idk what to do any more.. feels like god is turning his back on mii.. dont no what i believe any more.... im tired of crying blood and bleeding tears.. im sick of not being whho i am and im sick of being afraid to be who i am... god if u see this help mii.. y are u forsaken mii.. ive done nothing but read ur word and praise ur name.  like mii fav song from skillet "And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault

(Chorus)How could you, how could you,
how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?
open wounds."

how could u....

ive been having these thoughts latly and when i cut i feel the urge to just  move a little to the lefrt and get it over with... i dont think any one can possibly understand how could they no one nows the fell mii

no one wnats to....

so im gone...

im dead...

and im...............

Was walking down memory lane,
Was walking on the beach,
Throttling the feelings of pain,
Keeping doubts out of reach.

Had a look at the sands of time
The hours when time itself stood still,
Could hear distant bells chime,
And I was walking while I still stood still.

Felt the heat of the sun beating,
Could sense an awe that the past left,
Saw the sheath of life fleeting,
Glimpses of what was there were best.

I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I Know'
I said 'God I cry alot'
And God said 'That's why I gave you tears'
I said 'God I get so depressed'
And God said 'That why I gave you sunshine'
I said god I feel Alone'
And god said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'
I said 'god my loved one is dead'
And God said'I watched mine nailed to the cross'
I said God 'Where are they? '
And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light.
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I know'

well today was ok but im upset thAt i cant to  to church and to add on that i havent been to church in like 2 weeks.. idk y but it seems like somethings missing idk what but im just iching to find out.... well peace for now one love

its not that easy i love god. but sometimes it seems that he isnt listing and that im all alone thats y i joine this group to see if any one would listen and just hear miii dont have alot of people i can trust and i just feel like im drowning and holding my hand out so god can help mii but all he does is looks at mii????

<<<<help mii please>>>>

by confused

A secret in the house
held from everyone
can't get out
suffocating
bleeding from my cuts

No one was home
I was all alone
just like I've always been
locked myself inside
can't turn back
I lost the key

I think of life
and what will happen when I'm gone
I daydream
see my parents splitting up
see them dying of grief
seeing the friends I have
go suicidal
the one I hate partying
my ex
also partying

I realize what I've done
if I die
the good have lost
the evil will win
I don't want to die

But the key is gone
the door is locked
no one there to help
I'm dying
against my will

I'm an angel now
watching over everything

I see my parents splitting up
I see them dying of grief
I'm seeing the friends I have
go suicidal
the one I hate partying
my ex
also partying

A secret life a secret death
breaks apart