello, My name is Marissa and I would like to make a few friends here. I'm new to this place so I hope I can get used to it. I just got done reading this blog that talked about having action in our faith in God. I totally agree and can relate. Whn I was younger I thought that to be a Christian all you had to do was believe that God is real and follow His rules but thats not everything. You have to take action and show others your love for God. I'm glad to be a Christian and can't wait to reach eternity!!! I hope some of you read this and comment on this blog!
Thanx
What We Know:
Most of us know what the term "Creation Science" means. It doesnt relate entirely to Intelligent Design, which is more in the label of Philosophy than science. So, to start off, what is Creation Science and what defines a Creationist? A Creationist is a person who's profession is partaking in scientific observations which would relate to the side that God had created everything/proving Biblical Scripture on the side aswell. A Creationist can also be a person who believes that God created everything and is looking into those scientific studies. But the thing is, like many things with the Christian community, it has a controversy stuck on its rear. Why is Creationism a dangerous ideal or lacking enough proof to be scoffed at? Well, there are numerous reasons why and one of them is from Non-Believers. When Creation Science hits your knogging, what is its "enemy"? You'd probably think of the Evolutionary Theory. The Evolutionary Theory has many corners that revolve around living and non living objects, interesting to say thought that this theory has created a lot of wonderful ideals to save lives, and to grow societies. And that's about it..LOL... But it doesnt stop there, it also created anti-God idealogies, principles that reflect negatively on non-favored individuals, mainly pertaining to race and religious stats. It also has twisted historical events which point out that the Ancient civilizations were of weak minded and failed miserably in becoming "civilized" as us. I find that far more revealing than anything that religion has done. To debunk the Evolutionary Theorists with ease, not only were the Ancients highly intelligent with mathematics, astronomy, science, and philosophy, but they managed to control the world quite a few times and has more success on doing it than what can be done today without drugging and dumbing up the majority at the same time. But that's not where Im going with this topic.
What's The Point?:
The problem is, when people start believing in something more than what they are able to actually scientifically observe themselves and to fully comprehend of its terms as well as having the ability to debunk all other beliefs on the side, they are placing faith in the mix. Why I say that is because the majority of folks you can talk to about Creation and Evolution, you wont find a beginning point and prove it. Sure they could bring up Genesis 1:1 or the Evolutionary view that the Big Bang created all, but funny how people are so troubled in saying "Maybe God created the Big Bang?" "Maybe the Big Bang is a false God, an Earthly view of God?" Questions pop up, but only will it have to be seperated from the other, and that's were everyone will lose. Creationism does not prove God's existence, the Evolutionary Theory does not disprove God's existence. Now, things that are scientifically observed an is shown to be proof from Biblical Scripture only proves on thing in particular, and that is it proves those who were part of the plot were right. But, we've never seen God, so we cant prove God's existence through His creations. Especially in the era that we are in, good luck in trying. Now I can name dozens of things that makes Creation Science highly controversial, and I can name dozens of things that makes Evolutionary science highly controversial. The two are religious and will not find or successfully remove God. So why is Creationism so important in the Christian community? Well, Many scientists who influenced Evolutionary scientists were Creationsts, so what is the deal with the cover up? And second, if you find that many of the Creation views by others were found false, would that bump your faith level? The problem is with Creationism, it is a set of beliefs with the use of science to try coming up with some sort of evidence of God's existence... Interesting, but not spiritual. Do we find Christ in the ground? Do we find Christ by splitting atoms? Do we find Christ by arguing to others that we didnt originate from apes? Do we find Christ in studying AIDS and finding funky evolutionary (FACT: They claim the mutation and immunity with viruses and antibiotics to be evolutionary and proof of it, actually, it doesnt prove jack) sequences in the change of DNA? No... Nothing of that is spiritual, nothing of that is worth the spotlight in gaining relationship in Christ and God Almighty.
So, simply, what should a Christian do when someone from a family member to a friend to a class mate etc says that they believe in Evolution and that Creation is crap? A Christian should remember what is important and that is "Science doesnt prove or disprove God because you cannot scienfiically observe a spiritual connection with yourself and God".. Cant happen, wont happen. Same with what you will learn from Scripture and history about Babylon, and Greece and Persia and Rome, etc.. Find anything to question against God and find an answer for it simply because you believe it, you start thinking you are something in awe..Instead, you fail to awknowledge a savior... Anyone care to remember just what made the Greeks a sad group of people those times?
i believe in God, the majority of us in here do: but is it only me that realizes the fact that science and nature are always putting the Bible down. Like yesterday i was watching the history channel(i think) and they brought a very important fact. Dinosaurs are preferbly the first species on earth and they date back millions of years ago, but the bible only dates back 6000 years. So who's right science or the Bible??? Everyone agrees the Bible is right, but if Adam and Eve were seriously the first people created, how did cain and abel and all of Gods creation come to life. The Bible kinds of leaves this big gap in the very beginning. Please do not get me wrong, I am a strong believer, i do not have any doubts or anything but this thought is constantly in my mind: CREATION:)
im not the best a blogs, so here i go lol.
i luv music. Yes i like sum classical music its not a crime. i also luv jazz, rock & sum metal kinda weird.
I play the cello, & hav been playing it for 5yrs, and im doing 6th grade. I also play tenor saxophone which is rele cool & is TONS better than the alto sax. i also play guitar, but im teaching myself & only picked it up like 2 months ago, and im not the best lol. I sing in the skool musicals & luv singing
I luv animals, and u havnt seen anything till uve seen an animal being born, then u can rele see the miricle that life rele is.
Horses r awsum 2 :)
skools pretty cool, i luv ancient history, music and D&T (like workshop, we make things) and its all rele cool :)
I wish that there were more ppl that hav a strong christian faith! I go 2 a christian skool, but very few rele seem to hav a strong, or any faith at all. i wish that there were more guys that cared and worried more about their faith than wat other ppl think of them... and all the other stuff that they think of.
people shood b optimistic, it rele is contagious
"Give a man a fish, feed him for a day. Teach him to fish, feed him for life. Lead him to Christ- feed him for eternity" :)
